A Toni Talks Special with Mariel and Bianca | Toni Talks

We have 3 decks!

I didn't know you guys have that! Oh my god! We had a cover!

We had a cover for a magazine! You are the soul!

You are the mind!

And you're the heart! Yes! Another Goosebumps moment for my arm!

I didn't know that!

Yes!

That's so good! Oh my God, yes! What kind of question is that?

We made Ma cry.

No, but that's true.

That's one question I've never ever thought about.

And while Marielle was answering, I thought of mine.

I didn't know. I'm gonna cry.

Yeah. Meaningful conversations.

Hello Philippines! Hello world! Happy New Year! This is one of the best gifts I've received to be able to be with the two OG

of Kuya's Angels. Bianca and Mariel!

Yay! Together again!

We watched Backstreet Boys, they had a reunion, they had a 98 Degrees reunion, they had a sex bomb reunion, so...

I like that!

I like that!

After sex bomb!

After sex bomb, we'll do it!

After sex bomb!

I like that!

Kuya's Angels had a reunion too. After sexbomb! I like that! Angels in the Green Union! They've been requesting for a long time, it's been 5 years already.

True! This is something that we're going to make it worth the wait. Yes!

We're under pressure!

We can do it! I was thinking, when was the last time we were together on screen? You know, it was 2016. We were pregnant. 2016, yes.

I had Lucia. We were pregnant with Seve and Isabella.

So it has been 9 years!

OMG! 9 years? On screen. Crazy!

I didn't know you. I didn't know that. Hold on.

Hold on.

You said you interviewed here.

There's more after this.

I'm getting goosebumps.

It's true. I swear. No, I mean on stage. Like on screen. Because that was the promo of the TVB. Yes.

We were both in the movies and I was already bed-rested. Wait, nine years? The last on stage together. If I go back to the past, because this is a very special episode of Toni Talks, Bianca and Marielle and I, in the dressing room, when I go back, it's girl talk. It's usually about work, about boys, heartbreak, and not so much really about life.

Because in our 20s, I realized, what do we really know about life? Our life is just about working.

Shopping. Day to day.

Day to day. If you're brokenhearted, you'll buy shoes. Yes.

The bag, the deserve. You're tired, you did a lot of back to back taping, you'll buy that. But we're here in the stage of our lives now. I don't know if you feel that.

When you reach the age of 40, you're looking for more meaningful conversations. We have this Tony Talks card.

It's so beautiful!

Is this a Tony Talks game? Yes.

That you can do with your friends? Meaningful conversations card.

Wow!

It's like an icebreaker. Uncle Boy was so good at meaningful conversations.

It's so beautiful. Beautiful.

So we have three decks.

Oh my God!

We did that!

Oh my God!

Right?

Don't you remember?

We had a cover!

We had a cover for a magazine.

2007.

You are the soul of PVD.

See, Bianca is the mind.

And you're the heart.

Yes!

We have that!

Another Goosebumps moment for my arm!

I didn't know that!

Yes! That's amazing! Oh didn't know that!

Yes!

That's amazing!

Oh my God, yes! It's like Director Gilmore is the one who told us that you are the soul, you are the mind, and you are the heart. I was telling that story in the dressing room earlier. I was so goosebumps when I saw that. I told her, you know, whenever there's an eviction, no fail, no fail. I'm the one who cries,

because it's always like we're family, like Marielle. That's why she's the heart. Until it's hidden. So that's it, we categorized her.

It's really meant to be.

Wait, wait, wait.

We need to switch up right now because I'm the one who's already… Is there a color? Wait, we need to switch up right now because I'm the one who's confused. This is the soul. This is the mind. You want to switch? Okay.

Oh my gosh! The heart is pink, the mind is blue. The soul is green.

Green, yeah.

My goosebumps are so long.

There's a category for the questions.

It's so beautiful.

So, these are the questions I asked in the conversations we had. And there are questions that you would want to ask someone that you want to get to know more on a deeper level.

It's so beautiful.

On a deeper level.

Yes.

It's so beautiful. The colors, the packaging, everything is beautiful.

You lost the first one to lose.

Okay, so let's start.

One each?

Okay.

So I'll pick one. The question is, what's one truth you've recently embraced about yourself?

Wait, wait. The heart.

Hold on, hold on. I should have had lunch. You need a lot of brains. It's not in the soul, it's in the name. What's the one truth? I have an answer.

I cannot please everybody. That's true. I embraced this stage in my life. Or at least you accepted him. Because in your 20s, you're all about, can you accept me?

Ironically, I realized this when I was watching K-Pop Demon Hunters. Oh wow, what a realization. What a movie to realize.

Imagine that you're in a deep realization. They're going to epiphany there. Before Golden came out.

So my favorite was Rumi. And I remember when they went to Healer Hun, Yeah, yeah. It's a bit of an epiphany. Back out, go back out. No, before that. Okay.

So, Rumi is my favorite. Then, remember when they went to Healer Hunt, and Healer Hunt said, you have walls. I feel like when I grew up, I didn't have walls.

Now, I realize, I used to have a lot of walls. I used to slowly shed them. I was being put down by the 30s, and now it's the 40s. That's what I embraced. I feel like the wall is to protect yourself. Yeah, I agree. The insecurities, the fears.

But you embraced it now. Yes. There are really walls. Honestly, I embraced myself. I'm here now. Yes, really.

You don't want to... I don't put effort on it anymore. I'm happy with myself. Yes, really. I don't put effort on it anymore. I'm happy with myself. And no reason to be not. Okay. Thank you. Beautiful. I mean, also my body.

Yes.

I'm happy with it. If it goes down, thank you.

If it goes up, okay.

But the hormones are also important. Because we're perimenopause. Yes, we're perimenopause.

And I've accepted that.

Me too. That's the truth. I embraced it. I embraced that this is me.

Embracing all the hormonal changes. Okay, what's next?

This one, from here.

Let's go here.

It's a bit deep.

Yes. What is this? It's so hard. Oh my God. She's my love. What?

Why? How do you define success in life?

I love that question.

Okay, you answer first. Okay.

I love that question.

You know, I realized success doesn't always have to be loud. You know that? Success is something you can pace yourself. And the only one who can really say that you are successful is yourself. And I thank you. Johan, that's what I want to say.

You will define success. You will define it. And not just anyone can think of, but you will be the only one to say, Oh my gosh, I feel that I became successful.

Because I get it, Ma. The industry we work in, they have a definition of success. And there's a calibration. There's a benchmark of success. But you will reach a certain stage in your life

that this is what success means for me. For me, when I'm at a stage in my life that I can say no.

That's right.

That's power.

It's true.

Power. When you can say no.

When you can say no.

It's not right. It's not a yes for everything. It's not a yes for everything. That's beautiful. I super agree with both. And I think my answer is the same. For me, success is, for example, a successful day.

You can relate to this. I'll bring my kids to school, then I'll do a bit of work. Then I'll have a little errand for myself. Then I'll follow my kids at night and I'll tuck them in bed.

That's her definition of success. Yes, exactly. It's a successful day. And I totally agree. If you listen to what she said, she said, I'll do errands for myself.

Yes.

We have that now. I read that anything that you do for yourself, just think about it, you're showing up for yourself. Even if it's just for an hour in a day. Exactly. This is for me. Exactly. And I think that self-care, I'm a big believer of self-care and self-love.

Yes. Super.

Amen. Okay, where are we? Heart.

Oh, the heart. The heart.

Okay. You're good. Heart. The heart. Okay, you're good. The heart. Hi, OMG. When was the last time you cried and why?

I was watching something and I said, oh my God, I feel it. You know that?

I'm alive.

You know that feeling?

You know that feeling?

The feeling of your heart beating so fast.

It hurts when you're watching something.

I was watching a movie. I was watching a movie.

I was watching a movie. I'm alive! Yes! You know that feeling of being alive? You know that feeling of being alive? The feeling of being alive? Yes! You know that feeling of being alive? Yes! You know that feeling of being alive? Yes!

You know that feeling of being alive?

Yes! You know that feeling of being alive?

Yes!

You know that feeling of being alive?

Yes! You know that feeling of being alive? Yes! It's so alive! That's why I said, I watched this so well.

What did you watch?

Korean drama.

I also watched it, but the one where Ariana and Cynthia sang For Good. That's the one with the empty seats. I'm crying. I'm crying right now.

You know, when you're just watching

and they're looking at each other and Ariana's teary-eyed. And then there's the carrot.

Yes, there's the carrot.

It's also nice to feel it again.

Yes.

It's the same for me on YouTube. They did an experiment where a kid was eating rice, and the dish was soy sauce with banana leaf and rice. He would just sit in a place where there were people. I cried because there was so much kindness in the world. The tricycle drivers were free and they were given money.

One of them was allowed to enter the restaurant. The other one asked me, why is that your food? And the other one said, if I don't have anything, I'll just give you a piggyback. I cried. You were so touched by the gesture of the people.

The people who showed kindness. I was also touched that it's not just an experiment because there are really kids who are going through that. You will be able to pray to be grateful.

So, what's next? I'll go next. Me again.

Green.

Do you believe you make your parents proud? I would say yes. Me too.

Me too.

Yes.

Thank you, Lord.

Okay. That's just a short answer. Oh, that's easy. Oh, that's easy.

That's easy.

What's a quality of yours that you hope you never lose?

That's a good one.

I think being funny.

Yeah.

I really like it.

I enjoy being like...

It's your essence. I think so too. You know what? I feel like if it's not fun, it's not me. So, I make everything fun. I hope I never lose that fun.

The inner child, the inner kid in you.

Yes, the one who's just happy. I have one. I thought of it when I read it. Curiosity. I'm a very curious person. I don't want to lose that, like ever.

It's like you're becoming a campante. That's why I'm like that. I know this.

For me, it's just... faith. Faith.

I knew you were going to say that.

Faith.

I knew you were going to say that because that's what carried me all throughout my life. I feel like that's your quality. Yes. You have a quality. You have a quality. Do you remember? Before, when the show started, Tony was the one leading the prayer. I got that from my dad. He said, if you still have your faith, you will be okay.

Beautiful. Beautiful.

Oh, here it is again.

Lord.

What is it?

Now we react to it.

What is it? What is it? What's the one thing you've learned from a heartbreak?

OMG!

So many!

I'm running out of time. Wow!

Oh my!

Oh shucks! You brought back the 20s.

And now, we're all are like, what's that?

What do you mean you can share?

What's that?

For me, it's not meant for you. Or better, it's a heartbreak because it's broken.

It's a breakup.

It's a breakup. It's called a breakup.

It's called a breakup because it's broken.

Something was broken. Something was broken.

Exactly.

Okay, okay.

I'm a sika. It's called a breakup because it's broken. Something was broken.

Yeah.

For me, you cannot hold on to the pain for so long. Because it will become resentment. Then you will have grudge. Then you will have bitterness. Then all of your words have side jobs. There's hearing, there's reading. Because you didn't heal.

So learn to embrace the pain, accept the pain, feel it. And then learn to surrender it and let go. Because if you keep holding on to it, it's like the sight of a person, the mention of a person's name,

your body reacts, your nervous system is like, it's like that. So, that's it. Learn to let go of the pain.

That's beautiful. For me, if it's not meant for you, it's not meant for you.

Don't force it.

Yes.

That's true.

You won't force it. Yes. Oh, what's next?

Back to you.

Okay.

Oh.

Oh.

This is serious.

Oh. The question is, for the soul, are you afraid to die and why? Oh, that's serious.

Oh, shucks.

My answer here is no. Why? Because I know where I'm going and I know that in case, I know God will take care of my family, my kids especially. That's my prayer to Him. He's take care of them.

Yes, that's all.

She's really the heart.

Actually, when you asked that, what I thought of right away, our's really the heart. Actually, when you asked that, I thought of our children up there. But of course, our wives too. That's the only reason why you don't want to die. Exactly. 100%. If I'm the only one, you're right.

You're really not. I'd like to believe that we've done everything that we can and want to do. But it's the fear of, oh my gosh, what will happen to them? That's the why. We'll be gone for days.

It's like chaos. What more?

We'll be gone.

We'll be gone.

We'll be gone.

We'll be gone. What will happen to them? What more? We're all like, Mom! All of you are like, Mom!

What do we do?

What do we do? I'm afraid. I am not ready for sure. Because like,

my kids need me. I can feel that.

You're everything. You're all. She's amazing.

Am I the only one who cannot die?

That's why I'm taking all of the supplements so that I don't die.

I'm taking all of the supplements.

That's true.

I take so much supplements because I want to live forever.

I always tell them, No, I'm going to live forever.

I always tell them that I take all of the vitamins because I need to live a long life for my kids.

What kind of question is that?

We made Ma cry.

No, but that's true. That's why we work out so we can be strong and we can carry more.

I will take care of my grandchildren.

You know that?

It's not possible. It's not possible.

So, for the heart?

Yes. It's a no-go. Can we do it for the heart? Here we go.

Here we go.

Okay.

Okay.

Oh my God.

Imagine, they will get to know each other, they will date each other, and then they will

have a conversation.

Okay. They're dating and they're asking questions.

Okay.

What's the biggest change you have in your life right now? The three of us are the same.

What's that?

Very many.

That's true.

A lot of people say that when I tell them.

They're like, you're still young.

I say no.

And then I told them that I talked to you too. That I have symptoms.

Everyone my age. Oh my too that I have symptoms. Everyone my age!

Oh my gosh, I hate it. Yes, everything that you're feeling now that's different, blame it on the perimenopause. Everything is perimenopause. Something is painful, perimenopause. Your head is hot, perimenopause.

Your eyes are dry, perimenopause. Everything is perimenopause.

There are days that that for some reason, my head was just so hot. Perimenopause. I was so hot.

Do you know?

Come here.

Isn't it the same thing? When you're sleeping, it's cold.

And then it's like 2am, and you're like, oh my god, it's so hot.

I was sweating so much. On my way here, I put the fan inside this outfit. I was sweating so much. We're already on the stage of our lives. Yes, it's really...

What's a kindness you've witnessed recently that left an impact on you?

It's like what you said earlier. I'm thinking of...

For me, it's Seve. She was hit by Polly. She just cried. She didn't push her. I said, thank you, Kuya. The patience and understanding.

I saw the kindness that he showed. Even though the second one is different,

the first one is more brave. And more giving.

The eldest.

That's why when the eldest complains,

the person is always there, he's always there.

He's always there.

He's always there when he's aggravated. He's always there. It's the same for me. We had a PTC and the teacher told us that Carmen has a son. They have a younger classmate

who doesn't talk to anyone. She's the one who approached us and told us her name is. Then, oh, I'll help you here.

Let's do this. That's what I said.

Oh, I'm proud of her. Oh, me too. The teacher once emailed me. She said, I just thought I'd let you know. Of course, when the teacher emailed,

what happened?

Right?

That Isabella, I said, wow. For the soul. This is too much. For the soul. What do you think your soul needs more of right now? I need to travel.

That's beautiful. I need to travel. I need to travel. I need to travel. I need to like, like really like relax.

The soul needs to travel.

The soul needs to rest.

You deserve to rest.

Yes, to rest.

My soul feels at home more right now.

Which is great. Another, to rest. For me, my soul feels at home more right now. Which is great.

Another of success.

Yes.

If this is it, this is it. Yes.

Happy with it.

The soul is at content. Yes, content.

The soul is happy as it is.

Yes. How about you? But the soul is happy as it is. I'm in the same place as you. Maybe if there's a bonus, the least time I have is alone time with my husband. Kids are always there. That's why when I said travel, I'm thinking they're not with us.

We can go with the kids.

We can go to Europe.

Because we're solo, we You can be with Robby. Yes, we can be with Robby. Or a girls trip. That's what I meant by to get away.

Yeah, I mean like that.

Maybe that's why your soul is looking for it. Yes, because

if it's just us, super different, I'm not super anithetic. Wait, what's Singapore? You're just the two of you? Yeah, it's just the two of us.

We also went to Australia, just the two of us. She's the boss. Because I'm always the boss.

Okay.

Oh, it's hard.

It's hard.

Shocks.

Change it, change it.

When you talk to yourself, what do you say? I don't practice it. I do it too.

I don't practice it.

You should talk to yourself.

I'm not doing it. But I'm doing it. Affirmations. That's your affirmation. You have to talk to yourself. You have to talk to yourself.

There are two more. Yes, but there are three. You talk to yourself. You have two more. This is God. Yes. You said it. Yes, but those are three. You talk to yourself. You say, I love you. I forgive you.

Then you say the reason why you forgive yourself. And then you love yourself. Why? And then my last one is, I'm so proud of you. That's your self-talk. So if no one motivates you, you will motivate yourself for the day.

That's right.

I don't talk to myself a lot, but sometimes, I have days that are really long. Like, really, really long. At the end of the day, my thought bubble is, Shucks, I'm so proud of myself. I have that. What's good to say to yourself?

I think, when you talk to yourself,

You will say, Mariel?

I'm looking for a place that's so deep. It's so hard to talk to myself. You know that? I don't know that. I don't know, but I haven't thought of anything that I'll tell myself. So, it's me.

Wait, I'll shuffle this.

Last?

For our last one. Wait, I'll shuffle this. This is the last one.

Oh, it's the last one. Shocks!

OMG! Heart question. What's a risk you took for love and was it worth it?

OMG!

Right? I'll one too.

I got married.

Risk? You know what, surprisingly, that's the same for me. Because if you remember, I got married! I got married, I had a leave of absence without knowing if I would ever come back,

if I would ever accept again. I remember that so vividly.

And I just really dropped everything Will I ever accept it again? I remember that so vividly.

And I just really dropped everything because I was so in love. Right? And I think I'm proud to say that yes, it was worth it. Because 15 years after, we're still here. So, it was a risk I did for love.

And I would do it again.

Oh, I remember it like it was just a few years ago. Yeah, because she was one of those that I told, I'm leaving now, I'm gonna get married. Then I went to your condo. When they told you, you're going to India. Yes, because we were doing our makeup.

Then we met at the inauguration. Yes, oh my gosh.

We were walking in the Philippines. Oh my gosh, that was during the inauguration of the Philippines! Yes!

You got married then, in 2010!

Yes!

Amazing!

So I get you also because you have to remember that Tony's career was really back to back. No, I wasn't. When I was young, I didn't dream. I was always goal-oriented. I want to do this, I want to achieve this.

I will count my family. It was never part of my plan that I want to get married. So when Paul proposed, I was afraid that my life might stop. Maybe... Because you don't know the next stage of your life.

What will happen? Because once you get married, you drop your name. You drop the surname. In legal documents, you have a new name. Are you ready to embrace this new name and this new identity

that you are now a wife of someone? So, that's it. But when I said yes, it's been 10 years then. And going strong and fighting for it. Fighting for the love. Choosing love.

We're here at the stage in our life that we choose. Love is a decision.

Love is a decision. Every single day.

It's an intention. Love is an intention.

It's not a feeling anymore. My answer is an intention. It's not a feeling anymore. That's right. My answer is so broken. I took a lot of risks for love when I was younger. The crazy things, the stupid things that you do. But actually, if I think about it, it didn't end with success, meaning I ended up with that person who made me crazy.

I think it's worth it because those stupid things helped me build my self-worth.

It helped me to know that these are my boundaries.

The lessons learned.

You learned from those risks.

Yes.

Self-worth.

Self-love. You know, self-worth is hard.

It's hard.

And you don't know your self-worth.

You really don't know. It's hard to go through the journey of self-worth is hard. It's hard. And you don't know your self-worth right away. It's hard to go through self-worth before you know it. Just like in the books, Maria was given a book by God. He's just not that into you.

But that's a great book, right? It's so simple but you get it. That's where it comes from.

It's called The Breakup Because It's Broken. And it's okay. It's okay. It's part of life. Thank you Lord that it didn't end up with me.

Oh God.

That it didn't end up with me.

Yes, thank you Lord.

You are really destined for that. Yes!

That's beautiful.

So, those are the lessons. Thank you very much for joining us in this meaningful conversations. This wouldn't have been a meaningful conversation if Mack didn't cry. That's when I saw that this is really meaningful

because it touched Mack mass heart.

Yes, really.

No, you're the heart. See, it really suits you. Let's look at the other questions. Let's look at the other questions. Someone I'll always be grateful for is...

Oh, that's so beautiful.

Who is that? You know, I always tell her this. I always tell Isabella that she's so special because

she made me a mother.

I tell her that all the time. You're so shy.

But I tell her all the time, you're my special one, you made me a mother. Super.

It's so special.

This is nice because this is not the kind of thing that you talk about with your friends when you get together. I saw a good question that we didn't answer. This is for the three of us. For the soul, what do you think your younger self would admire about who you are now? Here we go again. You know, I never thought that I'd be this kind of mother.

Yeah, because I feel like... In your 20s? Yes, in my 20s. I would never think that I'd be like that. But I can attest to that because this is only one-fourth of what I can share. But Marielle, every single day that God made, She's the one who brings the peace to her son. The dedication. I always say that Marielle should have a pedestal.

The dedication that every day, she wakes up early, she's always praying, and she's always waiting. And she answers already agreeing. I know you because you embraced motherhood.

Thank you.

When you became a mother, you were so much. That's why I never think that 20-year-old Mariel, that we admitted, would go out and drink. Yes. Right? Yes.

And I'm already'm doing now.

This is the new you. That's one question I've never ever thought about. While Marielle was answering, I thought of the acronym.

I don't know. I'm gonna cry.

It's not hormones.

Oh my God, what a meaningful conversation. Tony Tuck's cards. When I was growing up, I didn't... Of course, our parents super loved us,

but I didn't know the feeling of having a whole family.

Oh, I do have that.

I have that.

You have it with Jessie, with Lucia, and Carmen. Not really. Sometimes I find myself playing with them, and then they're so happy. Then I think, Shocks! This is what I've been dreaming of. I can be that happy.

So, they'll be proud. That's what I've been dreaming of.

Your younger self. What will happen to your dream? But same as you.

I don't dream about hustle. I'm also a career woman. But it's more of like, it's something that my younger self would be like, Shocks! I'm so proud because you didn't see this and you don't know what it feels like. Yeah, I understand what you mean. You don't have a picture of how it's supposed to be because you didn't live it.

Yes, exactly. And then, this is pala yun. Ito pala yung sinasabi nila. I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry. Thank you for watching today's Tony Talks. And for more meaningful conversations like this, don't forget to like, share and subscribe. And for more meaningful conversations like this, don't forget to like, share and subscribe.

Maraming salamat! I have Barbie.