And SUDDENLY, this chapter is over | selling my house & starting over | weekly vlog

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If this is your very first time here, my name is Maya and y 'all know every time I sit down here with you guys, we have some big life news and some big life changes.And if you look around, that's exactly what we have this time as well.So number one, y 'all, this is my very first time turning on this camera in over a month.She has been collecting dust you hear me we'll get into all of that here in a moment but i'ma just hit y 'all with it and then we'll backtrack so um clearly we are this is a i think we're gonna say relatively new decision we just made the decision this week so if you guys are watching this on the sunday i plan on posting it this all happened since Matter of fact, I've made the decision on July the 1st.I plan on posting this video, I wanna say on the 12th, but today is a week before that.It is Sunday the 5th, so the holiday was yesterday.

So we are moving and we are moving back home to Salem.This is a good thing.I am super like on the verge of tears, like happy tears.Never in a million years did I think that I would be moving back home to my hometown.If you don't know, I'm from St. Louis.That's where I moved from when I moved here and now we going back.

Let's backtrack and kind of talk so that this makes sense because once we get into it, you'll understand why we're doing it.But just as a disclaimer, this is a beautiful decision.This is a good decision.This is a happy decision.This is a weight lifted type of decision.So yeah, Grab your drink, any popcorn and let's get into it.

So I have a lot to say.So I have it on my phone so that I can like chat and tell you guys exactly how I wanted to, you know, give this information to y 'all.So number one, these past six weeks or you guys have not been seeing me post have been brutal.So I started off the top of this year doing really, really well.really really well if you guys have watched me for a while you know that i kind of have been cycling through these mental health states of i would say mild depression um of these states where i would just be down and out and not able to do much lack of motivation just all the things in my head and then i'll do really great for a while then i'll get back down i'll do really great for a while then i get back down and that's reflected in how much i post on like my instagram and tiktok account all of that is reflection of those um cycles earlier this year i was doing really really well After how I've been for the last four years mentally, that period, like earlier this year, like that five, six month period between I think like October, November to like March, baby, I felt like a new woman.I felt good.

I was losing weight.I was just top of my game on top of everything that I needed to handle.It was beautiful.And then I came crashing.It was a slow crash from March to May, but then I crashed.hard in my mental state.

So the last six weeks, I have been really struggling mentally.I've been struggling to do the things that I need to do.I've been in my head, I've been really stressed out.I've been very just out of it mentally and mostly feeling stuck.Cause you know, we have our mental health issues to where we don't feel like we can pull ourselves out of our mental state, but it is, Sometimes in my case, I'm not gonna say all the time, but in my case driven by facts about my life, right?So since I have been in Atlanta, I have been tested and pulled in ways that I have never like I would never think like it has been brutal, of course during my divorce I kind of fell into a deeper depression type in that era, in that time.

And how I see it now, and you know, talking to my therapist and everything, that was a traumatic event that triggered my mental health to kind of go crazy and be unstable.Ever since then, I've gone through at least five or six cycles, mental health wise.Really, really high, doing really well, and then really, really low, and unable to pulse, unable to show up for my life, all the things.Going through that, has affected my work obviously because what I do for work is show up on camera with my personality and the vibes and all the things right but um it has affected me in other ways those mental states have not only affected you know obviously my mental health but that directly affects my work how much money i can make whether brands are reaching out or not and so during that time which is something that you guys don't necessarily know what i'll share now i have had some financial ups and downs to the point wherehas felt like I was on a hamster wheel, like a hamster wheel to try to stay afloat in the lifestyle that I've built here in Atlanta.When you're in a bad mental state, um, and you vlog for a living, it's really hard to show up and give you guys myself.

And y 'all know I'm very transparent, so I don't mind being transparent, I chose the right person to do this because I don't mind being transparent, but I don't want to bleed on you guys.So when I'm really, really struggling, that's when I need to pull back.I'm barely just doing my skincare and sitting around crying and ruminating and trying to pray it off of me and trying to get on my routines.Like it gets repetitive.You know, I don't want to bleed on you guys.Those are the moments when I feel like I need to step back, which is what the last six weeks have been.

More recently, it has seemed like things were doing really, really well.You know, like I got my shot.Can you know everything like I said was that period was doing really well and then?Progressively in the last six months my situation has kind of been getting worse and worse and worse and I didn't understand it God had already been telling me that Suddenly like a suddenly season was on its way to me, but it did not look like it Everything around me looked like the opposite of that.So while you have faith when God is telling you something You know that it seems impossible, you know, so you try to have the faith even though it seems impossible But especially if things are deteriorating right before your eyes It looked and seemed impossible Right because if I'm being honest if we're just talking about the financial part of this in my mind I'm like there's Something's gotta give.You know what I'm saying?

Something has got to give.Not even just about the financial part or feeling like I'm on the phone.hamster wheel.Um, but that is because of my mental state.It's like, because of my mental state, how this is affecting my work and everything, something has got to give.I don't know what could possibly give, I don't know what could happen, how I'm going to fix this, how I'm going to get out of this, but Lord, I need your help.

It's pretty much the state that I have been in, um, mostly in the last six weeks, but outside of, you know, the whole mental thing, also y 'all, I have not been able to create a full life here.Like, you know, I have friends here and there.You know, I have my friends, mostly Yanique.You know, Yanique is my one of my best friend down here.But you know, obviously she has her family.She has her children.

She has her thing going on.She has her whole life here.But it's just me and Mira and Dior.We don't do nothing, y 'all.I ain't gonna lie to y 'all.We are severely lonely down here in Atlanta.

I feel like I'm constantly busting my butt to stay on this hamster wheel, to pay for this more expensive lifestyle, just to come home and Amir and I and Dior just staring at each other.And for the past couple years, it feels like there's no reason for me to be here.Support -wise, I'm not necessarily gonna say I've lost support, but you know, there's things going on with Amira's father, so that is not a benefit of being here, you know what I'm saying?Just to, you know, not put y 'all in my business, but that's, you know, so it's like, okay.In general, Amira and I both do not feel happy here.Like, the vibes are off.

Like, we get sad pulling back up to the house.We don't wanna be at the house, but there's nothing to do and there's nowhere to go.And money -wise, I'm not like, in the position to justfly us out somewhere, you know, or to do something or to make life fuller in that way.So it starts to feel like you're in a box.You know what I'm saying?

But my thing is I have never, ever, ever, ever, ever considered going back home primarily because of my daughter's stability.I brought her down here kicking and screaming, kicking and screaming.Okay.And I would rather suffer.for the next three years while she's still in high school, for her to stay stable, for her to keep her friends, to stay in school, to keep her cheer life going.And I have never entertained the idea of going back home because of that reason.

Like if someone would bring it up to me or even, I've had comments on some of y 'all, like seeing me sad and seeing like that I'm happier when I'm home versus when I'm in Atlanta.And you would say in the comments, like, Maya, I feel like maybe you should go home.A couple of y 'all probably remember I had come under that comment and been like, yeah, nah, that could never happen.You know what I'm saying?Some of y 'all would even defend and be like, nah, she can't go back home because that's dot, dot, dot, dot, dot, based on what I've told you guys.So it was a very defensive type of reaction towards that notion.

So even while I'm going through all this in the past three, four months, never in my life did I ever, like my mind didn't go, let's leave, right?We went home.Couple weeks ago.We went to st. Louis the last actually the whole time.I was in st. Louis.I was just very Crying sobbing the last two days that I was there It was just very heavy and it just was a reflection of what I go through when I'm here It's not uncommon for me to cry and sob the last day being home because when I come back here I'm lonely

My mental is up and down.I don't have a full life, you know.Every time y 'all see me go out, them lonely times, I'm going out.Like, I'm sitting in the house constantly, me and my thoughts, you know?And alone most of the time, because, you know, when Amara's at school and everything like that, even when she is home, we're sitting around.Like, there's no family involvement.

There's no other things to do, you know?It's just, it feels very bleak.So that last day that I was home, I was really sobbing.My mom and my sister, they prayed with me. I asked them for prayers.And my mom had a conversation with my daughter.And she told her that she was severely lonely down here and that she wished we had never moved.

And so that prompted me the next day when we got home to Atlanta to ask her if she was happy here.And her opinions that she shared with me opened the door to the notion of going home.And so I started thinking about it.fasting about it, praying about it for about a week or so.And every day since that door was opened with that conversation with my baby, I felt more and more like I was being pushed in that direction.I remember, I think we had that conversation on a Tuesday.

That Friday, y 'all, I was out of it mentally.Like, I was sobbing.It was so bad.And I had a very strong urge of, I want to go home that day.And so the next week I had a long conversation with my sister about it.I talked to her about it.

I asked her to pray.All of these things and that is when God started aligning things.I want to say that was the last day of June the 30th.He gave ana disclaimer part of me doesn't even want to share the fact that I feel like that I know that God is pushing this just because four years ago when I got married I also felt like God was bringing me into that marriage you know and I was very vocal about that now I do not believe That that was god.I believe that god allowed me to have what I wanted and what I thought I wanted Um, but it's so weird when we don't know if we're hearing from the lord or not, you know Um, so i'm just a human, you know i'm saying i've had a lot of y 'all just like maya But you said that god told you this you said that god told you that yes I did.

I did say that because that's what I thought and it felt like it was alignment.It felt like it was right and Also with my own trauma and my own like what I wanted for my life It was like god, this must be you but in hindsight hindsight is 2020 it was not but i'm hesitant to say now that I know that god is leading us in this direction just because Some of y 'all were very brutal with me on that Like I wasn't freaking human and I couldn't make mistakes as far as thinking that god told me something But whatever I can't control what people are gonna say or not say God started to align things.Um The devotion that I had the day prior, my sister, he had given my sister the exact same scriptures, the exact same page of the Bible.And it was pointing in that direction and very relevant to the decision I was making.My mom came down here this past week to check on me because I was a mental wreck.So she just came down to support and be here for us and just everything just in the midst of everything that I was going through, not even knowing anything about us moving.

And she's fasting and praying throughout the home all week.as I'm making this decision and big things and little things started to align and just were making sense and just was like okay Lori there's no other interpretation of this and even some understanding has It has come to the surface of how I got down here in the first place.And I'm not going to share that, but I have some more clarity on that.And with that, possibly that coming down here could have gotten me a little bit out of alignment, because ever since I've been here, it has not been great.Now, I have grown.I'm a completely different woman now than I was when I moved here.

And I think that's God's way of making light in the darkness or using, you know, those tough seasons to pull us out and to shape us and to mold us.That's what I believe, because everything else has been not great.Being in Atlanta has not pushed my career like I thought it was going to be, like being at the events are cute.They're real cute, you know, being visible and all that, but it has not pushed me forward and it would never push me forward if I can't get out of the mental state.that I've been in, but that's a little side note.So yeah, the Lord was aligning everything.

It was starting to make a whole lot of sense.And even my mom, like I hadn't shared this with my mother yet, and I was in bed on the first and my mom came to pray with me on some, you know, helping me with my mental and my state and everything like that.and she prayed with me and then she said let me go to the bathroom i'll be back and she came back she said okay so what do you have to tell me i was like what do you mean what i gotta tell you we're talking about she was like god told me you have to tell me something just so tell me i said i didn't say anything i was like you said tell me because apparently you think there's something to say so what what you gotShe was like, I don't want to say it because I don't want you to get mad because like I said, I be defensive about this topic.Um, but she said, you guys are coming home.And I just looked at her and I was like, yeah, yeah, that's, that's in the air, you know?

And so we talked about it and all the things and then I called my realtor because I'm like okay let me wrap my hot head around what this would actually look like and talk to her and everything and this was all on the first so when I talked to my realtor she told me everything that I need to know about what it would look like to sell the house and just all the things she's like this is a good market here in the summertime I need to list this house as soon as possible like in a week and she was like I'm also not listing it with you in it so I had a conversation with Amira after Shanae left, and we made the decision that we're out of here.Amira agreed that she didn't want to argue with the Lord.She was like, everything is pointing towards this being the decision for us, so I'm not going to argue with God.As far as she's concerned, she was like, I wish the Lord would have made this, you know, pushed us in this direction last year before I started high school, you know, just because of changing schools and all the things.But she was like, I'm not going to complain, and I'm not going to argue with it.I guess we're leaving.

And so we made the decision and that was on Wednesday.Today is Sunday.Next day, I got all the boxes.We're getting the house ready.I got a million appointments that we're going to go through this week.Um, it's a very long, you know, talk here in the beginning, but, um, we have a lot of catching up to do.

Um, so we are getting out of here.Yesterday, Amir and I went out for the fourth and she said that every day that she's woken up since we have made this decision, it feels good.more and more.like the right decision.And I looked at her and I said, baby, I completely agree.100 % every day since we actually made that decision.

Because it took a second to actually say, yes, we're moving.Because it's scary, especially with me.Like, I didn't had it my way enough.I didn't had it my way.I haven't had it my way enough.I thought that coming down here, I'm about to cry.

I thought that coming down here was going to be a great move for me, that I was going to create this beautiful reality, possibly find my husband, you know what I'm saying?Well, I found a husband, but you know, that Amira was going to have a better relationship with her father and that I was going to move forward with my career and it was going to get better and more visibility and more growth.And all three of those things that I just mentioned, opposite of what I wanted to happen happened.When I really truly look at the facts, I did this my way.I did it my way, I did it in a way, with the best intentions, you know?I had the best intentions, but I did it my way, what I thought was right.

And everything about being here mostly has pointed towards it not being.And I have struggled harder than I ever have in my life.I have cried.I have screamed so loud in this house so many countless nights of crying myself to sleep.And I don't want to make another bad decision for my life that is not in alignment with God's plan for my life.That's what I don't want.

So it took me a while to actually say, we're going to do this.But once I did, it felt like someone flicked on a light in a tunnel.I'm sorry.someone flicked a light on in a tunnel and I immediately felt my it girl energy coming back.I did.I started to feel better.

I started to sound better.I just went on the phone with Yanique and told her yesterday and she said, Oh, you sound different.You sound so much better than other times that she would call me and we would be on the phone.And my mom said the same thing.She said, ever since you made this decision you just seem like a different person you're more lively there's more pep in your voice there's more you know and y 'all when i tell you when i made that decision a light flicked on and i could see a way out of all of the things i've been through since i've been here um i'm sorry i didn't know i was gonna cry and god is constantly giving me that song for the last three to four months that it will not always be like this and that that suddenly season was coming and i didn't know it i would have never guessed in a million years that the shift that was gonna happen in my life to take me out of this season of survival was gonna be me going back home wouldn't i would not have imagined that because the lord had to change my heart at first and when you when the lord say something gonna happen suddenly it's gonna happen suddenly today's the fifth we gonna be home on the 15th like i know this is a very long talk i actually gotta change my battery y 'all because we we're talking for a long time how long has it been 29 minutes okay that's right i'm sorry y 'all that i had that moment but when i tell you i'm ready to turn the freaking page i'm so ready to turn the pageand I want to be in alignment with God and I, if y 'all know, I never said that I felt like God was bringing me to Atlanta.

Looking back, I've had some people ask me that more recently, my therapist, my sister, and I was like actually no.I did start saying that God was aligning me with my ex -husband, you know what I'm saying, but Little do y 'all know actually if you remember actually met my ex -husband the day before I found this house So all of that kind of happened together, you know, but anyway, I don't care what anyone says I don't care if you say well my you said that last time who freaking cares.I'm, sorry guys God is leaving us back home.So yeah, and then another thing that's shifting in this season or this next season is um, I am actually about to get on antidepressants, so I have realized this last time that I need help and I'm not afraid to ask for it.I'm not afraid to get it because I've tried to do the things on my own and it continues to come.I've tried to do the routines.

I've tried to, you know, make sure I'm in my devotion every morning.And while that's helpful, you know what I'm saying?All the things that I've tried have been helpful, but I always seem to come back.And I believe that that is also going to be a very big, transformative change moving forward into this new chapter, because I do not want to allow the state that I was in in this chapter in Atlanta to roll over into the next one.And I believe my brain chemistry was changed in a very traumatic way.When I first got here and I have not been able to pull myself out of that because none of that has been about that situation It's just been my mental like it's just I've just been that way ever since I never used to be this person So I'm gonna go

some help.I might not be on the antidepressants forever, but I am trying it to see, so that I can make the very best of this new chapter.So, here we go.I know I've been talking y 'all ear off, but we had some catching up to do.You know what I'm saying?So in general, here's where we are now.

We are gonna vlog, obviously this is gonna be a vlog.So, because we get out of here.So there's a lot to do and this is officially our last week in.I know it's shocking y 'all, it's crazy.I'm shocked, this is crazy.Cause the thing is, even though we have been thinking about moving, it's like, I ain't thinking we'll move this fast, you know?

But anyway, there's so many things to do.So this is what we're doing right now.We are getting the house ready to list.There's a bunch of different appointments that I got coming up this week that we need to handle.So far, junk people have come and cleared out my fourth garage.And cleared out some things in the house that I did not want so we got a lot of appointments, you know Getting the house power washed and cleaning carpets getting the full house a deep clean and getting one electrical issue Fixed and doing a little bit of painting like all of that is happening this week We also are leaving the house staged Amir and I are in the process of packing all of our personal items And to get it out of here and then we are leaving the house all the furniture in the house while it is listed so that people can, you know, see the potential, see the vibes.

My realtor was like, yeah, people want to see this, like they're going to want to see what they can do with the house and with the space.So we are making sure everything is clean, making sure everything is staged the way it needs to be staged, but just removing us.Once the house is listed, Amir and I will not be here.So if youwatching this on the day that this video comes out, we are bouncing in the next two to three days.And it should be listed by the end of this upcoming.

So if you are looking for a house and you have always loved mine, make sure by the end of this week or so you check out the listings for Gwinnett County.in the suburbs of Atlanta because you will see my house and you will know it's mine because it will still be looking the way you guys see it on the vlogs.So once it is listed, like I said, we'll be gone.Amir and I are going back to St. Louis and we are going to be staying with my mom for a few weeks until We move into our new apartment.We're not doing any apartment searching and hunting on this Here vlogs because the Lord has already told me where I'm supposed to be when he does something y 'all he's complete with it.He's complete and Yeah, there's no searching.

He said right there gave me a lot of confirmation about that as well.So um, yeah, so, um, right now the only thing that's in limbo is you know you just never know when an offer is going to come in and when all that's going to work out so figuring out when we're going to come back down and get all of our stuff to move into the new place whether or not i'm going to put things in storage or try to sell everything i do want to leave as much in this house as possible so i'm hoping to get an offer of someone who wants some things in the house that's another benefit of leaving it staged people can say oh my god that's beautiful i want it and i'll be like cool bill of sale here's how much you know just pay me child put that money in my pocket um so that is up in the air but we gonna get there when we get thereI believe when God is orchestrating something, he takes care of absolutely everything and there's no second guessing.So I ain't concerned about it.We gonna figure it out.Once it's time, I'm gonna hop on a flight, come down here, arrange it and get out.

We will be shipping the truck to St. Louis.What else am I missing?Yeah.We're gonna have a full week.I'm really excited.Today is Sunday and Yanique is coming over this evening to help me do some packing.

But before that, we need to go and get some more boxes and get some more like boxes for like glass things.So yeah, that's where we are.Did I miss anything?We said a lot.Trying to think did I miss anything.I made this whole outline and I never even looked at it.

Yeah, I think I hit everything.Okay, Yanique said she can't come today.Let's see.When can she come?

I can come tomorrow.

asking for an appointment, so 1 p .m.So yeah, y 'all, I think that's it.I am extremely excited to turn the page and for this season to be over.I'm grateful that God allowed me to grow in this season and to become Maya and be comfortable with Maya.Like I said, I'm a brand new woman.

I'm a different woman than I was when I moved here.My standards are higher.My confidence is higher.Aesthetic is better because it now reflects who I truly am and not trying to be like someone else or fit into a mold.And that's aesthetics as far as my home decor, as far as my style, as far as my vibe, just like I'm out of trying to be like others.All of that has happened since I've been here and I'm grateful for that.

I'm grateful for what God has done with me in this season.but I'm on.There's another benefit that I didn't even mention, child, this house.I'm grateful to be a woman, to be able to afford this house, but let me tell you something.The next time you see me in a big, beautiful house, which I hope is in my future, I don't mind it, but the next time you see me, there will be a big, fine man standing next to me with a ring on the same finger that my ring is on.He would have had agreed to take care of everything.

All the maintenance, all the things, all the appointments, because baby, leave me out of it.Let me show you what we already got done.We got all our boxes.We got some boxes from U -Haul right here.I got medium and large boxes.We have already started to box up the kitchen, all of the drawers down here.

There's like some other drawers that are down here that have like artwork and stuff in it that Amira needs to finish doing, but we need to do that.the house is looking crazy y 'all we got stuff everywhere because we're getting out of here so um i got all my glassware out over here laid out it's just a lot going on so i am about to get ready to take you guys with me to the store.We're gonna go to Lowe's real quick.I might go out and get me a little drinky drink or something.We'll go to Lowe's, get the things that we need to do, and then we'll come home and start getting some packing done.I'm gonna probably show y 'all.

some scenes from me packing before this because I did turn my camera on a couple days ago um my DJI just as I was like putting stuff together and put doing some packing so I'm gonna insert those first and then we'll do some real time packing but yeah y 'all I just went over and put my uh invisalign in so I'm talking weird that's why but I do feel like we are embarking on a new beautiful chapter that I truly believe with everything in methat it is putting us back into alignment because it's giving.I should have never left in the first place but we're here now.

We've learned our lessons and we've made the best of it and now it's time to go.

So we're gonna head off and do our errands.Let me show you guys the fit.I have on this set which is from Zara.It is not new.I've had it for a while and It's feeling really cute.It's super, super cute.

I just wanted to throw on something cute and casual.So yeah, yeah, let's get in the truck and let's go run our errands.What was she crying about?Come here, come to mommy.You been being bad for Amira?Dior, stop being bad, okay?

I love you.Let's go to mommy.

Oh, I scared her.

Come here, come here, Dior.Oh, do love to mommy, hi.Hi, sweetie.You been being bad for Amira?

My love, there's still love to mommy.You look very disappointed.

Are you moving to St. Louis, Dior?Are you moving?

Y 'all, Dior has been so confused with all these boxes everywhere.She is so confused.She really gonna get confused when we start pulling out luggage.Every time we pull out luggage, I think she knows what that means, because typically she's about to go to the border, so she'll start getting anxious.Okay, I'm gonna go to the grocery store.Well, to all the errands.

Anything else you need while I'm out?You think you're all right?Yeah?Okay.You about to get back to packing and stuff?Or what you gonna do?

Get back to packing?Okay.Um, she don't listen.He don't listen.Poor Michael, he was tired.

He was tired of them kids.No, Prince.That's who he was tired of.

Okay, where's my key?Ooh, I need to add to the list that I need to go to Range Rover and change the key.The key, uh, batteries.You want to ride here?I was gonna stop at Starbucks and everything.What?

Man, well, okay, let me get my phone charger.

See, okay, Amirah's about to go with me to the store.I'm probably gonna be hot in this outfit.It's gonna be fun.Okay, y 'all, and Yannick can't come till tomorrow now.So, but that's good because she'll be here before I go to the concert tomorrow night and she can help me figure out what to wear.That's what she just offered.

I'll be there to pull out cool outfits.Okay, period.Thank you, sister.My brain is just not there.Girl, my brain is not in pulling outfits and putting on makeup.That is just not, we not there right now.

We are not there right now.Yeah, Amirah's about to come down.Oh y 'all, so I told my my sister and I had already been talking about what was going to happen and everything, you know, but once I finally made that decision, I let her know.I called and I told her, I said, is this happening?I think that was on Thursday.She was so happy.

My niece was happy.She told my niece and my nephew, they were happy.My nephew texts me. I talked to all my siblings and let them know that I was going back home.And then I'm out.told my girlfriends yesterday morning.So I'm sitting here waiting for Amira.

I'm gonna insert the video of me telling my girlfriends yesterday.Obviously I had them on FaceTime.I was trying to get them on FaceTime because yesterday morning, Beyonce dropped that song that's been out for years on YouTube and stuff.But she finally dropped it on Apple Music.What's the name of that song?dunk morning dew dunk and so it came out yesterday and tara sent it to the group chat and she was like beyonce just post this good morning and we all was like oh period so turn up a song on or whatever and She was like, it's gonna be a good day.

And I was like, yeah, it's about to get better.Answer the phone.So I FaceTimed them and all of them were on there and I flipped my camera over to show them the boxes and they were confused.Then I told them I was moving and they had their reaction.So I'm gonna go ahead and play that for y 'all now.So y 'all can see that.

And then we gonna be in the car headed to run errands.Okay, y 'all, I'm about to tell my friends that I'm moving.I hope Sierra can hop on.Answer!I just told them to answer the phone.

Hi!

What y 'all doing?

Did you?I'm trying to ring C. I want Sierra to answer the phone.I know she at home!

I know she ain't asleep!Wait, who at home?What is the month?

I'm trying to figure out if you're trying to surprise us.

no, I'm in Atlanta.My God.Okay.I'm gonna get Sierra one more ring.

You think she's sleep?

She got home at a good time last night.I'm talking all of y 'all.You was at home.Good morning, baby.

I am sorry.

I just, you don't have to stay on long.I need you though.Okay.Okay.

Hold on.So I'm coming home.

I'm coming home.I'm in fast.We'll be home in two weeks.We'll be here on the 15th.but we're gonna stay with mommy we're gonna stay with mommy for two weeks uh my apartment lease starts on the first um i probably gotta i gotta come back here and get all my stuff like because i'm leaving it staged so i'm gonna move once we get an offer and come get everything like move my stuff but yeahknow it's a lot to say it's a lot to talk about but it's moving super fast like the junk people just left okay let's start from the beginning okay i had to get y 'all reaction on the camera okay bye y 'all all right y 'all so amira is coming with us so now we're waiting for her to come outside but i figured i'd come out here and show you guys the garage um it has been since I moved here, since this garage actually looked this open.

You all would forget that I have a four car garage because this is a two car garage space.And then we have the gym area that's over here.So that's technically obviously a space for another car, but I use it as a gym.But then we also, How about this?I don't know if you guys are aware of that, but it has been my storage space.So there was nothing but stuff in here.

It was packed to the rim.Because, you know, if I didn't use something in the house, I would put it in here.That's a huge spider.Is it alive?Ooh, yeah.Mm -mm, not me.

So I would put stuff in here.I would put boxes that I didn't want to break down in here.I would put, you know, I had a lot of lawn furniture.equipment in here that my ex -husband used to use.It was just a whole bunch of stuff.Hi, you ready?

Okay, it was just a whole bunch of stuff, but it's empty now.So this is what it looks like.A whole nother garage in here.I'm telling you, getting that done made me feel so much lighter.It's been so long since I've vlogged, y 'all.I don't even have my little thingy on here.

I gotta put it back on here real quick so I can push y 'all up.Okay, y 'all, so I'm gonna have to get a new one of these.It has been disconnected from my car too long that it's not sticking anymore.So I'm gonna buy a new one, because I was about to prop y 'all up like I usually do right here, but it's not sticking.So I'm gonna buy a new one on Amazon.This is how long I have not been vlogging.

So it does not like me right now, but that's fine.We're just gonna throw her away and get another one.So yeah, let's montage this out and let's go run errands.We are back in the crib and we went and got a few groceries.The only thing we got was food for my meal prep for this week because I don't want to, you know, just because we're about to throw all this food away in a week.I didn't want to be, you know, like eating out every day and get off of my, you know, maintaining.

My stuff so I got a few things for meal prep and some milk and some eggs and some dog food.That's about it I am gonna handle this.I'm gonna go and change my clothes so that we can start doing some packing I think my goal today is to get all of my glassware put away in boxes And then sort through my bathroom and all my products because when you need comes tomorrow I'm gonna have her help me pack up the beauty room because I got so much and I thought about doing a giveaway for you guys which i've been wanting to do a giveaway but now i'm like okay we need to do a giveaway but what i'm gonna do is i'm going to get everything home when i get home and settle not really settle but once i get home i'm going to get giveaway boxes and send them from st louis i think that's what i'm gonna do um instead of doing it now i just have so much going on in my mind it popped in my mind the other day it was like maya What you gonna do with all that extra makeup that you got put away for giveaways?And so I just, my mind can't wrap around doing a giveaway right now.Cause it's just too, too much to, you know, deal with the addresses and, you know, sort everything and get to the, you know, it's just a lot with us trying to get out of here in the next 10 days.So we will be having a giveaway, 100%.

And if you don't see it by the end of August, please harass me in the comment section.I kid you not becauseit's gonna be a lot going on but I want to make sure that you get it.Of course that's if by the end of August we have an offer and we got all our stuff.We should have all our stuff though um whether whether it's an offer or not but I highly doubt.I hope and pray that the house doesn't sit on the market too long but anyway Y 'all remind me of that.

But we gonna do a giveaway.It's coming up.I got a lot of stuff to give to y 'all.So yeah, I'm gonna go change because I'm hot as heck.And let's do some packing.to running some errands because I needed more stuff from Lowe's for moving.

I also need to go and get some like paper products for like cups and plates and stuff like that because I should have got it at the grocery store yesterday, but it slipped my mind.And then I packed up all our plates and stuff.So this morning I was like scrambling, trying to find something to put my food on.So yeah.Anyway, we are doing that.I just left Lowe's and got some more bubble wrap and some boxes because I underestimated how much stuff I actually needed for moving.

So, we're gonna go to Kroger real quick and get the paper products and then Yanique is on her way to the house to help us move and pack some things today.She'sgonna help me pull an outfit for this concert tonight.First of all, I love Ariana Grande.R .E .

M.Beauty did invite me to her concert tonight, but there's no plus one, so I gotta go by myself.And with all of this moving and stuff happening, I thought about just not going, but I'm like, Maya, just live it up.this last week in atlanta go um it's okay i'm ahead of all of my like packing and everything so i think it'll be okay so yeah um what else it's just a lot going on y 'all it's so many appointments happening but um obviously i'm holding you guys because i told you yesterday that my thing is broken so i have to buy a new um stand in the car however um y 'all this is crazy this is insane like this is crazy it still stands what i said yesterday that every day that i wake up i'm more and more sure about this decision um but i just revisited it again because my neighbor that was across the street was outside when i was um pulling out and i told him that we were moving and just kind of went you know told him some high level stuff about why we were moving and it just brought to the forefront how heavy life has been for me.That's actually him texting me now.I asked him to give me some people that could come and do my yard cleanup because it looks a mess in the back.

But it brought to the forefront how heavy life has been for me since I've been here.It has been so heavy, y 'all.It's been so heavy.I'm in a light, so let me see if I can put this here.It's been so heavy.in so many ways i've struggled in ways that i never shared with you guys i've struggled behind the scenes and just kept trying kept putting one foot in front of the other trying to make it work asking god was there a reason that he had me here

all of the things and it's been a long long long time that I've just been feeling very very stuck and so what is so crazy is we have to be open to God doing the impossible because I personally was struggling obviously feeling stuck on the hamster wheel all the things but in my mind i could not think of any way humanly possible that my situation was going to get better anytime soon like even if i got on antidepressants and you know tried to help that situation is still like all the facts are still there i couldn't think of in my in my wildest dreams what could help this situation and then also not ever considering moving back on everything i told you guys yesterday god changed my heart and he did it like this and this moved solves so many problems like it solves so many problems like almost every concern that i have is solved by moving back to st louis so and then for it to just happen out of nowhere and then happen so quickly it's like when the Lord says suddenly he means it and it doesn't matter if it doesn't seem possible to our eyes like when it's time it's time and his timing is absolutely perfect so um anyway i just wanted to throw that at you that's just what was in my mind this morning um let me hop off and we're gonna run into kroger i'm gonna run into kroger real quick and then i'm gonna see y 'all at the house once yanique gets there all right y 'all we are back at the crib i have some products that i need to tacklethat came in PR, that I had already put stuff aside here on the table that I want to give away.

Y 'all, I did my beauty room yesterday and packed everything up.

I did not film that because, baby, I was ripping and running, and it was hot, and I barely had no clothes on.I needed to get in there and get out.We have nine large storage containers and boxes full of giveaway products.full so this is the last little bit of everything um matter of fact i'm waiting for yannick to get here but i can take y 'all upstairs real quick and show you um what it's looking like as far as the giveaway stuff um everything's in the containers but i can show you how big those containers are so yannick is about to get here um we're gonna start downstairs and finish getting all that giveaway stuff um put in boxes and separate the things that i want to keep but this is the room one two three which i might end up having to put these into boxes because i don't know if i know where the tops are for these so those might be transfer transferred to boxes but four five six seven did i say nine where's the other two maybe it's just seven um regardless all of these have giveaway stuff and they are piled to the rim so it is a lot of things i'm gonna have so many boxes for you guys multiple winners um once it is time for that not doing it right now but there will come a time where we do need to handle that so um also i'd like some complexion launches that i need to box up as well which um that's so hard for me to do in giveaways though just because i can't see y 'all complexion you know um so i'm gonna take that home and let my friend go through that and see if anybody wants anything but that's how we're looking.This whole room is packed up.Back here is all of my personal

makeup and skincare and body care stuff that I want to take.And yeah, this room is pretty much done.So when Yanika gets here, I think we're going to start in that front room and get those products.But then after that, we'll probably go up into the beauty room.Cause Amira's in my bathroom.Once she's out of there, then we'll go in the room and start working on clothes and stuff.

No crying.No.Sister.I refuse.Okay, you can be cute.

Oh lord.Crying.It's okay to be crying.

It's the right decision.

It is the right decision.

Snow up here.For real.

Look, girl.We're gonna start in here, and then we'll go upstairs.But this is all, yes, but I'm taking all of the stuff in the list.wrap my head around it.So I'm just gonna already packed up everything in the beauty room.I got seven big boxes slash containers of giveaway stuff.

This is giveaway stuff.And then I got boxes to open.So just separating what I want to keep and what's gonna go in this last giveaway box.I think that box should be enough.If not, we'll do two small boxes.And so all of this is giveaway.

Okay.

So I also have you just start packing.Got it.And we might do multiple boxes, but I'm opening these to see what's left.

Okay.So you can sort while I...

I'm a sort.And I'm separating.

I might steal some things along the way.

Please do.

Take what you want.

And then we'll go upstairs and start working on clothes and stuff because I need to separate my clothes that I'm putting in the luggage to take to Mommy.And then we'll start packing up.

Okay, so what's this?Thank you for coming to help me!Of course!

This is so much stuff to do, right?Moving is one thing, moving the way you moving!I'm so tired, I don't even know.But yeah, another day of running, getting this house, getting us out of here in 10 days.Crazy.We're less than 10 days now, but that's pretty much all we had once we started.

We have 6 days left, and it's coming along.I just don't, I can't fathom how I have been able to do this.Like, it's actually crazy.But, when the Lord says go, you go.I was just telling Anique that everything seems so easy.Like all the pieces are fitting together.

It's almost like God was just waiting for me to have the realization.And he's like, okay, catch up with me.Cause that's what it feels like.Anyways, I am in my closet folding up my clothes.I was going to keep my clothes on the hangers but I decided not to do that specifically because we are going to revamp the closet.I already threw away the things that I don't want and don't need but I do plan on doing like a little DIY custom closet

when we get to our apartment I'm gonna do one for me and one for Amira because as of right now we're gonna probably move in and have two to three days before I come down here and get all the furniture so that'll give me a little time to get in there possibly do some painting and then also get my get the closets put together and put in i'm thinking about just doing the target one like when you buy the target bookshelves and you just make your own custom closet that's what i'm leaning towards so um we'll see I say that to say I didn't want to leave everything on the hangers because I'm going to be changing a whole lot of things around as far as where things go and just all of that so all of these clothes are coming off of the hangers and we are going to organize them into categories and pack them like that that way you know at least it's like organized.In a moment I think I'm going to take a break and ask Amira if she wants to go and um get some acai bowls.There's this place that's not far from me where Amira and I have been going this summer to get acai bowls.It has become like our little go -to place so I'm gonna see if she wants to go do that real quick because she's in her room.My baby has knocked out all of her packing mostly.I think the only thing she has to do now is sort through her um What does she have to do?

She needs to sort through her artwork and stuff that's downstairs in a couple of drawers and dressers.And besides that, she's pretty much done, which is good because she didn't have as much time to get things done as I did.Number one, she really was just focused on mostly just her room and her bathroom, but she's going to camp this weekend for a cheer.so yeah that's where we are y 'all so I'm gonna finish this up we might just montage this out real quick and start getting this stuff into some boxes and yeah things are moving I'm feeling good another day in a great great week How was I to know we'd fall apart?

How was I to know you'd bring my heart?How was I to know I'd be tired of producing my material?

another day starting the vloggy vlog in the car so yesterday um we got a lot done yanique came and she helped me do um what you guys saw we finished putting all the giveaway stuff away um boxed up and then we also went into my closet and she packed up all of my perfumes and we chatted it up had a great time shared a few tears uh we are on our way to our botox appointment i have been running errands all morning amira wanted to finish off her cheer practices i think i already told y 'all that so i took her to share practice this morning i had to do some stuff for my car i needed a car wash i got a freaking um nail in my tire so gotta handle that um i also went to the doctor this morning and i got my antidepressant um prescription and then i also What else I do today?Oh, I have to go get keys made from the house so that I can, you know, have enough to give to the realtor and to the new owners once it's time.So, all the things.Things are happening, things are moving.So, feeling good today.I'm in a very, very, very good mood as I have been ever since I've made this decision a week ago.

And so, yeah, we cannot leave Atlanta without getting our Botox.So, right now, I'm going to get my Botox.obviously you can see we got that going on and then up here you can't really see the lines yet but you can see the makings of them you know what i'm saying like you can see that they're on their way back so we gotta go fix that um i have no problem with coming back to Atlanta to get my Botox done every three to four monthsI'm already probably gonna have to come back every couple of months because of our orthodontic work that we're getting done.But Amir and I are both supposed to be done with our ortho around the same time next year, like May, May of next year, so.it'll just be a short period if we have to come back every other month for an appointment but we'll see.

I keep trying to call them and they not freaking answering uh saying they're close to the 4th of July but today is Tuesday so I get yesterday but where y 'all at now at this point.Anyway that's what's going on um uh I'm gonna take y 'all with me to get our Botox.The fit is definitely giving off -duty models today y 'all.It's literally a t -shirt and jeans.That's all we got today because I've already um packed up the clothes that I'm taking to St. Louis next week.So, there's only a few things to choose from.

That's all I get.It's the work.

It is so good to meet you.Like I said, my name is Brittany.I'm a PA.So, I know you've usually been getting your Botox here.Are we doing Botox Dysport today?Dysport, mm -hmm.

Okay, all right.All right, and so I looked back at her note and kind of saw what she was doing for you.Okay.And she's done that the last couple of times.Did you like it this last time as well?That was good.

Okay.It was perfect.I wouldn't change a thing.Okay.I would keep everything, keep the same Dysport, not Botox, same amount of units, everything the same.Perfect.

Okay.Yep.Question?

No questions.It's gonna be my third time coming, so I'm loved.

Yeah.Alright, just look straight at the camera.Raise your brows as high as you can raise them, and then scrunch really hard together.Big, big, big smile.

I feel like the only weird thing about getting it ishearing that like clicking noise.Yeah, that crunch in the forehead.

Do your feet okay?Do you want me to put them up a little bit?Um, no, they're fine.

Y 'all, I'd really be thugging it out, getting Botox without getting numbing cuz.That practically took it out of me today, especially like right in between my eyes.

Where am I going?

Is that where I'm going to?I think I was going to.Right in between my eyes and made my eyes water.Girl.It was it was a little intense today, but um, I saw one of their new submissions.Her name is britney She was great.

So excited to see what my results look like Um because claire who I typically go to just had a baby.So She's on the train with me.Anyway, we're all done.I got all the content that I needed to get And we're gonna head back to the house.Um, I might just see y 'all later because i'm gonna be real busy I'm about to be real busy.Um Talking today.

So I might see y 'all later.If not, I'll see y 'all tomorrow.What's up, my loves?So, we are about to do some makeup and do some catching up, because I feel like we haven't really been able to like really talk for real, for real ever since I sat down with y 'all at the top of the vlog to tell you what was going on.Things have just been moving so fast.This product I'm using, y 'all, I want to tell y 'all what it is, but I can't.

It's a brand that came out, a known brand, who came out with a update of one of their products and you know they sent it to some influencers to try out so I'm testing her out to see how she um works but yeah once I can tell you I will let you know.Though I've been talking to y 'all here and there in the car butin shock I haven't had a chance to really like chat with y 'all about everything um how we're feeling especially like after this full week and stuff so first things first We are going out with Yanique tonight. This will be, I believe, our last girls' night, one -on -one girls' night tonight.We have an event to go to with this brand who's doing a collection preview, and then we're gonna do a cute girl dinner tonight.So, actually, we are going out tonight.We're going out tomorrow night, and we're going out Sunday night.

Something might not be out out, but tonight it is me and my road dog Yannick who I'm going to miss like crazy I've made some good friends down here, but me and Yannick we are soulmates like We're so similar.We're so the same and I'm gonna miss my girl so bad We shed some tears that y 'all saw the other day but there are phones and there are planes so we gonna see my girl that is my lifelong homies and i'm gonna miss my friend so i'm gonna go out tonight um anyway y 'all just listening to some my ricks yummy skin blurring bomb number nine i do have mine misaligned in that's why i'm talking weird anyway all right y 'all so this is a very sudden end to a chapter that i did not think was going to be ending this soon I already have all of my makeup packed up. So I have like two of these just sitting in front of me trying to go through it. But yeah, this has gone by very, very, very, very fast. Every day, Amir and I in the day looking at each other like, what the heck is going on? And how did we get here? Because it's moved so fast.but so but both of us are so sure that this is the move and what we're supposed to be doing like we cannot deny it not just from our own reasoning and preferences but also how it's so clear that this is what the Lord is doing in this very suddenly season um but it's shocking But y 'all, there's so many reasons why I am ridiculously excited to move back home.Y 'all, I don't know if y 'all can hear, y 'all probably can't hear, but Amira and her best friend are in the room, chilling and talking and laughing.So we share a wall right here.So I don't know if y 'all can hear them, but I can hear them.

They're laughing and stuff.But that's one of my favorite sounds to hear is my baby having a good time and laughing.But yeah.Anyway, another one of her friends, she has a male best friend that came over last night and helped us get all our boxes from upstairs down into the garage.And it was a lifesaver.And he was so sad.

He was so sad that Amir was leaving.Like he shed some tears.And he gave me the biggest hug.the tightest hug it was so sweet but yeah y 'all anyway um there are so many reasons why i am aesthetic for this move i'm super excited because number one being able to have a fuller life with my people like one thing i've learned during this season is that i cannot be without my people like i love my family and i are so close but being here without them made me realize how much it actually truly means to me um since we've been here the first couple years y 'all we went home at least 10 to 12 times during the year the last few years has been more like eight times but still that's a lot and i realize that that is just something that makes my life feel good and makes me motivatedand just all of the things um I'm happier when I'm home and I need my people and I love my people and I've realized that that's not something that I want to go without for long periods of time you know whatever that would look like in the future is what it's gonna look like in the future but for now I need my people, especially with all of the mental things I've been going through.So that's one big reason why I'm very, very excited, just to be there with my family and be there for life happenings and help plan events and, you know, see each other regularly and be a part of each other's lives and be there for my niece and for my nephew and just all of that.

And y 'all, that concealer was my Lancôme Teint Idole.I don't know what I did with it, okay.Lancôme Teint Idole All Over Concealer.The shade is 460.So yeah, very excited for that.Another thing I'm super excited about on that line is to be able to share what I've built with my family.

One thing that I've noticed that I have not had is I don't have no company, you know, I can't, you know, get a new car and tell my sister, Hey, I'm on my way to take you to lunch.You know what I'm saying?Like, uh, there's parts of what I've built as an influencer and in my career that I hate that I cannot share with my family.So being excited to share what I've built with my family, you know, let them ride around in my truck and just all of the things, right.Super excited about that.Also excited for the prospect of getting back out here and dating not necessarily in st louis because i'm open to that but also i'm able so this is to wrap into one being at home i'm able to travel more because i have my support system i told y 'all earlier in the video that you know don't really have a great support system here to the point where i can just you know do more freer traveling but i can't at home because i have such a great support system and my daughter is older now so

to be able to do that and be in what I would consider a better city for dating just because Atlanta is trash and I will not touch the dating pool with a six foot pole yeah or six mile pole at that but to have that opportunity possibly open up for me like no rush anything like that but it's like it's been shut down here out of fear of being in the dating market in Atlanta you know for all of the different reasons that are valid that I learned that I learned are extremely valid so um excited for that excited for my career when it comes to the traveling very excited for that prospect to be able to travel more and do some of the things that I've been wanting to do that I thought being down here was gonna allow me to do, but it hasn't.What else are we excited of?Excited to be with my girls.Y 'all know my best friends are in St. Louis.Excited to be with them regularly.So y 'all will be back seeing them regularly on the vlogs, which I'm really, really excited about.

They are ecstatic and we keep texting and they're so excited and can't wait for me to get home.I cannot wait to get home to get with them.What else?the new it the newness of getting a new place y 'all i'm so excited oh my god no y 'all just being able to not have the heaviness of owning a home bruh bruh bruh bruh i am so excited for that i i'm grateful i'm grateful that this has been my first home it's a huge and beautiful flex of a first home very proud of myself for that but baby leave me out of it please Please and thank you.I'm excited to get back into apartment living for a while.For whoever knows how long, but for a while at least.

And I can just put in maintenance requests and somebody can fix it.And it's not on me. I don't own the place.And just all that big burden of that, I'm very excited to not have.And I'm also just excited to have another place to redecorate and to, you know, Really make my place me y 'all know when I first moved here.I was on my All white everything kick all white and all beige everything kick and maybe have I changed I am so much more in tune with who I am what I like what my style is and you know as far as my personal style but also my home decor style so just excited to redecorate in what I like you know um super super excited about that even though I'll have less space to do decorating because we are going to one living space from having three here in this house um but regardless very very very excited for that that's always fun so for us to be able to do all the hauls and the organizational videos and the you know home decor stuff um in the closet like i told y 'all we're gonna do all of that very very excited um i think all of the content opportunities that comes with this makes me really really geeked like super super geeked and I had lost some excitement for my career and honestly my life, you know, because I just have in general been pretty miserable down here.And I'm just really excited for what's to come.

Really, really, really, truly excited.And I'm not going to say miserable.unhappy, maybe not miserable, because I've had some moments where I've been like super, super happy here.But it's always short lived because it's always like, but I miss my family.But you know, I wish this or I wish that or I'm super lonely or You know, that's been my main thing, just being very, very lonely, but then also, you know, all my mental struggles and stuff.So I'm not gonna say miserable.

I'll say unhappy.but regardless very very very very excited about all of the possibilities when it comes to my content i'm excited again to create and that feels really really really really good like i said i feel like my it girl energy is on its way back to me like she's just coming back day by day uh y 'all i wanted to so the outfit today is like cream it's like white and creams and golds is the um dress code and i know what i'm gonna wear i didn't have a lot to choose from because i had already packed up all my clothes so um i thought about trying to recreate zendaya's um eye look from her premiere that's been going crazy viral just doing like the lighter inner corner i think i want to do something like that real quick it's still very like neutral, natural vibes.What else am I excited about, y 'all?I think I'm excited just to, in general, turn the page and lock in into this newer version of me.Of course, it's still the same version of me, but I believe it's going to be a way better version of me, especially because, you know, now some of the Concerns and things that I had about my life being here is going to be null and void, you know as I'm moving on And I just am excitedto explore what that looks like on a regular basis for myself.

And yeah, just having a new place and having a new gym to go to and, you know, having different plans and essentially a brand new life is what I'm really, really excited about, you know?And I believe that it's gonna foster an environment for me to truly thrive as my best self and get rid of some of the bad habits that I've picked up here, you know?So I have somebody coming in 30 minutes to come and do some patchwork on my ceiling because he'll be back tomorrow to paint.Y 'all, we've been getting so much stuff done.We're not even gonna, I'm gonna talk about that in here in a moment because I may not change the subject, y 'all.There's just so many things to say.

So I'm gonna focus in on that inner corner first, y 'all, and then I'm going to montage it out.I'm gonna focus on the inner corner first, and then I'm going to, what's the word I'm looking for?blend it outwards.So I'm going into this lighter shade and this is the Patrick Ta palette.This is the Major Dimensions Essential Artistry Edit Eyeshadow Palette in Deep.They have it in different shades and this one is in the deep shade.

So I'm using this shade right here, right in the inner corner and then I'm going to blend it into a more brown shade.I just want this light one right here.Then I'm gonna go into this shade right next to it just for a little bit of an ombre on the lid.But yeah y 'all I think those are all the things off the top of the dome that I'm super super excited about.I think this is gonna be a beautiful season and transition and I'm excited to take you all on the journey.Y 'all have been with me through so many different

seasons of life and this is no different.So I'm very excited for you guys to be on the journey with me.So yeah y 'all, so many things have been happening with the house.I've been getting lots of repairs done and aesthetic things done.So far we, actually we're almost done.So far I have gotten my house pressure washed.

I got a yard cleanup outside.The guy is coming to do the patchwork and he's going to paint some things tomorrow, including some things outside.We have gotten some other repairs done just throughout the house, little random repairs that needed to be done.More things.I had a couple electrical problems.I had those fixed so I had someone come and fix those issues.

We have someone coming to do a deep clean of the house and then we have someone coming to do the carpets and clean the couches and all of that.And that's that.So, I am gonna darken my lash line like I always do, y 'all.I don't want this especially since it's going to be dark outside.I don't want this to give super daytime look.Okay y 'all we are done packing practically pretty much.

I have finished pretty much everything.Like I said Amirah Spring was here yesterday and he helped us get all of the boxes put in the garage.So we're pretty much done.The only things that are in the house are You know, some little stuff that we know we're gonna use in the next couple of days that we can easily just throw into a box or a suitcase.What are you about to get up out of here?It has happened so freaking fast.

It has been a very, very, very, very, very, very, very busy week, especially with me being back vlogging too.It's just been a lot going on this week.Ouch, finger.Y 'all, I have not done my nails this week because ya girl has been working like crazy.I'm happy I did not do them because the nails would have popped off.So we're just swinging it until I leave for st Louis I'm gonna do my nails right before I go.

I have this blush from dibs.It's like a baked brush.I can't even say that with my Invisalign in this is a dibs duet baked blush in the shade backstage I'm gonna add just a little bit of this to the top of the cheeks Um, I don't want to too much my guy's supposed to be here between 5 30 and 6 it is 5 .14 so I'm gonna be downstairs waiting and then he gonna do his thing and I'm gonna be ready to throw some clothes on with y 'all and head out as soon as he's done.A little bit of mascara on the bottom just to define the bottom lashes but not too much because I don't want to take away from the lighter inner corner.I'm happy that I actually put some makeup on for real tonight because I have not done my makeup in it's been a month about it's been around a month um y 'all i was out of it before i made this decision last week y 'all your girl was depressed i ain't gonna lie to you i was depressed um i couldn't i had nothing for nobody i had nothing and um i'm telling you there has been a light in the tunnel ever since i made the decision i'm a completely different woman i'm a different person and i'm so excited i'm so happy the lord knows MAC sent us a lip combo today.It is MAC Chestnuts, of course.

I literally just opened up the package today.I think I got it a couple of days ago.

And then the lipstick is Yash.

It's the color, which I think is perfect for this look.It's a good undertone for the eye look, because then it's like an icy lip glass on top.And then the MAC lip gloss.glass in the shade is 221 Frosty, which adds just that, a little bit of frosting on top.I'm going to clean this up, go downstairs, wait for the guy to come, and then we're going to get dressed and montage it out so we can head out and go out with Yannick tonight.One of our last nights in Atlanta.

Cannot believe that, but here we are.

So we got our new stand.I need to tighten it up, y 'all.

I'm happy I bought it this week.I was gonna wait till I got to St. Louis next week, but no, we're good.So we got our new stand.Let's turn this car on.Plug my phone in, do all the things we need to do.Let's see, I'm gonna turn on my, my microphone so you guys can hear me.

Yeah, y 'all can hear me?Perfect.So I am gonna redo my lip combo here.I just took it off.I just took off my lip combo, but I want to reapply her really quickly.I need to hurry up so I can go, but I don't know.

I don't like pulling up to the function.and then waiting in the car to do my lip combo.I prefer to do it right now.That way, when I get there, I can just throw my shoes on and head out.I had put the Lip Bar Trophy Wife on top instead of that MAC Lip Glass.The MAC Lip Glass that we used, it had like Specs of like different colors, you know how it'd be like iridescent.

That just don't be my vibe, you know what I'm saying?So I changed it, but also I ain't gonna lie to y 'all, this new Mac, the new Mac formula for the lip glosses, not like they're like two, because we all know that's gonna hit every time.The one for like the ones that we use, like with the doe foot, Do not like the formula.I love me some Mac, but I do not like those lip glass formulas.I do like this combo in particular with chestnut and this lipstick, which I told y 'all is Yash.It says 631 Yash.

And I kid you not, I think I'm gonna leave it just like that without putting a gloss on top right now.Cause it's giving, matching like the matte eye.You know, I don't want to do too, too much.So we're going to roll with this.Let me put this into the GPS because we're going to the factory in Chambly, I believe.Let me just double check that before I put that in.

Let's see.Navigate to Factory Atlanta in Chambly.

Getting directions to Factory Atlanta.See what we're looking like.

31 minutes.That's down the street.OK, period.period we're ready to go we're going out very excited to have a girls night out um i've never been to the factory atlanta i don't thinkSo hopefully there's like parking and stuff, we gonna find out.But yeah, let's go.

i don't care it's getting too late i want you and i can't wait don't want to spend a minute without you i know you feel the same come on get my show you i don't come hit me with your touch me wanna say and you want to talk about a statement earring you know that's my jam they had so many beautiful statement earrings that i just could not walk away without but then also y 'all that bag that they had that denim bag that looks like denim actually was not denim it was vegan leather but it had a denim look and feel funny stunning stunning stunning had to have it couldn't walk away without it so just made a little dent in my pocket but it's okay i call it a leaving atlanta gift to myself or no survival a survival gift because baby thisbeen me in survival mode the entire time I've been here so I'm proud of you Maya you did it you made it sister that's what we gonna call that bag and the earring surviving Atlanta gifts we are on our way to dinner we are going to at the next light turn right thank you siri we are going to this uh mexican spot which is called i've been there one time you guys went with me but that was a while ago um i'm definitely gonna miss going to these kind of events but also you know at the light turn right onto ashford dunwoody road northeast i'm gonna miss it especially like getting with yannick and like because we i told y 'all me and yannick are so like alike Like, we get to these events and like, we both low -key introverts.So we stand to the side and kiki and just have us a little ball, you know.But also get the benefit of being at the events and stuff.So I'm gonna miss doing this kind of stuff with my girl.Like, she's right behind me.

She's chilling me. I'm gonna miss that so bad.Yannicka, I love you so much.we probably gonna cry at dinner because you know this is what we do um but i'm i'm i'm gonna miss i'm gonna miss her but the good thing is like i told y 'all earlier i can travel more so i do want to come back to atlanta like if it's a week where's a whole bunch of stuff going on like i'm probably gonna leave atlanta on my little like influencer thing with my agency so that if it's a week that got like a bunch of stuff going on and unique is going and stuff like i will come fly in and do the things you know um but i want to do the same thing in los angeles as well that's one thing i wanted to do so bad when i moved here i wanted to do like travel to los angeles and do stuff like i have with kg they have my location as atlanta and la but i haven't been able to bringlike go to LA to do anything.But now I'm gonna have an opportunity to do that.So yeah, very, very excited for that possibility.

And events don't be happening as much as y 'all think.Sometimes we have like a full week of two or three events within the matter of maybe like a week or two.But most of the time, it's like once a month, maybe twice a month, and sometimes not at all in the month.East, child, let me stop talking because it's possible that I missed my turn and now they're rerouting me.So let me go.We're about to go East.

East.Let's have dinner.

See y 'all all day because it's been a very busy day with house stuff.

We got the house painted, a few things painted, not a lot.We painted the outside of the house, the door and the shutters in front of the house.So all of that's been happening today and it's been moving fast.Had to get Amira to and from cheer camp.So it's just been a day.So anyway, last night was fun.

Next night was real fun.I'm wearing the earrings that I bought last night.One of them with this outfit tonight, breaking her out because these are so, so cute.and we are headed to dinner with my friend Andrea so really quick OOTN that's what we're wearing tonight very chill Thomas from Express the pants are Zara yeah it's those barrel pants from Zara, my favorite shoes which are from Steve Madden and then we're doing this small bag which I want to say is also Zara.Not sure but I want to say it's Zara.We typically go to dinner and then we go outside but we're not doing that tonight because I am pulling a um I just saw a mirror earlier I'm pulling an OG Sunday morning editing session in the morning for this vlog um because everything has been happening so quickly like I haven't had time to actually edit this week so we gonna go to dinner make it real cute and then we're gonna come home so um this is the look and yeah i'm gonna grab my dj guys you guys can go with us and yeah let's go Okay, let me tell her that I'm gonna be slightly late, just like 10 minutes late.

Hopefully this place has valet, it is in Buckhead.Forgot to say, I have on my London Nude shades from 12pm Studios, and then I also just put on my Of The Hour fragrance, Aaliyah, and Dossier.So we are headed to Clark's, let me see what she say.

Andrea said, K, I'll be at the bar.I'm early today, LOL.Would you like to reply?

She always early.Dang, see, I'll be the late friend.

But today, I just couldn't help it, y 'all.It's a lot going on.It's a lot going on.

I'll tell you the details of this next vlog, but when we're actually getting out of this house, because the next vlog will be the last time that you see this house, because we are leaving on Tuesday.Today is Saturday.But y 'all, God is making it so easy.that this is the right direction that we're supposed to be going in.He has doubled down on the confirmation, okay?Doubled down.

Like, it's actually insane the way the Lord has doubled down on this.God has made it so, so clear, y 'all.Oh my God.Oh my goodness, like it is undeniable.It's undeniable.So I'm just very, very, very, very, very, very excited y 'all.

Yanique and I spent a bag last night, a bag, on this stuff at the Koi Collection Preview.I got two pairs of earrings and then I bought that denim bag.Oh, absolutely beautiful.I'll unbox it with you guys.I'll probably do that with y 'all, probably Monday.That way it'll be in the next vlog so you guys can see what it looks like and stuff before we head off to St. Louis.

So, very excited to go out with my girls tonight.This is our very, very last time going out in Atlanta, living here.Cause this is it, y 'all.We headed out.We're having a girls night in tomorrow.But this is our last night out, so.

I hope you guys enjoy this vloggy vlog.I'm going to go ahead and montage it out from here on out.Very exciting new chapter loading.So excited.

Bye.