Finding Out IM PREGNANT!

hi guys i can't believe that i'm making this video right now but i'm going to be taking a pregnancy test today i am so nervous i thought that i was pregnant about over a month ago and i was just so positive that it was a positive and then i got a negative and i was just like shocked i covered them i can't see them right now my heart is pounding i said no And now I have missed my period for a few days, which isn't abnormal for me, but I'm just gonna take a test just so I can know for sure.And yeah, I'm just ready.really nervous last time i got really really sad when i saw the negative and so i'm gonna try and not get my hopes up today and just whatever happens is supposed to happen and i'm just gonna trust in god that this is his plan and i'll get pregnant whenever it's meant to be you guys don't know this because i don't think i've ever shared this online but i have been told that i have pcos and i was told that i had a five percent chance of getting pregnant which was actually before i got pregnant with my son who is now seven and he's just a miracle and I didn't know that he came at the right time in my life when I'm supposed to have him and God had a plan for us and I was supposed to bring him into this world at that time and there was a reason that he came earlier than I expected to have kids and it's been so amazing being his mom and it's changed my life for the better.So yeah, I'm a little bit nervous that I won't be able to get pregnant again without some help.Me and Trey have been talking about doing IVF lately because I'm just not sure if I'm gonna have an easy time getting pregnant again.So that's why I'm also really nervous today, but we'll just see.

I just need to go get a test.I also don't have any at my house, so I need to go to the store right now.I used them all up last time because I was like, maybe it's a false negative.

So yeah, I gotta run to the store and go get a test first.

Also trey is not here right now So i'm just gonna go grab this test on my own and maybe i'll take it with him once he gets home But if he's not home in time, I think i'm just gonna take it by myself Secretive because I don't want anyone to see me buying a test and i'm so nervous Someone's gonna see me especially someone that I know or knows me Of course, I chose the busiest time to come here.There's so many people.I've never been to the store for a pregnancy test before, so hopefully they have them.

Okay, perfect.

I think I'm gonna get this one.Okay, we're gonna do self -checkout.Okay, I got it.Oh my gosh, I am so nervous to go home and take this test.I hope that I'm pregnant, but...If I'm not, then it's just not the time for me.

And God has another plan for our family.But I'm just, I really hope I am.

See you soon.

Okay, I just got home and Trey's still not here.So I'm gonna go look at his location, see where he's at real quick.

He literally just texted me and said he's not gonna be home for like another hour.So I think I'm just gonna go inside and I'm gonna take the test first.

Oh, Cody's been waiting for me.Hi, buddy.

He's so sweet.

I bought the early result one, and there's three, so hopefully that's enough.Do not open any box with my nails.Okay, these two, wait, they all look the same.I want the digital one, one that has the digital one, but that's, that's okay.Dang it, I got the wrong.It's okay, it's still a test, it'll still work.

I'm gonna take two, because you guys don't know this, but last year, me and Trey took a test.I was late on my period and it was positive and we were like so ecstatic.Trey was crying.We were so so happy and it was like midnight and Trey decided to go get another test because it was just one and it had been sitting in our drawer and we weren't sure how long so he ran to the store and he grabbed another test and then came back.We just literally took it at midnight and those were negative and so we got a false positive which is crazy and it made us like so sad but it also made us realize that we really really want kids so bad.I'm gonna take two just to make sure and I will be right back.

Okay, I just did it.I'm gonna start a timer for two minutes.Oh my gosh, I'm gonna go out of the room and shut the door.My heart is pounding.This is gonna be the longest two minutes of my life.I'm really bummed that I didn't get a digital test.

I thought I did.I didn't really read what I got.I justgrabbed it and i thought it was the right one so dang it but it's okay it's still like the first response early tests so they should be good and i took two of them i just don't like the ones with the lines i just like it when it tells me pregnant i want to know i want to see the words but one more minute i'm gonna go grab something to go grab them with so i can't see them and i can open them on camera i just grabbed a paper towel so that when i grab them i can't see the results and i just can't them back over here.My timer's going off so I will be right back.I'm just gonna look at them.

I keep looking at them because they're like, I can'tbelieve it, but that's the line.Both of them.This doesn't seem real.I cannot wait to tell Trey.I'm gonna have to do it.

I don't think I have time today to get everything ready, but I'm gonna have to do it tomorrow.

I'm so excited to tell him.He's gonna be so happy.

We've wanted this so bad.He's already such an amazing dad to Jonah.He's just, he's so amazing and he was just born to be a dad.He's just amazing.I literally can't think right now or speak.I'm so much shocked.

I'm so happy that Jonah gets to be a big brother.sibling so bad and he's gonna be so excited.I can't wait to tell Jonah too.It's gonna be so fun and amazing.He's gonna be so excited.I can't believe this is real.

I'm so happy.I don't know how I'm gonna keep this from Trey until tomorrow.Like, I have no idea how I'm gonna just not talk about this.I'm gonna try my hardest and then tomorrow morning, I'm gonna go get all the stuff and I'm gonna surprise him and get his reaction and I just can't wait.He's gonna be so, so excited.I need to figure out how I'm gonna tell Trey.

Okay, it's later and I'm heading into yoga now.I'm gonna have to not push myself too hard today and just take it really easy because I have been feeling not very good and I've been really dizzy, so.Hopefully this goes well and I don't have to leave early but also I haven't told Trey yet so I'm doing a good job and it's just so hard keeping a secret from him but I've been able to do it and I can't wait to tell him.I'm all done with yoga.It felt really nice to be able to go and stretch.It wasn't really fun being dizzy, but I feel okay, so it's all good.

And I didn't have to leave early, so that's good.It's gonna be so hard to wait until tomorrow to tell Trey, because I don't have any of the stuff.Well, actually, I do have one thing.I got this cute little jelly cat, and it has a little sweater that says baby on it.And I got it when I thought I was pregnant before.So I've been just hiding it in our closet and he has no idea that I got it.

So I'm gonna use that to surprise him.And then I thought I'd go get a few other things like flowers and just make a little cute setup for him to walk into tomorrow.He goes to the gym every morning, so I'm gonna have to hurry and do it all before he gets back from the gym.I'm just so excited to be able to go through this pregnancy with my husband and experience everything with him and be able to do it with him by my side, supporting me the whole time.I haven't experienced that before with a partner.Some of you might have not seen my other video where I talk about my pregnancy with Jonah and what I experienced through that, but pretty much I went through it by myself.

My parents were there to support me, but I didn't have a partner by my side and that was really, really hard.And I'm wondering what kind of emotions are going to come up this time through this pregnancy.But I'm just so excited to be able to experience it in a different way this time.Last time was such a miracle.it was such an amazing experience.Jonah is such a blessing to my life and so many other people's lives and Bruce's life and he's just a miracle and he was meant to be my son and he's meant to be here.

But that pregnancy was really hard and I went through a lot of stuff and I don't regret it at all.I got an amazing son out of it and I grew so much as a person and I'm so proud of him.who I became because of it.So yeah, it was, it was an extremely hard pregnancy, but it was a miracle at the same time.It was amazing.So yeah, I'm wondering what emotions are gonna come up this time in this pregnancy.

And I'm so happy to have Bruce by my side, holding my hand through it all.He's gonna be the most amazing support father through all this.And I can't wait for him to be able to experience the things with the child that he's never gotten to before and because he talks about all the time how he wishes he was there when Jonah was little and I wish he was too but things happen for a reason.God has a plan and I'm excited for him to be able to have this experience and go through a pregnancy and be able to watch it all happen.I'm just, I'm so excited this is gonna be amazing and I'm excited to take you guys on this journey with us.But yeah, I'm so so grateful for Bruce.

He's so amazing.Okay, I'm gonna head home now and hopefully I can keep this secret all the way until tomorrow.It's gonna be so hard keeping a secret from Bruce because I tell him everything.But I'm gonna have to do it because I want to be able to give him a special surprise and be able to get his reaction.He's gonna be so so excited and sohappy, and so overwhelmed with joy, and I can't wait to tell him.

Okay, I just got home.Trey's in the kitchen cooking dinner right now.He's so sweet, but I thought I'd show you guys the bunny that I got, so you can have a little sneak peek.It's really cute.I'm excited.

I gotta just find it.

It's buried deep in...Oh!Hi, buddy.Right there.This is not for you.This is not for you, Koda.

This is not for you.He thinks it's a toy for him.Look how...Oh my gosh, Jonah just walked in and almost saw.I was like, buddy, I'm changing.But this is the little guy.

It says baby on it.So stinking cute.I'm excited.This is not for you.I'm excited.Surprise him with it and it'll be such a cute little surprise.

Okay, I'm gonna go help Trey with the end of dinner now.And the next time you see me, it's gonna be tomorrow.So I'll see you guys tomorrow.