I Sat Down With A Killer

There is a certain process of elimination when you are at the scene of a death. Some cases are obviously going to be trickier than others. We don't know. And if this is what truly happened, if our theory is correct, are we sure that's what really happened? That's what the investigators are doing.

But for Detective Ryan, this case starts off really easy. Dead man in the living room in his own house. He's dead in his living room, in his house, in like a secluded, wooded area. He walks in. Was it natural? That's the first question.

Well, no, because there's droplets of blood right at the entrance of the house. It doesn't seem like it was natural. Was it a robbery gone wrong? The door shows no signs of forced house. It doesn't seem like it was natural. Was it a robbery gone wrong? The door shows no signs of forced entry. One of the other officers walks straight up to him and just says, well, somebody tried to cut this dude's head off. Murder. That's what this is. We got the how. The cause of death is murder. With a hunting knife. By

the clues left behind in the living room, I mean nothing of value is taken. All of the blood is concentrated near the couch in this living room area. Whoever did this hunted the dead man in his own living room. The first interesting detail that sticks out to Officer Ryan is that there are lots of bloody footprints all over this living room, but it's concentrated in this specific living room area, except this one clear blood. Whoever this person is walked over there,

put one foot just outside the door, never stepped inside. What are they doing? Detective Ryan steps inside the master bedroom and he starts looking around, and that's when he sees it. He's like, did the killer slit that man's throat, walk over to this bedroom to spit on the bed? Detective Ryan knows

instantly that whoever did this knows the dead man, targeted the dead man, hunted the dead man and left a giant trail of evidence. It's not long after that that Detective Ryan is gonna find the killer and he's got a lot of questions to ask this killer and so do we Can you take us to when we're in the car after you killed Dennis I

Was bleeding severely I had a severe wound. Speaking to my buddy in the passenger seat, I was not even thinking about getting away with it. I was thinking about stopping the blood flow.

Did you have a hole in your hand?

I did. I put a knife right through it. Severed the ligaments and tendons.

How long was the knife?

It was a hunting knife, so they're about six inches long,

six eight inches. Did you take the murder weapon with you or did you leave it? Took it. And there was blood everywhere. Was it coming from your hand or was it someone else's blood? A mixture. Did you feel the need to get rid of the blood?

I had a glove on and when I got back to my house I could wring out the glove. It was just pouring out of me. And it was everywhere in my garage.

Can you walk me through the hole in your hand?

See it wasn't straight through the hand it was down this way and out this way so it went the whole length and you could see pretty deep into the because it was wide open at the time. And you're just driving with one hand? Standing in my garage pulled the glove off and then I was like oh boy we got a we got a problem. Did it hurt the hole in the hand? Yeah but I was uh I was full of adrenaline and cocaine

and alcohol. I wasn't fixated on the pain. No the pain didn't bother me at the time.

The next morning police are surrounding your house and you pour a glass of chardonnay. How many police officers are outside trying to arrest you?

12 to 20. Are you scared?

I'm thinking life is over. Your attorney describes it as horrific crime scene photos after you left Dennis' house. Have you seen those photos?

I have.

Did you feel anything when you saw it? Honestly, no. Dennis' obituary reads, To those who knew him well, he will be remembered as a great man who always went above and beyond the call of duty, and one whose love and loyalty for his friends was unparalleled. Do you agree with that? No, I do not agree with that You provided to us your records like your psychology records from when you were in jail

And then later prison Psychologists asked you do you feel relief after the homicide and you say I can't say that things were out of control

No relief. Yeah, what happened in that night was horrific. In his house was horrific. And it wasn't anything to sit back and rejoice over. It was a bloody, gory, horrific event.

Do you remember how many times you stabbed him or do you only know from what's been told? Only from what I've been told. Initially when you were first arrested I think there was questions of maybe there is an insanity plea, maybe there are all these other things. And one report reads, the most outstanding clinical feature was the absence of any significant overt psychopathology.

So does that mean that some psychiatrists were confused because you didn't strike them as a psychopath or someone that just kills out of nowhere?

Right. They didn't find any, you know, anything psychologically wrong with me to do what I did.

You killed Dennis Pegg.

I did.

You stabbed him.

I did.

Reports say you slid his throat.

Yes.

You spit on his throat. Yes. You spit on his bed.

Yes.

And you drove off with a hole in your hand.

Correct.

And then you were arrested, and psychiatrists say that they found nothing wrong with you.

Correct.

And so technically, you killed someone, and you don't regret it.

No.

And everyone in town while you're in jail waiting for a trial, a plea deal waiting for whatever fate has in store. Everyone in town has free Clark stickers on their cars. People are writing articles. People are selling bumper stickers that say Free Clark.

They were everywhere instantly, like in less than a week's time.

Why did you kill Dennis Pegg?

The short answer is he was a monster.

What's the long answer?

Long answer is he had a 45 year reign of terror in our little town of Stillwater, New Jersey raiding boys.

Were you one of the boys?

I was.

I was reading in your memoir, Scarred. you were born with a hole in your heart.

I was, just a defect in my heart. And the doctors monitored me for the first six years of my life. And they told my parents we were down to a six month window to operate to repair it.

And so you had the surgery and you have a scar that you call a zipper.

You know, with all the stitching, it looks just like a zipper.

I know in the beginning when you were a kid, you were bothered by the scar. Is that something you're still bothered by?

No, I've come to make peace with my scar.

So, okay, what was your first impression of Dennis? I know in your memoir you talk about how he came over and he offered you a dollar to touch your scar because it was the thing that your parents were doing to try to get you to be proud of your scar was to show people

for quarters. Right. You're going back you know to 1971 to have open heart surgery as a six-year-old child. Open heart surgery today is still a risky endeavor. So they were extremely proud of me for surviving this. I was in Mount Sinai Hospital in New York City for a month straight. And they were so proud,

they just wanted to show me off to their friends. And they thought a neat way to, you know, when you're a kid, you just wanna fit in with all the other kids. I had something now that made me stick out from everybody. So they just thought it would be a way

to get me comfortable with it by showing it to their friends and collecting a quarter.

Dennis Pegg was a family friend.

He was, he was my brother's boy scout. I had a brother who was six years older than me. Jay. Jay, and he was my brother's boy scout leader. And we had a lot of land where we lived in New Jersey, and he would hunt on our land with my father and brother.

I wasn't old enough yet, and my parents owned a restaurant back then, and my father put on big Sunday night meals, and he would come every Sunday and have dinner with us and tell stories about, he worked at the county jail as a sheriff's officer,

and he would tell stories about that.

Do you think that he targeted your family to get close to you guys, or do you think he genuinely was just friendly with your parents?

Targeted.

Predators have to win over, one, they have to win over their community so nobody would ever suspect them. Two, they have to win over the family. And then last, they have to win over the family. And then last, they have to win over the victim.

Can you tell me about the moment that he saw your scar?

It was just a couple months after I had the surgery. Everybody in my family was in our backyard and I came inside to get a drink and watch cartoons for a minute and Dennis came to the front door which was right next to our den And I heard his voice and I bound it up. I loved Dennis, you know, I just thought he was great he always had his gun on and a badge and I Let him in and he asked where everybody was. I told him everybody was out back.

And he said, let's sit in the den for a minute. And then he said, you know, hey, I got a quarter. Can I see your scar? Didn't think anything of it, lifted my shirt, showed him. And he said, I've never seen a scar so raised up like yours. I have keloid condition, so my scar is pronounced."

And he goes, how about I give you a dollar if you let me touch it? I couldn't possibly think of, in my little six-year-old mind, of any ulterior motives he would have. And I said, sure, Dan. And he took his big meaty fingers and he ran them up and down my scar. And then he went below my scar line to like my belt line,

and he was just probing and saying, is your stomach sore from the surgery? And I'm like, no, not at all, Dan. And he's like, okay. He's like, this has to be our little secret. He goes, if you tell your parents

that I gave you a dollar for touching your scar, we can't be buddies. I'm like, I can keep a secret. So when he's like probing and touching,

did it just feel like, cause you had just gotten out of surgery, did it just feel like another adult that's maybe making sure you're okay? Yeah, yeah. Is that the feeling?

Yeah, like I said, there wasn't one thought in my mind that he could have any other reason to touch other than he cared about me and

my well-being. Throughout the book you describe him as having needy fingers and I know a lot of cases that we cover a lot of victims remember specific sensations or very specific scents even? Is that something that you would remember distinctly as meaty fingers?

Yeah, he was a big hulking guy and I was a little tiny kid back then. When I say hulking, he was probably 265 pounds and just one of those big beefy guys him touching my scar stands out so pronounced in my mind and The visualization of his big meaty fingers is like ingrained in my memory I wish I could scrape it off and remove it, but I can't it's like ingrained in there

I'm assuming that's a worse memory than the actual open heart surgery.

Yeah, it's, he like ruined my open heart surgery, ruined my scar, I hated my scar because what would happen later on. And he's the reason for me hating the way I looked.

Did he have any sort of fascination with your scar? Or was it truly 100% just an excuse to start grooming you?

Yeah, I don't think he had any. Things with a predator, they're never the way they seem. A predator is a chess master, always multiple steps ahead of you. So like everything may seem one way, but to them it's complete other way.

And I don't think he cared two hoots about my scar. It was just a avenue to get what he ultimately wanted.

You guys would go fishing. There would be a lake, you and a bunch of boys would go fishing, Dennis Pegg would constantly be there. And there was an issue with the sunfish, like these little fish in the lake that don't taste good, they're not edible fish?

I mean, they're tiny. So to fillet a sunfish, you'd have to fillet a lot of them to get any meat off of there. So it's mainly sunfish? Right down by the dam there'd be a lot of sunfish and they're they're a really like gullible fish where you don't even need to put a worm on a hook you could just put your hook in the water and they see the bright shimmering and they just latch on to it and you know you catch them and you just release them or so we thought. does not catch and release them what did you know no and again for me to say

he didn't like sunfish it is is wrong because he's a chess master remember he's a predator and he's one step ahead of us, two steps, three steps ahead of us, he would tell us little boys that sunfish were a worthless fish and that they needed to be killed. And he would catch them and stomp on them with his boot. Or he would catch them, throw them in the grass alongside the river, and then pick up a big rock and smash it down on them. And he'd be like, that's what you do to things that are worthless.

So everything's like a means to an end for him. So he just wants to scare everyone?

It's a control thing. It's a domination thing. It's also to let you know if he considers you worthless, this is what will happen to you. We're down there as a group of young boys, and it's not just me he's targeting, he's targeting all of us and letting us all know how he feels about worthless things.

This is a little sidetracked, but I was doing research into sunfish because I didn't even know what they looked like. And in a lot of indigenous cultures, they're actually known for protecting the young.

Really?

Like they're some of the fiercest protectors of their young. Wow. Like they will stay by their young for 10 to 14 days and starve themselves just to protect them. And so it seems almost ironic that he specifically did not like sunfish as well.

Wow, I didn't know that.

It's very interesting.

Never heard that, yeah. It's amazing.

So in one of the court documents, it mentions that he, did he drink a goldfish or he bit a goldfish in half spit the halves into his beer?

Did he drink the beer with the goldfish? Yeah. Yeah, and he said he used to do that with his army buddies and

He would just make you guys watch

Made me watch this was at his house. You're saying that he will bite a goldfish in half Yeah, he bit a goldfish in half and then swallowed it down with his beer. And you can make up whatever psychological reference you want, you know. Again, it's to scare me, it's to show violence to me.

Like his demeanor during all of it is just...

Dennis was a light switch. He could be one way, outgoing, friendly, gregarious, fun-loving. Instantly, I dilate, turn black and he becomes a completely different person. What happens at the Polaroids? Yeah, down at the lake again. I lived at a lake community, and there was a dam area. And the dam would separate the lake and then into the river. And that's where all us kids would hang out and play.

He did everything out of the watchful eye of my parents. When everything happened, my mother said, I never even saw him with you. And I'm like, everything happened down at the lake. And he was giving beer to us young boys, not just me, down there.

So I'm like nine years old. You know, get a picture of a little nine year old. He invites me into his pickup truck, down at the lake, and let's have a beer. So he gives me a beer. And I thought it was great, you You know like here's a lieutenant. He's a lieutenant in the Sheriff's

Department and I'm getting to have a beer with him. I'm thinking this is fantastic and he says, one of my friends just bought a old farmhouse and there was a desk old desk left behind. so I started going through the drawers and it was filled with No pictures you want to see some and and you know, I'm like thinking like Playboy magazine type stuff He you know reaches he had cargo shorts, you know cargo shorts had the big pockets on them so he opens up his cargo shorts pockets and takes out a handful of Polaroid

pictures. And he's looking at them and he just starts giggling like a little schoolboy would giggle. And he's like, oh, these are a riot. He's like, here. And it was a close-up of a young penis. And he's like, here's another one, and here's another one.

And it was just penis after penis. And he's slapping my knee in his truck, laughing. Aren't these so funny? Aren't these a riot? And I'm like, where's all the women, then? And he's like, oh, those must have been in the other drawer.

Next time I go over to that house, I'll open up the other drawer for you. But look at these, aren't these a riot? Aren't these so funny?

And I'm just like, eh.

So you think he took these Polaroids? I mean, there was no front, there was no front house.

No.

He took these.

Yes.

Yeah. He always had large stories. And looking back now, I don't know if any, if one of them was true. I have no idea.

He would invite you to his house and then he would try to feed you beers and-

What would happen a lot is the damn area where I lived, the river went right through still water to a bridge area, the gristmill bridge. There was an old gristmill right at the bridge. And he would say down at the dam area, the fish aren't biting that good. Let's go over, you know, towards the gristmill. Or there's twin bridges in another section of the river or he'd say, let's go to the twin bridges.

And he would always mysteriously slip in the mud, his foot would go into the mud, or he'd slip and go into the river and get his boot wet and we'd have to go to his house so he could change his sneaker or change his boots and that's how he would get me over there and then while we're there, well let's have a beer while we're here. So it would be just to get me comfortable going to his house and having a beer at his house. Were the

houses like far apart or did people see that there's constantly boys going in and out of his house? No, he lived he lived up a long driveway and the house sat alone up there So you can't see anything like if you were to scream people can't hear it's pretty. There was houses down below

But his was a driveway that went up did a 90-degree turn to the house and it was the only house up there his house I return to the house and it was the only house up there. His house, I don't wanna call it a cabin, it was a two bedroom, one bathroom house. And it sat up on a hill that overlooked the elementary school playground.

Was he like looking there all the time? Was he outside?

I went to that elementary school, Stillwater Elementary School. I was in Little League baseball and he was at every game that I can recall down on the fence There was a fence that would go around the ball field. He would be down there he would come around the fence to to the bench where we'd sit at and Grab your shoulders. Oh great job out there, great job.

Just always down at the playground with the young kids. No one thought it was weird because he doesn't have kids of his own, right? Not married, no kids, but he's the lieutenant in the sheriff's department. He's the Boy Scout leader. The Boy Scouts did their meetings in the gym of the elementary school. So he's wrapped around everything in the town. He's on the Stillwater Historical Society board. The little old ladies loved him.

I mean, this goes on for years now. You know, the touching of the scar happened when I was six years old. It goes on to like I said inviting me into his truck down at the dam to have a beer with him. And this has to be our secret. And in my mind, I'm like, I don't want to ruin this. I'm not telling I'm not going to tell my parents.

I had a beer with the lieutenant from the Sheriff's Department. This is fantastic. You know, and he made you like his equal. You know, he put you on equal footing. He made you like feel special,

and it's us against the world. Everything, he told me, I mean, one of the stories I recite is, he was always taking trips out west. And on one of his trips, he said he met the Marlboro Man. Now, if you grew up in the 70s, 80s, the Marlboro Man was a fictional character, but on the

back of every magazine with a Marlboro cigarette dangling in his mouth. And he was the coolest dude imaginable. Dennis took the coolest, macho-est guy in America and told me he met him on a trip and he was gay. He said, it didn't bother me in the least. He was such a great guy. We hung out for three days and had dinners and just spent a lot of time together. And again, he would say, this has to be our secret. Don't

tell anybody the Marlboro Man's gay. He confided that in me. I don't want his secret getting out. Did he ever meet the Marlboro Man? Who played the Marlboro Man? I have no idea. Probably not. Was the Marlboro Man gay? Who knows. It's just, like I said, nothing is ever as it seems with a predator. And so, what's he doing? He's taking the macho-ist guy in America, fictional character, but macho-ous and making him gay and trying to gauge my response and trying to normalize it. Like, hey, the macho-ous guy in the world is gay. And that's, um, again, that's what I would surmise he was doing. I can't get into his his mind he tries to start wrestling with you that was kind of like the gateway into yeah you know so he he's taken years now

you know of porn pictures Marlboro man beers slipping into the river go to the house beers you know so he's he's he he's invested years of grooming, and at some point you have to initiate more touch. That's why I see people tussle a young boy's hair and it just sends a chill down my spine. Because to a normal person, it's like, oh, cute little Billy, you know. But to a predator, they need to initiate touch. And that little tussle of the hair is going to go to a pat on the knee, is going to go to a pat on the thigh,

is then going to go to a wrestling match. So, he told me that he wrestled my older brother, Jay, and he wrestled my next door neighbor, Jeff. Jeff and Jay were inseparable. They were same age, same grade, in the scouts together. And he says to me, I wrestled Jeff and Jay, let's see how tough you are. And I'm like okay. And at first he would let me dominate, let's say,

you know, get the upper hand on him. And then like I said, that light switch would go off, and his eyes would turn dark and black, and he would pin me to the ground, and he would get his hulking 265 pound body on top of me, and start gyrating and moving and grooving, and looking back on it at the time, not really realizing what he was doing, but he was erect,

and this was getting him off.

And you're 11, so you're tiny.

I was 10 when that started happening, when the wrestling started.

I mean, he's like three, four, five times your size.

Yeah, I mean, because of, I was a sick little kid when I was young. Like, you know, I was in the hospital constantly with the flu and bronchitis and anything because of the hole in my heart, they would put me into the hospital immediately. I'd be in an oxygen tent. So I was constantly in the hospital and I had to be careful for a long while

after surgery with playing. There was some limitations put on me by the doctors. You know, so I was just a small little kid back then, sick kid. And this guy just took advantage of that. And he could tell like I was insecure, you know,

because my scar made me stand out. And they look for something like to separate the weak from the pack, you know, like any predator does. And my scar was, you know, and my insecurities about it is how he separated me from the pack. And wrestling was the next avenue of physical touch. He's devoted four years now of stories and secrets, alcohol, pornography, and now it's time to get back to touch.

There's a part where in your book, your memoir, you talk about how he pinned you down and he says something along the lines of like, come on, you can get out, come on, squirm. Do you feel

like he is getting off on you struggling or? Yeah, yeah, it's exactly what he was doing. You know, he would get me down, you know, like I would be in the dominating position on top of him and then all of a sudden the light switch goes and he would get rough with me and like sort of throw me down, my 10 year old body, throw me down and get on top and be commanding me to try harder to get out squirm more move more you know cuz he's wanting me to move against him and what

he has going on he comes over for Christmas what does he get you as a

Christmas present I had a Boy Scout hunting knife that's what they were called and he brought me a whetstone sharpening kit to sharpen the hunting knife. And over him drinking a glass or two of eggnog at our house, he taught me over the next hour, keep the blade at an 18 degree angle,

how to drive it, you know, across the stone, you know, the oil you gotta use. And then he would have me do it and taught me how to get a perfect blade on my hunting knife. And that was something I kept perfectly sharp

my whole life.

The hunting knife?

Yeah.

What happens when you're 12 and what happens to Dennis' dog as well? I know that there was like a hunting ploy excuse of like you're gonna pretend to be shot in the woods because my buddy

shoots everyone without thinking. So at 12 he concocted this whole big hunting ruse of having a friend who just shot and aimed and shot without knowing if it was safe to shoot. And he said, we've gotta correct my friend from this bad habit and I'm gonna use you as a decoy out in the woods. You're gonna be laying there with fake blood on you

and I'm gonna take him out hunting and he's gonna do his typical shoot and then we're gonna come upon you lying there with fake blood and you need to practice gurgling sounds like you're gurgling blood, you know, your death rattle, he called it.

You have to practice your death rattle. So he got me down at the lake one day, got me back to his house. We're going to practice your death rattle at the house. And instead of offering me beer, he offered me blackberry brandy, you know, a glass of blackberry brandy with a beer, and he told me to chug it. And then he gave me another thing of brandy.

And his house was, it was a summer day, but his house was like way hotter inside than outside. And then in my adult mind now looking back, I'm like, did he have his heat on? Did he like purposely turn his heat on in his house to make it sweltering, knowing what he had concocted? Like I say, with a predator,

you never know what they're thinking. So his house is boiling, we're sweating. He wants me to lay down on his bed to practice my breathing. And it goes to, it's so hot in here, let's just take our shirt and pants off, our shorts off.

And then it goes to to he's behind me, has me in a bear hug, and me. And I'm screaming, I'm crying. And he had a dog, which is called a coon hound and coon hounds have this long drawn-out howl they do and as I'm being raped I hear his dog howling away because of my cries and screams and it didn't stop this guy until he was done doing what he wanted to do with me. And afterwards he sat me down at his kitchen table and got another beer, like almost like we were two lovers who just had a romantic tryst together. trist together and he brought his dog over to me and said I want to show you

what will happen to you if you ever open your mouth about what just occurred and he started to beat his dog and beat his dog and I'm crying and screaming and begging him to please stop to please stop and he wouldn't until the dog lay in a heap at my feet. Now I was just contacted just two days before this interview by a gentleman who when he was 17 years old needed a place to stay and he stayed at Dennis Pegg's house for six months and he said it was the most bizarre six months of his life he said the guy was a complete freak he

said one thing that happened though is he got got, now, when he was 17, he's 10 years older than me. I would have been seven back then. When he would be five years later. So this dog would be five years old. And this guy said,

Dennis got this coonhound puppy when I lived with him, and it peed on the rug and he beat the puppy so bad, we had to take it to the vet to save its life. So even as a puppy, he beat it for simply doing what puppies do and peed on a rug.

And then this is the same dog five years later that he beat and probably killed in front of me.

You never saw the dog again?

No. And a lady, a female guard who worked with him at the jail, told me how Dennis came in one day all distraught that his beloved coonhound dog Duke died and we all Gave him hugs and tears and we all loved dogs. We were all dog people and

She goes I am horrified to think that's Because of what he did in front of you that he killed Duke.

It says in your book that you felt guilty over what happened to the dog.

He only, I felt he only did that to Duke because of my cries and screams. And if I hadn't cried and screamed during the...

that uh...

what he did to Duke wouldn't have happened. Do you still feel that way or?

Yeah. I mean he might have had that planned, but he couldn't determine if Duke was gonna cry or not. Like I said, with a predator, you never know. But yeah, I still feel guilty for Duke.

Do you feel like Duke had more humanity than Dennis in that moment?

I feel Duke and I were the only two in that room who had humanity. And that's saying a lot since Duke's a dog. Dennis, I feel, lost his humanity a long time ago. As soon as you, as soon as you dedicate your life to hunting children and you really can't say you have humanity. That's pure evil to me. If you're going to define what the devil is really the guy with a smile on his face who's charismatic,

outgoing, friendly, charming, who everybody loves, who's involved in all these organizations, who's on the historical board, but who's only doing those things to fool people of his true nature. What changed after that day? My life was forever altered after that day. My whole trajectory in life changed that day. Nothing would be the same. I would tell myself that talking about what just happened

would be reliving it, and we were never gonna do that. We could just bury this down deep inside and go about our life. I convinced myself that that's what I could do. I led the most exhausting life because I would crank on a smile to the world. And inside, I was completely broken and destroyed. And I went through that way my whole life until I couldn't keep it up any longer.

How many years passed since you're 12 and then the day that you see Dennis Pegg at QuickCheck?

I was 45 when I saw him at the QuickCheck. So you're talking 33 years.

33 years, he's probably still hunting kids.

Yes.

And then there is a day that comes where you effectively hunt the hunter. You step into QuickCheck, what happens there? It's like a gas station, it's a convenience store.

Yeah, this one was just a convenience store. They have gas stations now, they're a lot larger, but this was just a convenience store and a little like four-store mall. I'm getting a coffee. I'm at the Coffee Island making a coffee. The front door opens. I think it had a bell on it so it made me look up and I look up and I look into Dennis Pegg's eyes. He sees me and he yells out to me, Hey! How are you buddy? And I instantly start going into a panic attack. I can

tell just by the way he said, hey buddy, you know, that he's gonna come over to me. I had seen Dennis around around our town over those 33 years. You know, I recall once in a bar after college, me and my buddies were in a bar and as soon as we ordered a beer I get a pat on my shoulder and it's Dennis Pegg. And I chug my beer and I tell my buddies we're going. There's no no remorse, no shame, no guilt. Yeah, the predators, yeah, they don't ever show that. So I had

seen him around town, but it had been probably 10 years since I saw him. And what was different this time in that quick check, which completely unraveled me, was that he had a young boy by his side Probably close to the age he me at and that young boy Called him the same nickname Dennis used to make me call him and I heard that nickname and I saw that young boy and I just It just ripped open Everything for those 33 years that I told myself I could bury down and go about my life

When he would touch me I would I would freeze I would stiffen like a board And I felt my muscles like it's like a paralysis and I felt that coming on me and I felt it hard to breathe. And the thoughts in my mind, just like your mind starts swirling where you can't even think. And I'm like, I gotta get out of here

before I completely freeze. And this guy like grabs me, and I just left my coffee and whatever stuff I had on the island there. And I ran out past him. We sort of shoulder bumped a little and he's like, where are you going?

Where are you going, buddy?

Come here. And I ran out and I hopped in my truck and I sped out of the parking lot and I went down the road and my life unraveled. Just, just completely unraveled. Just, just completely unraveled.

Do you think you saw yourself in the little boy? Is that, or you just felt protective of the little boy?

Did you have- I couldn't get out of my mind over the next months, that boy. And wondering what part of the grooming process is he is he being shown Polaroid pictures as he Having beers in his truck. Is he at the wrestling stage is he? Teaching his buddy how to shoot right in the woods by lying there with blood on fake blood on him and doing the death rattle

in his bed, you know, I it haunted me. I couldn't even work any longer. Like I was in business with my brother, we had Tire Automotive Center,

and I walked out one day and I just couldn't go to work anymore. I was having to drink before work just to just to go into work, you know, instead of filling my coffee mug with coffee. I was so out of sorts. I'm filling it with alcohol and I'm doing other drugs. So I walked out of the business with my brother and now I've got free time on my hand, which is never

good when you have trauma. And I've got Dennis Peg on my hand, which is never good when you have trauma. And I've got Dennis Pegg in the forefront of my mind. I've got that little boy in the forefront of my mind. And I had zero coping skills throughout my whole life. You know, like mindfulness, like all these foreign terms I never incorporated. I just dove headfirst into drugs and alcohol, like literally around the clock. Just one drug on its own wasn't enough. So I'm just taking

any drug I can get to try to numb myself, to try to block the thoughts from... You start unraveling after quick check

but then there's a guy that you see smirking. Who is this guy? You see him

smirking on TV. What happens? Yeah I was in bad shape you know I wasn't sleeping much because of all the... ain't I'm doing? And I put on my TV and it's Jerry Sandusky the start of his molestation trial. Jerry Sandusky was one of the coaches at Penn State University. And he was running a football camp for young boys and over the course of years, decade plus molesting boys at his football camp.

He was finally facing trial for that. And his trial was starting on June 12th of 2012. And I saw him on the news, get out of his lawyer's car and smirking and buttoning his coat jacket and I just started yelling curses at my TV and spitting on my bedroom floor because I saw Dennis Pegg as him. I felt Dennis Peg was never going to face justice.

It's like a similar smirk that they have? Is it a smirk?

Yeah, you know, they can never let their guard down. They'll never apologize to you. Victims always reach out to me and say, I want to go confront my abuser. I'm just like, don't. You're going to get re-abused because they'll never give you the answer you want to hear.

It's not worth your time. And so they keep that air about them. Dennis Pegg in that deli calls out to me, like, we're best friends. I'm a victim of his. Like, what are you doing?

And Sandusky's getting out smirking as he's trial starting. And that just infuriated me. I spent the rest of the day out with a couple friends drinking and me sneaking drugs, you know. I got to go out and make a phone call, you know, in my truck, I'll be right back. So, and I'd go out and do coke and pop a Xanax. I had someone, I stopped at an Italian restaurant

on the way home that night. I was meeting a buddy at my house who I had lent money to, and he was gonna power wash the cedar siding of my house and stain it as repayment. So I was meeting him at home but I stopped at this Italian restaurant and there was a guy in there who burned me on a business deal, a motorcycle deal.

I took out a $33,000 loan to have him build me this custom motorcycle. And he took the money, my money and a couple other people's money and closed up shop in the middle of the night, then left town. And all of a sudden here he was in this Italian restaurant. So I went up to him and had words with him. And he was with his family.

So I said, out of respect for your family, I'm not gonna take this any further, but you know, you gotta pay me, you know, and he just told me to get lost, you know? So I get home and I tell my buddy about seeing that guy and you know,

we unloaded the equipment first and we're having a glass of wine at the kitchen table and my my buddy goes to me that guy's got to be number one on your hit list and it's been 33 years since i was you know and i've never told anyone and for whatever reason I couldn't stop the words coming out of my mouth. I Just said actually he's number two on my hit list The piece of garbage who made as a young boy is number one and there it's out for the first time The air was like heavy like time stopped

the clock stopped on the wall and we're just Like you and I are sitting across from each other on a table and we're just like you and I are sitting across from each other on a table and we're just staring at each other and he's like are you for real? Are you messing with me? So this is the first time in 30 years that you tell anyone? Yeah, yeah to be exact 33 years. Yeah. You

tell Bob it just happens you don't even decide it's not like.

Yeah it was it just came out before I could even like stop my mouth from speaking you know I was just so tired and exhausted and beaten down from drugs and seeing that other guy inflamed me at the Italian restaurant and just it just came flying out. Who is the first to talk you or Bob? Bob's as I recall is the first to say like are you for real? You know and I'm like yeah I'm for real and then he's like who is he? I'm like he was my Boy Scout leader. And like, where did it happen? When did it happen?

You know, so I'm just saying, you know, and he's like, where does he live? And I'm like, you know, he lives like two miles from here. And I think at that point, I said to him, you know what, it's time to go confront this guy. Think at that point I said to him, you know what it's time to go confront this guy, you know Ever since seeing him with that boy in that quick check I've just been haunted and I'm like it's time to go confront him now Dennis Dennis peg. He had

retired From the sheriff's department, but he was still the firearms instructor. Everybody in law enforcement has to get recertified with their handgun every year. And he was the firearms instructor for two counties, Sussex and Morris.

So every cop, every Sheriff's officer had to go to him to get recertified. So the guy was a complete gun nut. And I told Bob that and I said we ought to take something with us. I gave Bob a steak knife and I went under my bed to where I kept that Boy Scout hunting knife he taught me how to

sharpen and I grabbed that. Now Stephanie basically this was a suicide mission. You know, a steak knife, a hunting knife against a guy who had 33 guns in his house. Shotguns, rifles, and over a dozen handguns. If you were doing what he was doing for 45 years, you would think he would have a gun at the ready under every table, on every armrest,

on every couch cushion. You would think like, my time, you know, I'm rolling the dice here 45 years in, I better be ready. So it should have been a suicide mission when I went there.

What did Bob say to you? Make that suggestion?

I just handed him the knife and I said, I'm going to go get my hunting knife. And that was pretty much it. It wasn't, you know, it wasn't like a long drawn out thing where we're crossing our T's and dotting our I's and this is how this is going to happen and that's how that's going to happen. It was just like, I'm like, let me just go confront this piece of garbage, you know,

and we'll take these with us.

And it's a six inch hunting knife, right?

Yeah.

Was that the biggest knife you had or was it more so poetic justice because he was teaching you to sharpen that specific knife or you had like no thoughts,

you're like, let me just grab a knife. I would think it's a subconscious poetic justice, you know, like take this with you, you know.

So you have no plan, just a knife. You guys drive to Dennis's house. At what point are you like, maybe this is not a good plan?

No just like I said he had a long driveway yeah it had a 90-degree turn in it Bob pulled up there and at the 90-degree turn stopped went up the driveway his front door was open and there he is sitting like he had a storm door it's a summer night. So storm doors shut. I Mentioned earlier, you know like the definition of a devil. Well to me it looked like the devil sitting in his lair That's all I saw but seeing him. This is the first time I'm back at that house in

33 years since what happened with me and the dog. I never went back to that house and I instantly started going to that panic attack again. Just breathing got real hard and I feel like rigamortis in my muscles. And before I completely froze, I walked up to his door, that storm door,

and ripped it open, broke the hinge. And I'm standing in his doorway. It's 9.30, quarter to 10 at night. And there's somebody you ripped in your doorway who just ripped open your door. And he casually looks over his shoulder at me and goes, Hey, how are you?

And it just seemed like the most incredulous thing to say in that moment. But again, they can never let their guard down. Like a normal person would like get on their hands and knees and start praying like, Oh my God, I wronged you. I'm so sorry. I know why you're here. Please forgive me. I'm sick. I need help. Come in. Let's talk. No, no.

Do you think if he did that anything would be different?

If someone's down on their hands and knees praying to you, praying at you, begging for forgiveness, I would think so. Yeah. So he just says, hey. How are you?

What happens next?

We all have two faces. The face we show the world and the face behind closed doors. I've been showing the world that one face and no one for 33 years has seen the face behind closed doors. Dennis is now gonna see my other face. The face filled with rage. The face filled with hate. The face filled with anger. And I said, hey how am I let me show you how the hell I am and I raced across his room he stood up in a violent struggle started I started slashing at

him with the knife he started punching me a, bloody brawl ensued. At one point, he connected with a, you know, he's still this monster-pulking guy, and he connects with a square shot to my jaw. And as I'm falling down, I grab his shirt to keep from falling down,

and I bring the knife down, and that's when I'm holding his shirt to keep from falling down and I bring the knife down and that's when I'm holding his shirt and that's where it goes straight through and straight out and in into his skin just a little. We continue going at it and I mean we're talking minutes here. It's not like a long, drawn out thing. Maybe three, four minutes, two minutes, three minutes.

It was quick. And he slips in the blood and he falls down. It's a mix of our blood. You know, like I'm gushing blood now. And he's up against the wall. I leaned down in front of him, I got eye to eye with him.

And I said, it's not so fun raising little boys now, is it Dennis? And I slit his throat. And Bob was standing in the doorway, wide-eyed. And I said, go get the van and bring it up.

Because I had one more thing I wanted to do. I walked over to the bedroom, he ripped me in, and I spit on the bed. The answer to everyone's question is did this solve everything? No, it didn't solve everything.

You don't heal from trauma by adding more trauma. You don't heal from sexual abuse by murdering someone. It's not how you heal. I stopped the predator from ever harming another young boy. 45 years was long enough of raping young boys. It should never have came to that. It would be uncovered that multiple boys over the years

had come forward and filed lawsuits against him, and he got out from every one of them. But I did what I did, and I knew walking out of his house that night that my life was over. You can't have the wound I have

and just show up at a hospital and be like, I was cutting a steak and drove a six inch hunting knife through my hand and severed all ligaments and tendons, I need help.

Did you think about doing that though?

I just, I knew it wasn't an option. Like, you know, like I just knew things were never gonna be the same again.

So at no point during this altercation, and I know minutes are brief, but at no point he doesn't apologize.

No, there was just, the only words he said was, hey, how are ya? And throughout the whole attack, he made like a high-pitched squeal. He never uttered a word like stop, let's talk, don't do this, nothing.

There was no words, just a high pitched squeal. Like a wounded animal almost. Not one other word other than that initial thing when I was standing in his doorway.

Did you feel like you were in control of your movements at that time? Or did you feel like you're watching from the outside in? Or you're just like on autopilot? What is that?

Yeah, I definitely wasn't in control of my movements or anything. It was like something had taken over my body. And would I be honest if I said I had an out-of-body experience during that? No, I wouldn't be honest. But it was like that. It was like looking at this real going on and just like, that's how I look. When I look back at it, I can't believe what happened. I can't believe that I got to that point of brokenness to go do that and potentially flush my whole life away just from never healing from trauma.

It's keeping the secret and not addressing it and not trying to grow from it or heal from it or learn from it or do anything other than let it just poison my system for decades. And that's what it did. And that's the part that I look back on now. And I just like, man, I probably would have died of a drug overdose. And everybody would have been like, Oh, my God, Clark.

Clark had a great education, and he was so popular. And what did he go die of a drug overdose from from I mean, that's where my life was headed

Are you saying that even when you killed Dennis you didn't even feel a moment of?

relief

Now there was there was no relief Because of the wound I had because of how gory and horrific killing someone was. Again, I don't view Dennis as having humanity, but you're still it hurts your soul to kill somebody. It's not it's not therapeutic in any way. It's not it damages your soul, it hurts. And I had to be completely broken to go do that.

Do you have nightmares about it?

No. You never think about it? No, I don't give him—again, if I killed an innocent innocent person that would haunt me. If I killed a human that would haunt me. I don't view Dennis as an innocent person or a human. Why did you walk to the bedroom? That was to go spit on the bed he reaped me in.

At what point were you like, I'm gonna to spit on this bed? Was it just like…

I don't know what came over me. Again, it's not like Bob and I sat at the kitchen table, like across from each other like you and I are, and I said, yeah, after I do this, this, this, and this, then in my bloody footprints, I'm going to walk to the bed he reaped me on and spit on the bed. I don't know what possessed me to go do that. It's something to just bring things full circle and to a closure, I needed to do that.

Did it bring closure?

I thought it brought complete closure to my life and his. There was two deaths that day. The life I had been living up to that point I could never go back to living the way I was and I literally thought I Forfeit the rest of my life. I'll either kill myself or spend the rest of my life in prison I forfeited any healthy happy life to just put an end to his reign of terror

That's what I thought. It's interesting because like when I'm reading your memoir and going through that moment because I mean the way that it's written I feel like I'm there. I'm obviously not experiencing like the depth of emotions but it feels very I'm there with you. It almost feels therapeutic when you spin on his bed. And it's like kind of interesting because I know you don't advocate for people to do

and follow in those steps, but it just, I guess it was relief for the reader.

There's some sort of poetic justice in doing that.

Yeah.

Yeah. I think if everybody, and it's a lot of everybody's, if they could spit on the bed they were wrapped in, they would want to do it.

You have a hole in your hand, you drive home, and you say you need to tell your mom. What is the thinking in your head? You're telling your mom because you don't know what's going to happen next?

Yeah, my mom had just come up from Florida. Welcome home, mom. And I called my best friend at the time and the girl I was dating and asked them to come over because I just, my life's over, Steph. Am I gonna kill myself after this?

Or am I gonna spend life in prison? It's one of those two things. So let me say goodbye to my buddy. Let me say goodbye to my girlfriend. And let me get my mother up and say goodbye to her. Because this isn't gonna turn out good.

And your mom is, she's 80.

How old was she at the time?

Yeah, like 81 maybe.

And so your plan is I'm gonna wake my mom up, tell her goodbye. But your mom's plan is I'm gonna clean up the blood and we're going to run. We're going to get away with murder together.

Mom's like, we're getting away with murder. She was, uh, man, I guess it's good to laugh about it now, right?

So she wakes up and you tell her what happened. You still don't tell her.

The thing is, I couldn't even tell her then that I was by Dennis. I still couldn't, I couldn't bring it out. And she was like dumbfounded. Why, why would you go do this? Why?

And I said, to avenge a lot of other kids in this town. And she goes, why you why are you? The Avenger why I don't get it. Why? And I couldn't tell her like for what we don't know you for me to mom I just I still couldn't say it even though I told it to my buddy earlier she

Helped me upstairs. I wrapped my hand in duct tape which fixes everything. I wrapped it with paper towel and duct tape and went to took a couple Xanax and went to bed. My mother went downstairs and started scrubbing the floors all night long to get the blood up.

And so she's like, we're going on the run, but you wake up and the cops are surrounding.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, she told my sister that she was gonna take me and we were gonna go on the run.

I know, it says in the book, you guys are thinking the end of the world,

which is Florida.

Right.

You guys are gonna go to Florida. No, I like the plan.

I think your mom is really adorable. I mean, there is, I was just so fascinated by your mother because, you know, she's cleaning up the blood, she's ready to go Bonnie and Clyde with you. And then the cops come the next morning, they've got on the loudspeakers. They're saying, Clark, come out. And she's like, no, the neighbors are gonna hear.

Your mom is so fascinating.

She said to one of the troopers as I was still in my bedroom, what are the neighbors gonna think? He's like, ma'am, I really don't give a damn are the neighbors gonna think?" And he's like, ma'am, I really don't give a damn what the neighbors think.

Oh my gosh.

Okay, so you see the cops outside.

So they took her out. Like they took her out of the house.

And they're like, you look out the window and they're just like trying to be sneaky, trying to.

Yeah, they're, like I said, they're behind, they're hiding behind trees. You know, they don't know what's inside, what I have, if I'm loaded up with an AR-15 or what my mental state is, you know, they've got a dead body. So, every one of them has their gun drawn.

Everyone's taking, you know, some sort of protection. There's this big rock to the left of the yard and there's trees and there's the shed out back and they're just all behind everything. And then they're behind their cars lining the street. And I just couldn't believe it. I was lying in bed like, how are we gonna get out of this?

Like, how are we gonna get out of this? And like, there's gotta be a way out of this. And before I could even possibly think of any way out of this, the cops are there. And I'm just, and your stomach just drops. And you're just like, it's over, bro.

It's over. And all I could think, you know, they ordered me out of the house over a bullhorn. And as I walked to that front door, I just called out to God, let one of these guys kill me when I step out. Like, it's over. it's over, God. Like, I don't wanna do life in prison.

Just take me now and let him shoot me when I walk out. And I stepped out that front door with my state police shirt on that I put on and I put my arms out to the side and I just sort of tilted my head back and I just waited for the crack of a gun

and it never came. And instead I was ordered off my porch, down to the front lawn, just a bread eagle, handcuffed and taken away.

Were you disappointed when you didn't hear a shot go off?

Yeah. Yeah. Because in that ride to the police barracks was like the longest ride of my life and I'm just like, man one of these guys couldn't kill me, put me out of my misery. Like, I'll have to find a way in prison to do it. I'll have to find a way in prison to do it. I'll have to take care of this myself.

You killed a cop. You're arrested by a bunch of cops. You're about to go to the jail that that cop worked at. Things are not looking good. Oh boy. Understatement of the year. But there are some cops, some detectives who seem to... they give you some sage advice in that weird moment. What happens there? Like what was the energy? Like are all the

arresting officers... do you feel like hatred dripping off of them because you killed a cop? Or do they, do you not even notice what their energy is? What is that dynamic?

Well, I'm thinking like I'm public enemy number one amongst law enforcement. I just killed one of their own. And yet at the state police barracks, this Lieutenant Howie Ryan comes in and goes, I have to apologize to you.

And I'm like, what are you apologizing to me for? And he's like, I've heard rumors about Dennis Pegg for a long time, and he goes, I want to apologize to you for never stopping him. He goes, I can't arrest somebody on rumors. I need victims, I need cold hard facts,

and I had neither of those, and I apologize to you. And then he left the room. And at first, Steph, I felt, wow, that's pretty cool. And then I'm like, just started fuming. I'm like, even the state police knew. Everybody knew about Dennis Peck and young boys.

Everybody's got a story. The state police knew. Everybody knew about Dennis Peck and young boys. Everybody's got a story. The state police just admitted they knew and yet I'm the one who just had to flush his life away and look at life in prison to stop him. And they knew. So I went from feeling good for a second, getting really pissed off for another second, and I'm like, what's the matter anyway?

I'm done. I'm done. When that cop, Howie Ryan, came back in the room, he could see that I had mailed it in. He said, I could tell you were done. And he goes, something moved in me that even though you thought you were done, I didn't think you were done. And he said, look, I've got your DNA all over that crime scene. He

was in charge of the CSI team that worked Peg's house. He's like, your blood's everywhere. He goes, this isn't a whodunit. He goes, but that doesn't necessarily mean your life's house. He's like, your blood's everywhere. He goes, this isn't a whodunit. He goes, but that doesn't necessarily mean your life's over. My detectives and detectives from the prosecutor's office are in another room waiting to interrogate you. He goes, if you go in that room and open up your mouth,

you could potentially destroy the rest of your life. He goes, I'm telling you right now, go in there, exercise your fifth amendment right, request a lawyer and stay shh, keep your mouth shut, stay quiet. And I said to him, but I don't have a lawyer.

And he goes, I'm gonna take care of that for you. He goes, I'm gonna get you a lawyer. And he goes, I'm going to take care of that for you. He goes, I'm going to get you a lawyer. And he left the room and on his cell phone he called one of the big lawyers in our county and said, I need you to send over fax over to the state police barracks a retainer for somebody like immediately. And the lawyer said, who is he and what did he do? And he goes, Clark Frederick's murder. And he goes, okay then.

And had a thing over in a couple minutes.

So he tells you not to talk. Do you listen to him?

I do.

Right when you get arrested, it seems like the whole town is divided. A lot of people feel like you did this for very nefarious reasons. Other people start hearing what Dennis has been doing around town. Do you feel like at any point where they're just dividing opinions, did it feel like everybody had their own thought about what the reason, the motive was?

Yeah, there was some vocal people on his side who were pro-Dennis, who just referred to me as a drunk drug addict who just killed a great man. Yeah, I just woke up one day and said, Dennis Pegg, I'm gonna go kill you for no reason. Before it really started coming out about what happened,

because yeah, the little old ladies on the historical society that worked with him were like, he was such a sweet man. The mayor in store at the time was like, oh, he was a giant of a human being. And then people like Howie Ryan are like,

no, I knew all about rumors about this guy.

Your audience is going to have to get the book because there's a line from Howie Ryan in the book to the prosecutor. It's one of the greatest lines you will ever hear. I don't wanna give it away. It's such a, it's the most powerful line you will ever read. Said by him.

We will put the page number so you guys can go get it.

Yeah.

And I will tell you what page,

because I know exactly.

You know exactly what I'm talking about?

I know exactly what line you're talking about. That was a powerful line, right? No, that was...

Unbelievable line.

Yeah.

Yeah.

At that point, once you've been arrested, you're facing first-degree murder charge, initially. So you're facing life in prison.

Life in prison.

And you have an attorney, and they're saying,

have a little hope, but not too much help. Yeah, you know, I, and it's funny that the lawyer, Howie Ryan at the barracks called George Daggett, who sent the retainer over. I never even interviewed him at the jail as one of my lawyers, and I don't know why, but I interviewed a bunch of other lawyers,

and you know, one lawyer just wanted to get me bailed out. We'll get you bailed out of here in three days. And I'm like, all right. And then this other lawyer came in all flashy with his gold jewelry, Rolex watch, and he's listing all these cases he's worked. And I knew the cases and he lost them all. But in my head, I'm like, but you lost all those.

You know, like so I'm like. And then this guy Dan Perez came in. He was, he just looked like a really good guy. You know, like really down to earth. And he came in and he said, I think we can have a valid defense for this.

I was like, really? He goes, yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, he goes, you know, it's not gonna be easy, but I don't think your life is over. I was like, really? I'm like, you're hired.

What was that?

I get it.

During that time, Dennis had a security deposit box that the police go through.

Yeah.

And they find a bunch of letters.

Right.

That he wrote 10 years before he died.

Correct, and when he was in his young to mid 50s, healthy.

They all have some variation of pray for me, I hope I didn't disappoint you, forgive me for any failings. Do you think some of these letters are to victims?

Yeah, yeah.

And like, they're creepy. There's something really creepy about them. Like, and the prosecutor told me after the fact that he thinks, there was 14 of them in there, that 13 were probably victims. Would you ever think, like right now,

to like write letters to people in case you die? He was 50 something years old. Like, what would make you do that?

And he does keep writing, interestingly, like if I go to heaven Pray for me, but if you're already dead, I don't know What exactly he's asking for in prayer. Yeah, is it to get to heaven? It's weird. Yeah

I've read those and it just like left me feeling yucky. Like, cause and then if you assume that they're to victims, like I tried my best. I thought we were family. Forgive me for shortcomings. What are your shortcomings?

How many victims do you think that he had?

My buddy's wife is the sheriff's secretary, and she sat in on every meeting with the sheriff in the early days, and they estimate well over a hundred.

One of the other victims is very close to you. Family relation. who was that?

My brother.

What happened to your brother?

My arrest opened up my brother's Pandora's box. You know, like seeing that boy in that deli opened my box up, my that deli open my box up my arrest opened my brother's box up and my brother wasn't ready to face it he wasn't ready to handle it didn't want to deal with it you know like like I told myself at 12 we're just gonna bury this and go about our life well that's what my brother had done his whole life. And everyone urged him to get help, to see a therapist.

And my brother did what I did, was to numb himself. And I found him dead on our kitchen floor a couple of years ago from drinking himself to death.

This is going to be a two-part interview. This is part one. In part two, we're going to ask Clark about how and why the FBI came to him to warn him that someone put a hit out on his life. He has, I mean, there's his his entire journey or I guess more so fight in prison, trying to get through it while he's surrounded by criminals who are accused

of doing the very thing that Dennis Pegg did, which is harm children. There are letters that Dennis Pegg left his presumed victims in his safety deposit box and how someone very close to Clark is killed by Dennis Pegg clark gets out of prison? like how does that even happen? we are going to go through all of that in part 2. also, how the hell does clark get out of prison when he's facing a first degree murder charge and life in prison?

that will all be asked in part 2, but in the meantime, if you feel like you can't wait for those answers, which same,. You can get Clark's memoir. It's probably the most intense memoir that I've ever read and I've read copious amounts of memoirs before. There are just so many aspects of his story that aren't included in our episodes that you can find in-depth in his book. I think I finished the whole book the first time around in like 4 hours.

It was one of my quickest reads. There's something about it where, I don't know how Clark does this, but every time you catch yourself feeling like, okay, there's a black hole that we've now went into, there's no way out of it. You get out and then there's just like another black hole. And it is like the most intense emotional journey that I have ever been on.

You can also find Clark on his social media accounts and his own podcast, which I will link below. But with that being said, that is part one of the two-part series of the story of Clark Fedricks. Fedricks. And I will see you in part two.