LIFE UPDATE | 35 WEEKS PREGNANT, TOMMYS BIRTHDAY, PACKING MY HOSPITAL BAG, HOUSE RENO'S | MOLLYMAE

Oh good start Remember me It's never good when I have to start off like that.No, it's literally not even been long but in my head I've created this weird mental block and that's why I've whipped my camera out now because I'm like no We're not doing this.We're not having a weird mental block for YouTube before we've even had the baby, but quite frankly That's because I am.I'm a woman on the edge.It feels really good just to actually switch my camera back on to be honest because I thought is there actually going to ever be a...I've had thoughts the last week where I was like, what if I just never made a vlog again?

What if my brain couldn't flip back into action to the point where I just never came back?Not going to happen but you'll have to just bear with me.I've been saying that a lot.Basically I've been saying that since the minute I told you guys I was pregnant.I've got about five minutes left of daylight.My whole chest is out.

I've got a Chinese here.Not really sure what happened here because that was very spur of the moment.I was in the bath and I just said to Tommy, I was like, if I order a Chinese, will you go pick it up for me?My thought process was, I've got literally a couple of weeks left of eating whatever the hell I want.I kind of do eat whatever the hell I want, even when I'm not pregnant, but I've got a couple more weeks left of taking the PI double S basically.Do you know what though?

I haven't really been taking the mick with my food because when you get this pregnant, you don't have the room in your stomach to really like, yeah, you just, you get full so quickly.But anyway, guys, I am here.I'm in the land of the living, I think.I thought I knew what baby brain was.Apparently I didn't.And I'm talking quietly because Bambi's literally just across the way.

I should shut that door, but I can't be bothered to get back up.But yeah, I thought I knew what baby brain was.Turns out, I didn't.until now.I have like constant brain fog every day.I, this sounds really like, it sounds like I'm exaggerating, but at the minute, my main focus is just like getting through each day.

Because Tommy's in training camp, so he's training a lot.I am like, Bambi's a lot.She's a three and a half year old, like it's, you know I'm still working and doing bits and bobs and it's just And my focus at the minute has been making it true tonight with a little bit of luck we might make it true tonight and Yeah, even right now.I'm just speaking hollowed load of gobbledygook, and that's how I feel I feel like lots of things come out of my mouth, but nothing really makes much sense And nothing really has much context to it have a bit of a funny story for you guys actually I had a bit of a realization as to why this might be the case so I'm joining you as of right now.I'm a 36 or 35 weeks pregnant.I'm resting on my phone.

I think I think I'm 35 weeks pregnant today, I think.But basically, a couple of weeks ago, I was in a TK Maxx, because apparently that's mine and Tommy's new favourite place, and we were with his dad actually, we were just having a browse round, they wanted to go clothes shopping.And basically...Had a really, really funny turn.Like, this was the first time in my whole pregnancy I've had any, like, weird, funny turn.Felt really faint.

I felt really dizzy.I had to go and sit down in the shoe section amongst all the Lelly Kellys and Crocs.And I was like, I feel like I'm in a fever dream.It was very, very weird.Anyway, got back home, laid down in bed.Couldn't catch my breath.

I was so disorientated.Felt like the room was spinning.So I messaged my midwife like, Holla!Holla!What's going on?Like, I'm not this girly.

Like, you know me. I'm low maintenance.I'm a low, I'm a low... keep it down low maintenance girly when it comes to my pregnancy which i do pride myself in and she was like oh that's interesting like what was the results of your blood test that you had done a few weeks ago and i know if you knowabout two to three months ago i had that blood test i was like sorry like i'm type b when it comes to this kind of stuff like i'm sure if there was anything to do with the blood test like that i needed to look at the results they would have told me that i needed to look at them basically and she was like no not necessarily so she was like log on to this app thing and look at your results anyway so logged on to this app thing i'm really making a really long story long here um long story is sure i logged on and it said basically that I'm anemic and I have been anemic the whole time.My blood test results, it was like your iron is really really low and you need to come and pick up a prescription.Now that was, I was told that about three months ago.Did I log on to this app to check that?

Of course I didn't because that just sums me up to be honest.I thought if there was something I needed to be alerted about I would have been alerted and I wasn't.So yeah, The iron supplements were never picked up.I was in TK Maxx feeling like I was about to faint because my iron stores, I mean, what iron stores?I don't have any, apparently.So I'm actually pretty proud of myself that I have been surviving on what can only really be described as vibes at this point, like literally just thriving and surviving out here on, yeah, no iron, and if anything, that's an achievement.

I think I just spat on my chin.So that would also give a bit of context as to why I've just been feeling very blurred, very like foggy, very like I'm just trying to make it through each day.And some days, I'd say like at this stage of my pregnancy, like I've got a couple weeks left, I have good days and I have bad days.And do you know what's odd as well is that my good days, it's not odd, this is like science, my good days tend to be the ones where I get up and I get out.Like I have not stopped all day and I have found like energy from within.It's Tommy's birthday tomorrow.

Verbal diarrhea and Tommy's birthday tomorrow.So I went to travel center today and Drop by me off at nursery this morning.I had a million things to do went to travel center I just I and I got out and I got done basically and I felt so much bettertoday because of that productivity, and the days where I stay at home or give myself a day to rest, I feel like arse, like I literally feel terrible.So anyway, that's my two pence on life.I hope you're all doing really well, and I hope you can keep up with me over the next couple of weeks.

I really don't want to let you guys down in the like, not bringing you along in the last few bits of pregnancy, because honestly, like, it genuinely could make me cry at how much I've had a good pregnancy, and just like, just this has been a really gorgeous era of life, and I've been feeling really a lot of gratitude, like a serious amount of gratitude.And also just, yeah, just feeling really, like I couldn't have had a better pregnancy, touch wood, it finishes that way as well.But yeah, I just feel like, wow, thank you body for carrying this baby for me so well, when I don't even treat my body that well, like I'm not the best with exercise, I'm not the best with my eating, so I feel like I didn't really deserve this.And I just, yeah, I don't know, I just feel like so happy and blessed.You're resting on my phone and it's ringing.One second.

Oh, it's Tommy.

Hello.Escuela.

City Escuela.Babe, I'm vlogging and I was just saying it's your birthday.Happy birthday.Happy camp birthday to you.Why are you so weird?What were you going to say?

You were laughing at something and then cut you off.What's he saying now?It's not funny, basically Tommy's dad got bit by their own family dog.

Basically, the dog's legs are sore.My dad tried to see what the problem was, and he went...

Yeah, John touched the one part of the dog that everyone knows to not touch, and the dog went...And basically, it severed his hand off.That's a complete exaggeration, but it was pretty bad.No, it's pretty bad.No, it is pretty bad.He had to have a tetanus jab and everything.

Anyway, so, yeah.All right.Love you.right honestly everyday new drama i've literally been waffling for nine minutes um what else forgot to tell you guys oh yeah there was a few more things um i've also not been feeling like switching my camera on because so boring and like so over like hearing myself talk about it but obviously take a shot every time I mention the word builders in the next in this vlog because like it's all it's become my identity like these builders they're not here right now because it's literally racing in the middle of the night but these builders have become part of my identity and it's really like pick your builders wisely because if you're having a lot done to your house you're gonna be spending basically a lot of time with these people in your house um luckily I'm using the company that did things on the first house they did my whole office and now they're here at the new house and it's just I will actually show you what things, not right now, but in this vlog, I will show you what's going on.I'm not gonna lie, guys, I think you're gonna think I'm exaggerating right now, but it's actually mental out there.Like, it's crazy.

The only space of tranquility and peace is in this room and in the room that Bambi's sleeping in, which is my dressing room.Yes, my dressing room has now become Bambi's bedroom because there's legit no other, there's like literally no other room for her because all of the other rooms have been renovated.So she's on a, bless her heart, she's on a mattress on my dressing room floor, but she's absolutely loving it.She thinks it's like a literal camp out sleepover.She thinks it's unreal.I'm hoping it's only going to be for a few nights.

That's what she was thinking because her bedrooms, her new bedroom is nowhere near done.So it's like, you know, yeah, I can go in my dressing room and try and like, you know, vlog for you guys, but there's a literal bed.the back of it.I will, I will be vlogging, but I'm just waffling now.Anyway, I need to eat my Chinese because it's basically gone stone cold, but I'm really glad that we've had this catch up because I needed to like break the ice for myself and just go over this little vlogging blip that I've had.But all I will say is the next few weeks are just going to be funny and we'll just figure it out together, guys.

Because quite frankly, I've got absolutely no idea Nothing sorted and I'm not even exaggerating and the things that I do have sorted I might as well not have sorted because there's nowhere to put it into so say for example all the babies like vests outfits Things where do I put them because there's this I can't organize it into here because I could to be fair What if I just give myself a really good idea?I could do the like, you know, I could...I don't know.I'm just like basically, especially yesterday, I had a bit of a moment of like, I think I've been like pretending this hasn't been happening, this whole pregnancy, and now we've got a couple weeks and the baby's gonna be here, and I'm living in complete denial of that, and yeah, it's been hitting me anyway.Let's just, let's go through this together.I'll probably catch up with you guys tomorrow.

This is just going to be vlogging in increment sections.Whatever we get, we get.Whatever we don't get, we don't get.And I'm going to shut up now because I've literally had verbal diarrhea.I'm going to eat my Chinese.I'm going to watch my mum recommended to me.

Do I marry a murderer or something or?what marrying a murderer something like that um also watched apex absolutely loved that if you guys haven't watched that that was a bit bit scary a bit gory also got a few film um reviews to give you guys for things we've been to in the cinema recently right i'm over it now i'm sure you're over me too i'm going and i'll catch up with you guys in the next part of the vlog whatever that entails no wait wait wait wait wait hang on okay go

Birthday we're doing today.

We are just on our way to ballet pretty successful morning bar little upset But always around the same thing, which I'll talk to you guys about later.

Are they nice?

Yeah, and it's Tommy's birthday today So I've just had some balloons and a cake dropped off and but like I said, he's in training camp So there's not loads we can do and you can't even really have the well he can have the cake I guess because he's not actually cutting weight for this camp, but he just has to be super careful for what he's eating.But yeah, today is gonna be a good day.It's gonna be lovely.I just wish we were with him a little bit more, but he's training, he's got three training sessions today.Excited for ballet, Bam Bam?Yeah?

But yeah, nothing else to report.Got my coffee here, but I've got no lid for it, so this is probably gonna end in tears.Oh, it's got a bit much.

Not yet.Not yet.Right, can you open?Make it special.

And a hug.Because that's beautiful.She just wants a cake.You're going to have to have my size because Danny's a dead belly cat.Yeah, I know.

Sorry babe.No, I might have a cake.I could not still get you a cake, you know.

I'm going to tell her that's a cat.He's so cute, isn't he?

He's a beautiful beaver.

He's a beautiful geeler.

I get to wake up to you every day now.

Yeah, that's what I thought.

Oh, bam, bam, look.

Yeah, that was, I, she wanted, so you had to use an old Mother's Day one.

I'm a little monster.I'm a little monster, don't you?So you're a little hammering.Put your hand on it.

Oh babe, that's really funny, that.

That's exactly what I need.No, Connie.I'm gonna take your job.

Yeah We're taking your job now.

You got me a handheld hoop on the outside I reckon on the inside where you put your feet like yeah, that's cozy.That's cozy I love a good jacket.

I'm dealing with it Miss lady, how can I help you today?

I would like to your day been today Any special things going on has it been anyone's buddy?

Is it daddy's no Is he

Yeah.Oh, he's joking.

Mumma, I got a special hair bobble.You got a special...Look.Well, that's nice.Do you like it?

Yeah, I love it.

Do you know Potato City?

I do.

Do you?It's a theme park.Is it?

Look at your curly hair.Look at your curls.You've got the bestest curls ever.I love them so much.Nearly, nearly, nearly.One second, girl.

Let me finish that hair, girl.

Call me mom.Look at it.Look at it.It has t's in.Look at it.Hello.

Next part of the day.We are just going to the park.He went training, didn't he?Yeah, boxy box.We're just going to the park for a bit of fresh air.Then we're going to meet our friends at Pizza Express for some dinner for Bambi.

And then I actually have a chef appointment.coming round to cook Tommy, well he has basically a chef for camp anyway, and basically I'm just getting that person to cook a bit of a nicer dinner for him, like a fresh dinner.So yeah, that's what we're going to do now.Morning guys or good afternoon.It's one o 'clock.It's the next day So Tommy's birthday was yesterday and I thought I would just Kim house is literally once again crazy out there I know these builders have become my whole identity But one thing I will say is they really are smashing through out there like they're all Really really trying to get this done for when his baby arrives.

I dropped Bobby at nursery this morning after another Interesting morning, and I really would love your guys advice on this basically this thing.I keep alluding toissue that we're having is it's an interesting one so basically it's all to do with clothes also if my lips seem like they're moving a bit weird it's because they've gone completely numb because I've been chewing that much ice this morning.But basically, yeah, it's all to do with clothes.And getting Bambi changed in the morning, getting her into clothes is not an issue.Like, she will get changed and she will put the clothes on because Taylor, my best friend, she was posting on her story recently saying that her little girl, like, getting her changed is the hardest part of her day.

And she's found this new technique where she gets her changed before she takes it downstairs and it's really working for her.But my issue is, the getting changed part is not on her.The problem, Bambi will get changed, she puts her clothes on.The issue we're having is...what she wants to wear.

So, basically, and my mum was like, I wonder who she gets this from?But, she's just a diva princess queen when it comes to the outfit itself.So, say for example, we woke up this morning and it was a really horrible day outside, like it was kind of drizzling, really cloudy.She wants to wear a dress, she wants to wear shorts, and I'm like, I'd be like, you literally can't, like it's freezing outside, and then the tantrum.Unless, unless you present her with a frilly, Tutu covered in sparkles.She doesn't want to wear it.

She doesn't want to wear trousers She literally the thought of her wearing something that like covers her legs like it's almost like it repulses her like she can't fathom wearing anything that's like not bright pink not a tutu not a frilly skirt not a frilly dress and I know everyone's gonna come and be like let the girl wear a dress it's gonna be one day where she doesn't want to wear that and she wants to wear all the I know like let they say like let them wear the princess dress because one day they won't want to anymore and I couldn't agree more But when it comes to the fact that my daughter's probably going to catch hypothermia Because she won't put sensible clothes on that's when me is that's where I as a mother have to step in and say actually Ino um so and it's also the same with a coat like how are we getting our toddlers to wear their coats because like Say if, oh no actually to be fair even if I gave her a pink sparkly lemon covered marshmallow filled jacket I think she still wouldn't want to wear that.The jacket's a massive challenge.Like we went away for Zoe's 30th at the weekend and like it was raining all weekend and Bambi was literally like she didn't have a jacket on all weekend and then Dani has little brothers that are similar age to Bambi and they had like practical clothes on, jeans, socks, boots, coats.Like they were dressed appropriately yet.My child was wearing a toweling material romper that you'd put on a child for Getting out of the pool on a holiday and I know people are also gonna say I don't give us too many options like you pick options that you want so you hold up like a Few options that are all something that you want.

Oh, you can forget that like to let you look at me like good one I'm not wearing that and then the biggest tantrum happens and then I It's Hicken and Screamin' is where she gets to wear the shorts or the dress or the sparkly tutu or the pom -pom flower flurry flippity -floo -floo.Who knows?She's such a girly girl.It's untrue.And then my mom's like, honestly, you're wondering where, like why she's like this, but this is literally you, like you, your obsessive clothes, your obsessive shoes.That's like basically part of my job.

Um, which is true.So I can kind of see what, why, why this has happened, but it's just not ideal.But anyway, so I dealt with that battle.I managed to get her into something practical.I felt like I, I mean, what I did say though, it's basically I let her wear Crocs to nursery.So I did a bargaining.

I said, put the practical clothes on so the the trousers with a top that was warm a coat and then put socks and you can wear crocs on with your socks and then that that was that was the bargaining tool and a couple of haribo's were also thrown into the mix to be completely real with you but anyway i'm having a good day at home today but i'm trying to like keep going and not stop because like i've said to you guys beforewhen I stop and when I sit down and don't do anything and rest I end up feeling worse um although we've got like a crazy toddler weekend ahead so I also want to rest a little bit prepare for that but I've had these eye patches on all morning um I've seen everyone raving about these on Instagram from Cosmetic Consult and I've had those on literally for say about two hours now um oh yeah I mean the skin feels Skin feels taut, it feels plump, feels good.So I've done a couple things today.I've started sorting out my hospital bag, which is a big deal because I'm 35 and a half weeks pregnant.So, and they say at 34 weeks, your hospital bag should really be packed just in case.So I'm a little bit late to the game, but honestly, I feel like packing, starting to pack my hospital bag, I'm having like this realization that I'm actually having a baby and it's making me feel quite, Uneasy and I genuinely genuinely have honestly it sounds like I don't if I mentioned this at the start of the vlog But the way I've been telling you that this hasn't been happening I can't even put it into words like I've genuinely been acting as though like a baby is not coming and like life isn't gonna change and then when you're holding up these tiny newborn baby grows you're like like I don't know how to take care of a newborn like what I don't know how to I don't know how to take care of a baby I've done that before have I I think as well because that stage of my life was so It was quite traumatic.

I know it sounds dramatic to say it.I think I've blocked a lot of it out.And I don't know, I've been feeling a little bit anxious the last few days, because I think I'm having that realisation of like, I'm about to have that period of life again.I'm about to go through the same period of life that I always look back on and think, whoa, that was an era that I'm very happy to like forget about of my life.And I'm veryto like re -enter it and that is deeply terrifying.

I think that's why I've been like really putting off really coming to terms with the fact that I'm having a baby.I don't know, I guess, do I need therapy?Do I need to see a therapist?Like should I be booking some therapy sessions in ASAP because I am really anxious.I feel like I've been feeling really anxious.So anyway, um, a baby's coming in a couple of weeks, so I really need to sort my hospital bag out.

I just basically need to get on top of my shit today a little bit, but I thought I would just show you a couple bits what I've started packing for me.Also because everything for baby is quite gender obvious.And obviously like we've kind of kept it to ourselves up until now.Basically giving birth so we might as well keep it until the end now.It's been really nice.It happened so Accidentally we were never we've actually got like a full -blown gender reveal video We we did like a balloon with Bambi we popped it and we've got a video and I was planning to post it but we just never did and then I don't know seeing everyone guess it's just kind of been funny and And now we're at a point where I'm about to give birth, so we might as well keep it a secret.

But, yeah, I probably won't show you too much of the baby stuff just because it is.We'll literally tell you what we're having.Not that it really matters, it's really not that deep.Also, my bump today, guys, is so close.Like, I feel as though the last two days, I've really, really just gone, I've really, you know when you just, the last couple of weeks, you kind of, balloon's not the greatest word, but like you just, I don't know.Everything is kind of, I feel like this time round I've really enjoyed my bump.

Like I've really enjoyed my body to be honest.Like I haven't, I don't know.I've had a much better relationship with my body this pregnancy than I did my first pregnancy, which is a shame.I haven't really documented it because I haven't really been posting much on Instagram or taking photos I just I don't know I've just been really in life anyway and I do feel as though my bump has I don't know if we've dropped at all but we've gotten big and although I do feel like I'm a lot smaller this time than I was at Bambi what do you guys think do you guys remember what I look like with Bambi?I can't really remember but I Just noticed a massive difference the last couple of days in like getting out of bed four times a night for a week Oh my gosh, they're getting out of bed.It's like I have to really like Really gain some momentum to get myself out of bed And then I'm getting into bed every night with like really bad like sore back ache like trapped nerves Do you know there's so many things this time around though guys?

I haven't experienced that experience first time around with Bambi like I was having nosebleeds loads with Bambi.I had loads of problems with my teeth, my gums with Bambi.I haven't had any of that.I had really bad lightning crotch with Bambi.I haven't had lightning crotch yet.I don't even know what lightning crotch even feels like, but I just know that I had it with Bambi.

I'm sure around this time by now, like I'm nearly 36 weeks.I'm nearly full term.And I'm not having any of the same things that I have with Bambi.So does that mean that like the baby's really cozy in there and birth's not imminent?Or does that just mean that I'm having a different experience?I don't know, but there's just so many I don't know, there were so many things that were happening last time, that were happening last time, and I've just not experienced this time, so I don't really know, but anyway.

I've been waffling for 11 minutes!This vlog is just gonna be really long talking segments.I do apologise, but I'm just really glad I'm gonna be getting a vlog out at all, to be honest, because that is an achievement for me right now.Tell you what, there is something very, very great about second time round, packing a hospital bag, because you know exactly what you did and didn't use the first time round.That is, like, lovely.Because little things like, I packed Literally no vests for Bambi, like my sister was out in the shops trying to find vests for me.

And I just, yeah, there was so many things where I thought I'd packed enough and hadn't, or I overpacked, so this time I'm like, nope, I know how much I need of that.There was one thing that went immediately, immediately on the packing list, and I was Swore by these last time.They're basically disposable underwear, so it's Because I was in that much of a mess down that way TMI But I was that much of a mess the knickers were not going to stay to be Reworn ever again those those knickers needed to die a sudden death and never make it like never come back So I've got This time the freedom mom are just all the disposable boy shorts.These are amazing.They're not that cheap But they are so comfy.You can put all of your pads your sprays your um, oh my god the cold pad You know the ones that you snap i've got so many of those because they were a lifesaver last time.

So these are those Freedom on pads.It's basically like an ice pack that you snap you shake it It goes ice cold and you can put it in your underwear and then on the bits and pieces down Oh with the comfort the soothing nurse the comfort.It's heavenly.I've got nursing bras I kind of have forgot.I I mean, I can't remember that in specific things.I had last time I Catch all pads really glamorous keeping it already gorgeous.

I've got my fan It just feels very real now.That's great.Toiletry bag.I've packed it as though I'm going on a luxury holiday just because personally that's something that's going to make me feel great in hospital if I have all of like my nice favourite skincare products and just stuff that makes me feel like a little bit more at home.One thing I would recommend packing though that absolutely changed the game for mewith Bambi and my birth with Bambi was a soft blanket, like an extra large soft blanket that you can lay down on the hospital bed because let me tell you one thing about this hospital sheets.

The hospital bed sheets feel like you're sleeping on what could only be described as tissue paper, A4 paper, card, like it literally feels like they are so obvious because they're hospital bed sheets, you're not staying in a hotel.They're so crunchy and not comforting, like laying down.Zoe gave me a blanket, I can't remember the story, but she gave me a blanket and that blanket changed the trajectory of my birth because I laid it down on the bed for some more softness and comfort and it was incredible.It changed my whole experience because I was lying on a soft, comforting fabric versus lying on what's going to be described here literally as tissue paper.Oh my God.

Nipple balm.

I don't remember using that last time.Um, so I've got one of those perineal washers, one of those things you squeeze down there.Um, this just feels really funny because I just feel like, even talking about it now, I don't know if you guys get this, but you know when you're talking about something and it doesn't feel, the words are coming out of your mouth, but you're not resonating that like it's actually happening, like I'm talking to you guys about all this stuff, but it doesn't feel like I'm actually going to be using any of it, or it doesn't actually feel like I'm actually going to be giving birth, I don't know, like guys, is that?Thought by now, I'll be so honest with you.I thought by now I'd be feeling different and I'd be feeling I don't wanna say I'm not feeling excited, but I just thought I'd be having different emotions Those emotions haven't arrived yet.I'm hoping there's still time and I know second time around it's different But I just have a worry that like my feelings being the way I feel and not because it's like second time around it's not a big deal it's more just because of how much like trauma and Scare factor I carry from the last time that I'm just kind of

I don't know.I'm just stepping into this era of life again that last time literally haunts me.And that's not normal, is it?It's so not normal that the newborn stage should be, well, no, it is.It does happen to some women.It is just the case.

Some women absolutely love the newborn stage and others have an experience like I did where I would never really want to experience it again and I'm about to experience it again.And that is somewhat absolutely terrifying for me.And that's all I've got to say on that, really.If you don't laugh, you certainly won't cry.Listen, I'm so, so, so, so, so lucky and blessed to be having another baby.And I literally can't wait to meet them.

I can't wait to see their face.I can't wait to...The love I know will be...The love I had for Bambi, even though I was going through all of this, I wouldn't have changed it for the world because you love your baby so much.But I don't know, it's just scary, isn't it?It's just...

It's just a lot, but yeah, those are some of the things I've started to put in my suitcase so far.And I probably won't do like a pack my hospital bag video with me because I don't know, I just feel like you do all that the first time around.I just, I don't know, I don't look like I'm that kind of mom.I don't know.I've been talking for 18 minutes.Wow.

I'm going to change the setup because this has probably been so uninteresting this whole chat.I'm just snipping out to go and grab Bambi from nursery and I thought now might be a funny time to show you our current setup.which may also be contributing, I think the house is probably contributing to the way I'm probably feeling at the minute, just about the birth and baby and everything, which I'm gonna, when I get back later, I'm gonna try and show you the other rooms.I just have to rush off to nursery pick up now, but yeah, this is our current setup.So what was once a tranquil dressing room is now a dressing room slash hybrid toddler bedroom.But she's absolutely loving it in here, and she's actually surprisingly loving it.

so well in here like it's yeah she's really really enjoying it we put her little rug in as well to make it feel a little bit more bedroom -y.The only annoying thing is when I forget to grab pyjamas before I put her down to bed then I have to wait for she to until she's asleep and then clamber over her to grab her pyjamas I'm normally naked just go out of the bath it's not very glamorous and but yeah This is the current bedroom setup.Honestly, it weirdly feels like very cozy and cute in here.And to be honest, knowing Bambi, she probably won't want to change it.She loves stuff like this.It's like a little camp out.

It's a couple days later from when I last checked in.Yes, do you want to come and sit here and I'll do it for you?What do you have going on today?What do you need your makeup done for?

Okay, okay.

Today is a Sunday and we are just getting ready for, where are we going?the park hopefully going to go and get some breakfast as well i mean i don't know how we're going to fit all this in um i mean yeah i don't think we're going to be able to get breakfast as well so maybe i'll go grab us a croissant from gail's or something just want to update you guys on we had a really close family member give birth yesterday so bambi gained a little cousin a big plot twist because we didn't expect the baby to come yesterday so that kind of overtook our day hence why i didn't vlog okay i'll see you in a second come straight back please because I'm waiting for you to do your makeup.Yeah, in the makeup parlor.Feel a little bit.depleted, just like, just, you know when you just sigh another day?I don't want to explain it, but I just feel a bit low.

I think just because it's been a full week of like mental and so bambi, it's Sunday, I'm exhausted.Tommy's exhausted from training camp.And it's just like, one of those days in pregnancy that before a toddler, you just lie horizontally in bed all day.When you have a toddler, like you just have to get up, get out, get going, find things to do.and all of that.So yeah, just a little bit down.

I don't even know why, I think it's just my hormones.I feel really hormonal at the minute.We are getting ready for church and I actually always feel a lot better after church, so that'll be nice to do this morning.Outfit of the day at the minute is literally just anything black and loose and comfy.Um, that's my go -to uniform currently and anything that I can slip on like a ballet flap because I'm at the point now where laces are not great.Um, but yeah, anything just like super baggy, super comfortable, um, it's just the chaos.

Cool, it's quite a nice sunny day though, so I think I might pick a little pair of sunglasses.I will move back onto actual camera in a minute.These little mew mew ones I think will do.And yeah, that's me ready for a little bit of breakfast, chat, hopefully a nice-stressful day but don't mind me because i do feel really hormonal and it's um well i don't know why um but yeah anyway peace and love yeah daddy did do that no daddy didn't do that it's mommy's big badass mommy's big badass didn't do that go on babe that's done is it yeah is that it yeah that's it That was so boring.Okay, I'm back on normal camera and I'm sorry every time we keep leaving the house I just keep forgetting to film but that's just because once again we're just focusing on avoiding the toddler tantrums and I've just been eating a load of ice again so my lips are frozen again so sorry about them moving strange.

I just wanted to give a little house update because I know I said I would do that and there is so So much going on at the house that I'm not gonna like show you everything because I feel like this would be a whole separate vlog If I was to show you everything that's going on, but I'll just show you that roughly some changes like what's been happening because it's a lot and like what I've really only two minds got whether like starting this renovation process and when I did was the smartest thing ever because by the time the baby's here like it will be somewhat finished or if it was the most stupid thing ever because all I want to do is nest and like enjoy a clean home and everything is like heavy with dust um but then also who wants to do building works when you've got a newborn so I don't know I feel like I've made the right decision but it's just listen we're very lucky to be able to make these changes to the house and I would need to stop being moody today so I'm definitely not moaning it's just been um Yeah, it's just been different.Anyway, I have to show you this one thing because this is actually funny and this is going to be a Christmas miracle that I want you guys to be a part of if this executes the way I'm being told it's going to be executed.This living room right here is the living room that looks opposite onto the living room that has been done.This is a bit messy, the cushions need plumping, but this is the room that we transformed and I couldn't be happier with it and supposedly in the next two weeks this room is also going to have this transformation.Now I'm Honestly, this is hilarious because when you give a man an inch they will take a flipping country mile.This room was empty for a week and what did Tommy go and do?

He went and ordered a pool table and literally I said to him just so you know Tommy like the minute the building needs to go in that room that pool table needs to go and he's like yeah yeah but I actually feel bad because he has played it every single day and loves the pool table so much but I just don't really know where we're going to put it.I think maybe in the swimming pool room, I'm not really too sure but anyway, that's a problem for another day, aka tomorrow when the building work starts in here.But apparently this living room is going to be transformed into my cosy What I'm going to make it is a playroom because all of these toys need somewhere to go.We're having these cabinets ripped out, redone, a new light.We're kind of, it's not having a refurb, it's just having a revamp.There's nothing structural happening except for the new cabinets.

And we'll just basically be decorating.We're going to paint it, wallpaper it, panel it, you know, all of that good stuff.So like things like this, like this unit needs to come out, this needs to come off the wall.So these curtains.Literally, I hate them so much.They need to come down.

I'm actually gonna keep the antique mirror that's here because this antique mirror is great.It's very similar to the one that we had put in that living room.So we're gonna keep that mirrored wall.So yeah, it's just having a bit of a facelift, basically, this room.And I wanted to show you this to, for you guys to be witnesses to the fact that if this gets done, this will be a literal miracle because it's not even been started yet.So next up I think is the one that's probably going to summarise that part of my brain that feels very hickledy -pickledy and not very chilled about this baby coming.

This room really defines that and summarises it.So this is Bambi's new bedroom the bedroom that i'm waiting for to be finished so that she can come in here she will literally be in my dressing room until this room's done basically but the builders keep telling me and like my joinery guy who i've used for years now and my interior designer was like it's going to be finished and i'm like are we seeing two like are we seeing two different realities here because this is carnage i'm just going to show you now this is what bambi's supposed new bedroom that's going to be finished in apparently less than two weeks is currently looking like and i'm just documenting this because when the builders hopefully do pull this off and it's all done i mean they will just need the biggest pat on the back ever and why is that radiator on it's not good um but basically this room i think what i'm struggling with is to look at this room has changed like hardly but it's all these little parts of it that i don't see like like electrical things that have been changed and coving bits that have been changed that weren't there the ceiling's been redone because it was so wonky so i think it's just small little details that take so long that you Yeah, I don't know that you have to really factor in, I don't know, but oh my gosh, honestly, my nesting brain right now finds this really quite hard to comprehend that my daughter's going to apparently be sleeping in here by the time the baby's here, which let me tell you, is literally around the corner.All these wardrobes need to be redone, her bed,to be fair, is getting started tomorrow.Tomorrow's Monday and the joiner, my joinery guy, is starting and her bed's gonna be put in apparently.So I'm really hoping that suddenly this week we're just gonna see a massive transformation.

And my God, do we need to, because I just feel like, yeah, very, very, I'm barely good, I'm gonna lose me job.

Wait, what?

Can I even touch this?Anyone that was wondering.This is, yeah, currently where we're getting our change.We're going to venture into the guest room.So in here, we've had a massive renovation because our Avenger is still there.He still lives to tell the tale.

In here, we've had our bathroom and the bedroom redone and the windows taken out and put in.So a full -blown top to bottom renovation.If I press this, am I going to get electrocuted?I don't know, thank God.So guys, who remembers what this bathroom used to look like?This was the bathroom when we first moved into the house that I was in all the time with all of my toiletries and the shower that I used.

And this is what it currently looks like.I am hopeful that this is going to be done soon because the tiling is going to be started this week.And really the bones are here now, it just needs to be tiled.the cabinet needs to be put in for like the sink and everything so hopefully this will be done and then we've had a little arch put in here which i think is a really nice feature and leads through into the bedroom so obviously if you guys remember there was that big wardrobe unit in here now this room is literally almost unrecognisable from what it once was but again absolute spiral of a mess um that i had to try and block out um but yeahso like all of the coving, the panelling, new windows, the archway, which I'm really happy with.Our Avenger, Avenger, however the hell you say it, friend still living to tell the tale.

I'm hoping they're going to paint over that ASAP.I guess you guys are kind of seeing now why Bambi is sleeping where she's sleeping, because The room next door to Bambi's is going to be...So Bambi's...Sorry, I'm not making much sense.The nursery is also being renovated.I'm not going to show you that because it's right next to Bambi's bedroom and there's not much to see.

It's basically just Bambi's old bedroom in an absolute building site.There's like panelling, new electrics, a new roof again, like all just newness basically.It looks very similar to how this does.So you kind of get the gist, but... i mean i could put her on the top we have like an office and tommy's wardrobe room upstairs on like a another floor but i don't really want her on a separate floor to us and it's just not very cozy those rooms aren't carpeted upstairs so the dressing room just felt like the best option but i mean Yeah, I think this is obviously probably playing a huge factor as to why I don't feel very nesty and very like gooey and seeing all the baby clothes because I don't know it's just life is just hectic but obviously to be able to do this to the house we're very very lucky and it is going to be so so worth it.But I had to just show you guys this because I feel like if it actually gets done in time and we have the transformation that I'm being told is going to happen we've got one bathroom, one bedroom, two bedroom three bedroom so three bedrooms a bathroom and a living room is supposedly going to get done in two weeks i'll believe it when i see it but also it has to get done because one thing i've said is i actually can't come back to a building site with a newborn i just can't i can't like i've done it in my nesting period i've done it in my what was meant to be like a gorgeous period i can't do it with a newbornI just can't.

The babies have to be gone so fingers crossed they will be but that's a little house update for you.Got 10 minutes until I'm gonna get Bambi up from her nap so I'm going to sit and edit this vlog together and then Tommy's also having a nap.while she's napping and then this afternoon I think we're gonna have a really nice afternoon it's actually another family member's birthday today Tommy's auntie so I think we maybe go out for some dinner with her it's all just like really like lovely vibes within the family at the minute because the family's just welcomed another baby so like Bambi has a new cousin who I'm just like dying to see and spend time with also like the poor her poor mom gave birth yesterday and I'm like Can I see the baby?Yeah, and they're like birthdays, births, another birth imminent.It's just like, yeah, just such a gorgeous, May is just a special month because pretty much every single family member in our lives has a birthday.And I don't know, May just feels like the transition of spring into summer.

There's so many things to be so, so, so grateful for, and we are just incredibly, incredibly blessed and lucky.Yeah, I'm sorry that my vibe's been a bit low, but obviously the hormones in pregnancy towards the end are just, wow, wild.And I am like really, really proud of myself for this pregnancy.I really do feel like I have through it but I also need to give myself a little bit of grace that it's okay to not feel myself heavily pregnant with a toddler that is really full on and even like today for example at the park when we took her to the park and I didn't vlog because again just to make it through I've got to stop doing that.Every single child had a coat on and trousers and what was Bambi wearing?I'll insert a picture here because it's the only thing that I literally could get her in and then look at what I had to do at the park.

was at another picture because she was freezing and I was like you're literally shivering Bambi this is why you have to wear a coat and it sounds like I'm being a bad parent I guess I kind of am because I'm not winning these battles but I don't know how I don't know how to win the battle every single child in the park even kids her age have their jackets on and trousers and she's in a literal summary outfit i think maybe some of you will tell me that you know that rail that i showed you on the landing before like it needs to go away and she needs to not be able to see but i think because the way the house is at the minute i don't really know where to put it where she wouldn't see it so i don't know anyway it's really not a big deal but it's just yeah i think obviously Pregnancy first time around, I've said it so many times, when you need to rest, you rest, when you need to eat, you eat.You come first and the baby comes first, but toddlers, when second time around, toddler comes first, you know, and that's just the way it is.And I wouldn't change it for the world.Obviously Bambi is our entire world.She's unbelievable.Like even at church, she's just, she is so, so cute.

She was literally, she was going like this to the sky and I said, who are you blowing kisses to?And she went, I'm blowing kisses to Jesus.And I was like, you are actually the cutest thing in the entire world.And the woman next to us, I think she literally nearly started crying.And I literally felt so proud of her.Guys, I've got stage fright because he's now walked in the room, and I'm embarrassed.

So I'm gonna bring this vlog to a close.If you've made it to the end of this video, thank you for watching.And hopefully I will see you all in my next one, which hopefully won't be as long as a break between the last one as it has been to this one.I love you, and I'll see you guys soon.