we broke up

Really just don't know where to start honestly We're not crying this video hopefully I did my lashes and makeup I've cried way too much I don't think there's any tears left to be honest. This video is so uncomfortable to make honestly. Hi for my last two videos I Let you guys know that like I am definitely like going through something I'm just not ready to talk about it. Um, and I ended up posting what happened like a week ago

I don't even like saying out loud like it just like Jalen and I did break up Um, oh my god I can't even look at the camera But Jalen and I did break up? Oh No, I couldn't find any tissue

So I'm I feel like for me saying that I was going through stuff like and I just didn't wasn't ready to talk about it um, I feel like some of you guys knew what was going on and Kind of know me in a way. I literally cannot. I do want you guys to know that Jalen is still my best friend. Like, basically we left off on good terms. Um, and there's no cheating, no nothing.

So yeah, just want to clear that up because some people thought Jalen cheated. He did not. It's just been really hard, obviously, because we have crew.

Oh my gosh. No. Jalen cheated. He did not it's just been really hard obviously because we have crew Gosh

No, I Can't a lot of people want me to like spill the tea or the drama or like say what happened between us But I will never say the wiser how we got to this point I just feel like we need to keep certain things offline Like you guys have literally seen me give birth like you guys have seen it all but this is one thing that

It just needs to like be kept offline and I hope you guys can understand that I mean Jalen and I have two sons and I don't want crew to grow up and see a Video of me saying why me and his dad Broke up like that's just weird people don't need to know that because it's just between Jalen and I so I hope you guys can understand that and um oh My god, this shit sucks. We definitely took some time to like process everything we broke up mid-june

we've given ourself like some time to process everything and it's just so hard because we obviously have so much love for each other and we've been together for over five years and before us being together for five years we were friends for years like we went to the same elementary school like it's a lot and we're grieving the relationship that we had and

The like future

That we had it's just a lot it's a lot Oh my god, no, I just did my freaking eyelash extensions and they can't get wet But it's okay. It's okay. Oh my gosh guys. I'm such a cry baby Let's see if my makeup lasts because I mean I used this waterproof like setting spray So review I do want to say oh my gosh, this is another thing if you guys see anything online that someone posts Um, please take it with a grain of salt if it's not coming from jayalen or I don't trust it. Okay, some of you guys got a glimpse of what let's not get into it That doesn't have to do with Jalen. It's just like outside

People if it's not coming from Jalen or I don't trust it. Okay Please I usually don't reply to hate But I've been seeing this so much online and I've been getting this comment Which I already knew I was gonna get this comment along the lines But it's pretty much like I saw this coming Um, you guys were together for five years had two kids and you guys still weren't married

Guys for the people that are saying that It's truly not your timeline to judge and not everyone has to follow a specific way and thankfully I'm not living mine for your approval. also regardless if I had a ring or not it wasn't gonna save the relationship I would have ended up having to get a divorce and spend money basically what I'm trying to say is like things like this can still happen if you're married or not the ring isn't gonna help or fix

anything and people can have their like opinions or whatever. That's fine if you feel that way, but people don't need to put so much shame on women already going through a breakup and saying something like that, if that makes sense. I don't know if I'm saying that correctly and I'm not trying to be rude or anything, but it's just like if you see someone online already already like kind of struggling have some empathy people put so much shame on just women and it's like Can we all just be nice? Is it that hard? Anyways, that's all I have to say about that guys

Look at my makeup. Okay period I did post an Instagram saying we have a lot of catching up to do which a Lot has happened Most of the questions we're asking about the breakup and like all of that Which I feel like I covered if you guys have any other questions, like feel free to ask me them, but I'll never be like sharing why or the ins and outs of our relationship just it's not Appropriate and we have crew and seven. It's just no

Hope that's not coming off as mean a lot of the questions are asking if I'm okay and how I'm doing mentally Which thank you guys so much like truly that means a lot. Um, I don't know. I feel like I've been Taking it day by day. Some days are harder than others Some days I'm like, oh I can I can do this I see the light at the end of the tunnel and then some days I'm literally like crying 24-7. And that's how it's been lately. I feel like ever since I like made it public that we broke up, it almost kind of like felt

more real in a way. I don't know if that makes sense, but it almost made it feel more real now that everyone Knows now Which is why we definitely wanted to give ourself time. That's why we didn't like post right away that we broke up Because um, we're going through it. I'm taking it day by day and Just letting myself feel all the emotions and not run away from it Which can be really uncomfortable because I feel like I'm used to like running away from my emotions

and then it like backfires on me in the future and then I have to deal with those emotions so I'm just trying to like really lean into them and let myself feel everything because I feel like that's a good step for like healing and stuff I would say the same for like Jalyn

Another question that I've been getting a bunch is Are you still moving to Arizona? That is a good question because literally in April we went to Arizona and like looked at houses I put an offer in and I truly don't know. This is all like super fresh and We're dealing like with everything here. I'm not sure how it's going to look like if moving to Arizona is still a possibility. I'm honestly not sure like I have to talk to Jalen about that

but that's kind of like not even really on my mind. I'm just like focused on healing and crew and navigating this like new normal so it hasn't really been at the forefront of my mind I'm like damn like I don't know how I'm gonna handle another fall and winter in Washington because it is so dark and depressing obviously Cruz are number one so I'm gonna do whatever is best for him and Jail and I have to be on the same page

the answer is I literally don't know unfortunately

I definitely do still really want to invest in a property in Arizona have to be on the same page. The answer is I literally don't know, unfortunately.

I definitely do still really wanna invest in a property in Arizona. I just don't know logistically how that would work when crew starts grade school and Jalen and I being separated. And obviously we wanna all be together.

So I'm not really sure. I need to talk to Jalen about that. But for right now, I have no idea. I have no idea. If it was up to me, honestly, I would probably rent this house out and move to Arizona. But it's not that simple anymore. So, another question is, are you and Jalen living together?

Um, right now, since everything's like so fresh, we are. But that's obviously temporary because I don't think it would be the healthiest for us to Continue to live together, even though we're comfortable with that. I just feel like emotionally like that is not good for us So right now we are living together, but we're taking the steps to change that those were like the most asked questions But if you guys have any other questions like comment them below I just want you guys know like jail and I are on good terms

We're best friends I literally put that on crew like I promise you we are on good terms because I know people just want to hear drama or Like something to do with cheating. It's just not that so yeah, this has been such a challenging year. It's definitely made me so strong and I'm proud of myself for putting myself first and I don't know this just fucking sucks though. Like I'm sad um but I love you guys

and if you see me on TikTok making jokes like that is my way of coping Okay, like dark humor and all that like I Need a laugh or else. I'll cry truly. I will cry in like 0.5 seconds But yeah, I love you guys, and if any of you guys are going through something similar I feel for you, and I'm sending you so much love because This shit sucks. It sucks so bad and you guys will still probably see Jalen in the background of vlogs I mean, we're literally going to

Arizona this Saturday, so yeah, no matter what we're always gonna be a family and Yeah, you guys see him in the background of videos or pictures together like That's my bestie. Okay. I love you guys see him in the background of videos or pictures together like That's my bestie. Okay. I love you guys so much and Thank you for all the support and love and just all the kind messages. I'm gonna continue to heal and Yeah in my healing era, I love you guys and I will see you in the next vlog

Yeah in my healing era, I love you guys and I will see you in the next vlog Well, this wasn't even a vlog. This was just a sit-down. Yeah. Okay. Bye