Weekly vlog | friends, food shopping & chilled evenings

Hey guys, I'm back with another vlog.Who would have thought three weeks now is this?I'm hoping because I haven't even posted the second video yet.So I'm hoping this is three weeks being consistent.I'm trying to get back into it.I'm on a roll and I have not felt happier today to pick up my vlogging camera.

So I feel like whatever I've done, I don't know what decided to kick me up the arse to start YouTube and actually, not start it, but start it again and actually follow through with it.But whatever it was, it's worked and I'm back.I've been watching Euphoria.I've nearly finished.three seasons in less than a week.I started last Sunday until this Friday.

And the thing is as well, it would be understandable if it was on my iPad and I could carry it around, but it's not.I've only got it on my TV upstairs because I'm signed into a different Amazon account, so realistically I could just sign into the Amazon account on my iPad, but I haven't.I've got it on my TV.I've watched all three seasons actually going out of my way to go and sit upstairs and watch the TV, but I've been obsessed with it and I've been binge watching it.It's fucked up my sleeping pattern because I'm a bed probably about 11 p .m Wake up at half 8 9 that's normally my routine But because I've been so addicted to watching it like literally last night.

I think I was up there.I like maybe half 8 Yeah at night and I stayed up there till 1 p .m.1 p .m.1 a .

m.Watching you for real like back to back to back to back because I was like Every time I'm like, okay, this is my last episode, it would end in a cliffhanger, and then I'd have to know what the next thing is.So then I would watch the next one.Oh, and then that one ends in a cliffhanger, so now I've got to watch the next one.It's now fucked up my sleeping pattern, as I was saying.This was the whole point of the fucking story, and I've just gone on some massive tangent.

But this morning, I set my alarm for half nine.That went off.Turn that off.I woke up at 10.My eyes, oh my god, I've got a picture.I have my eyes at 10 and I'm trying to stay awake.

I'm looking on TikTok, everything.I fall asleep to TikTok playing.What time did I actually wake up?11?I didn't get up.It's a half 11 like for me That's diabolical because when I was younger my sleeping pattern used to be that I wouldn't wake up till like 2 p .

m I don't know how I did that because now when I do it, I feel so guilty.I'm like, oh my god the day has gone and I have slept through the whole entire day.I might as well just get up, get in the shower, put my pyjamas on and go to bed because I have missed the whole entire day, even though I'm being so dramatic because it's literally 12.But then I'm straight away like, okay, well now I need to get up and do something ASAP.So I messaged my friend, said, do you wanna go on a walk?Because I'm like, I have to get up and get out of the house when I've woken up late to make me feel like I've done something with my day.

But like, realistically, it's really not that deep.It's fine to have a lay in.I need to tell myself that look at my eye in this picture.Look at that crease.What is going on?Oh shit I have actually oh god.

I think I've got myself eye bags It is I've kind of got put off matcha for a bit just met at my at home matcha Because I've run out of the white chocolate sauce that I had from blank tree and then the only thing I have is this vanilla one and also the matcha I brought when I do it it tastes like There's this matcha that I used to get from the shop, and I didn't like that matcha, and it tastes like that matcha, and I think it's like the vanilla syrup.So, I've had to have a break, and I've gone back to coffee, which feels like a very big change for me, but it was when, for my birthday weekend, we just only had coffee in the house, so I was drinking coffee, and I decided I liked it again.Normally, I feel like coffee's like, oh, it just feels a bit too heavy.It's very much like a big kick.It's a vroom.coffee but then I didn't really feel that on the weekend so I don't know why I've been chatting shits the whole time yeah so I'm gonna make a coffee and the friend my friend Ari that's who I'm going on a week with she's gone to Jones juice with her boyfriend she's bringing me a

Hallelujah, because I actually don't have any lunch in my house.I was gonna go to the shops I don't know where bar like basically, I've been trying to cut cut out oat milk, right because everyone says it's pretty bad for your skin and It's bad for your gut blah blah blah and all these problems, right like that oat milk's not actually that good for you.Oat milk is my favorite milk.I love oat milk.I eat, breathe, sleep this shit, okay?I fucking love oat milk.

So I've been trying to substitute it for coconut milk.which don't get me wrong coconut milk sometimes in a matcha is quite nice but oat milk is just so good so like i've been trying to debate like how much i actually want to cut it out and like the other day i went to the shops did my whole food shop i thought i'm not gonna buy oat milk i'm just gonna buy coconut milk second of all i'm so sorry to m &s because i love everything that you do but this coconut milk just isn't as good as the rude health one that they do the coconut one and then I went to the shops over there just to get top -ups and I bought I milk because I was just like an Oat milk ice latte with vanilla syrup Wow, wow.Wow, it just really hits.Hey, so trying to balance it out and I've got these Tropical I don't even know how to say this cafe.Okay.I think it's good there.

It's a good thing.

I don't know.I They're basically like a live bacteria and it feeds the good bacteria in your stomach to help with like digestion and stuff like that.I've only taken one, I started yesterday, so I don't know if this has made any difference.But, do you know what?It does have a little bit of like a vinegary, actually, let me double check these are definitely in date, because like, what if I'm like, oh yeah, it's a bit vinegary, it tastes a bit sour, and they were like out of date this whole time.

Oh no, they're fine.

Okay, so they have a vinegary sour taste, but it's like,really subtle and the yogurt overpowers it.I also feel like this probably lines my stomach for the coffee.I don't feel like I should have coffee on an empty stomach.It's actually quite nice.If you like tropical yogurt, like when you was a kid and you'd have like Then you'd love this.

Anyways, this is literally my intro and I've been talking for eight minutes.This is why my vlogs are so long.You know, I always think like my vlogs aren't gonna be that long.And then Alyssa sends them back to me.She's like, oh, it's a long one.And I'm like, hour.

I'm basically filming fucking documentaries at this point because how is my vlog an hour long?So I think I need to start wrapping this up sooner.I'm gonna come back to you when my coffee's ready.And also I feel like I've spitballed so many like different Facts and health and nutrition things at you and realistically I've just learned that all of tick -tock and that could all be bullshit So, please do not follow my advice.Hey, I'm back I made half an iced coffee because do you know what?I thought you're good shot, you know when you like wake up and you're like, yeah I feel like I need something right now like a coffee or a drink or whatever.

Well that kind of like satisfied me weirdly So I'm just gonna make half a coffee because I don't want to feel sick Also, I have a jojoba juice sandwich on the way and if I drink coffee, I feel like It makes me not hungry and I want to enjoy my sandwich so at the cameras wait something tastes weird I don't know if it's because I've had just had the yogurt so that's in my mouth or if it's because I just use a new Nespresso pod and I got pistachio ones or if I just didn't have enough in a syrup or if it's the milk I'm gonna give you guys a front room update because we've had a big also ignore that It's from my birthday weekend.It jumpscares you to think of I felt that this whole week anywaysa dramatic change in the fun room.Ta -da Look how stunning this rug is It does need to be pushed in a bit more but only me and grace were home and we couldn't do it So it's like this for now, but how much better does this look?I mean this table is meant to be here But it looks so much better and if you're thinking what these boxes well when I had a day free I had I was scrapbooking because I had, I basically have loads of scrapbooks that I need to do or don't need to.But there was one that I started last year which was like all accomplishments that I had or like fun things I did with brands or just any Cool things I did stuck out and put in a book, but I hadn't updated in so long So I had to do that then it also had loads of disposable pictures from like Different holidays and stuff that I wanted to put in a book and then I still have never done the one From traveling three years ago, but that one is such a big task and I've kind of put it off I haven't finished the disposable one because I ran out of glow so I need to go to the shops today and and get close.

But I think I'm going to enjoy my morning coffee, sitting down and watching Euphoria.And I don't know why, but just like, if I sat downstairs on my phone, it just would feel like, I'd feel like, oh my God, I'm a lazy slob.But because I'm sat upstairs watching a bit of TV, it feels a lot more Acceptable that makes sense.I don't know.I just really need to get okay with like doing nothing I'm like that just being absolutely fine me and Harry gonna walk.I literally haven't vlogged anything.

We've watched well The last episode of euphoria so good.So good.She banned me from going on my phone talking Yeah, you had to and I did and it was actually so good We need to go to the shops because all my friends are coming around because we're booking a holiday Yeah, so I need to buy stuff for dinner.I think we're gonna do crispy chickencheese salad chips pasta spicy Okay, we went a bit overboard because I'd find a new stuff like this cauliflower Dip and then jalapeno poppers because me and Ari love jalapeno Yeah, then we found a spicy tomato sauce I need to drive down to another shop because we need we need Frank's Buffalo hot sauce.

I've run out and you know, there's two different kinds there's Buffalo and then there's normal one, but the normal one's better.Yeah, but I've never tasted a difference I feel like no, I feel like the normal one so much spicier.

Oh, is it trying this?

This is my favorite It's so good.I don't know if that one's good, though.

Oh, is it good?Really good.

Do you want to try my one?

Did you ever used to get the Lucas Aid pink lemonade one when you were younger?

Mm -hmm.Yeah, that is good.

Oh!

Yeah, we need to get it.Yeah, we need to try it.

What other ones did they have?I don't know.

I thought I saw, I don't know if it was a raspberry, but maybe I'm lying.I think I might be lying.Oh, God.I'm so glad I remembered this.

I can't stop eating.Found it In all her glory.This is like my favorite section.Just Yeah, I have had both but I didn't even really know it's a different spell I think also like I saw this Imagine that you know this sticky sushi rice.We saw an MST of a day.Yeah, like this with salmon avocado cucumber Okay, I'm gonna get it.

Have you ever had green Tabasco?No, I feel like it's like, you know the saucelike, um, what's it called?That you get in like Chipotle?

Yeah, yeah, yeah.I feel like I have told them before to put the green sauce on.Yeah, it's not spicy like normal Tabasco.It's so good.Should we try the dessert now?

Oh, we're trying it now.Should we do it now?Yeah, but it's gonna get a bit messy.It's fine.

Oh my god, I'm so excited.

It's a mango mousse and passion fruit with mango curd on a crunchy white chocolate base.Oh my god.

I had an ice cream version of this and it wasn't the same.

It wasn't good.I feel like we're not gonna finish one each though.But I feel like you need to get the crap.Okay, okay.There's loads of liquid, pour it out.I think I got too much chocolate and I didn't get enough mango.

Mmm, pretty fair.

I do like that.

It is good, but then I'm like, I don't know if I'd buy it again.No.I feel like a coconut one.

The mango tastes like, not like...Fruit mango take this Superficial mango.Do you know what I mean?

Like fake mango?Yeah, like a flavored drink I've dished up dinner got Caesar salad chips.I did not do enough pasta or too fair It's gone down like the cauliflower Thingies yeah jalapeno poppers Pack the car up My clothes so I cleared out my wardrobe like weeks ago and then all my friends went through it and then I had loads of clothes left so mean Alex comes to do that she's gonna sell them we're gonna just split the money because Otherwise like I just wouldn't get around to doing it.So if I get cancelled from something to a vintage Just got home it's half 12 hours just dropping Alex home.Yeah, Alex is selling myself a dresson Vintage, so I have told her she's got to be on it though.

We're sending orders and stuff.Am I a bit nervous?

Possibly.

But it's fun, I believe in her, I think she'll do a good job.I've decided to catch up on Love Island, I'm like 10 episodes behind I think, maybe 11 episodes behind now.But it's because I got so focused on Euphoria that that was all I was watching, that was all I was consuming.Now I've finished that and I'm actually really sad that I finished that because I finished it way too quick.And I just, every time and then I get really sad that I finished it really quickly.Anyways, catching up on Love Island, I'm literally on episode two.

But I'm gonna go to bed soon.We're going to join the Juice tomorrow.join the juice saturday that's our thing in the friend group we don't go every saturday but we try and go most saturdays so go that tomorrow um i thought there was something else i was going to say i can't remember good morning of a day another Can't even say this word, but this yogurt shot.Yeah, so I'm going to show you today, I already said this in the vlog, but I'm peeing again.But I'm gonna go on a walk first.I just walk around the block, and it's like a 30 minute walk, and I feel like if I make sure that I do an extra 30 minutes of walking a day, like whether I'm at the gym on a treadmill, or going on a walk, like if I do 30 minutes of walking, then by the end of the day I always hit my 10 ,000 steps, because then naturally, I walk throughout the day and then it just adds up to 10 ,000 steps so I like to make sure that I get my walk done.

I've literally just brushed my teeth so I don't know if this is going to be like really rank.I don't know why I actually really enjoy it.I think it's really nice.Later tonight I've got, I'm going out for dinner for Ellie's birthday and the outfit I'm wearing, I've got like this Adidas cold, it's like the shirt jacket with shorts and I'm going to do it with heels.I feel like it's quite a cool outfit like I feel like it would look quite cool to dress it up I just don't know if it's dressy enough but I don't really have any other options to be honest and then also I feel like I need to really get on with my outfit planning because I'm going to Miami with my friends mainly for like Abe's birthday because but like we all turn 21 so we're going for like Just straight after Abe's birthday and I have not done any outfit planning at all So I really need to also do that today at some point I'll just order a few more bits because like I don't have anything to wear.It's so hot out there.

What the hell?I literally left the house with a flipping jacket like only a thin one and I was sweating.I was in joggers and a long sleeve t -shirt.I thought it was cold outside and it's not it's actually really really warm So i'm actually now going to change into jorts because i want to keep this top on but i just need my legs out because i'm so hot also i need to show you guys my new trainers and i thought they'd look a bit weird at first because every time i've showed someone like this they've been like the fuck are they but then as soon as i put them on they're like get it i actually copied ten because she has them and i was like do you know what i don't have like a white pair of trainers such a lie literally looking at these white trainers but i don't have like Like just a white pair of trainers.So I do and I got them for my birthday But like I got them for me for my birthday.Yeah, I can't tell if this is giving like too much Adam Sandler I don't know what it is Sometimes I feel like when I don't wear makeup and then even like when I have my long hair and it's just straight Like I feel like I just look like a boy but like it's very fine line between cool and then you actually just look like a straight up man and like

Because he is boy like you're not cool like you're actually gonna walk out on the streets and you're gonna be matching with a ten -year -old boy I'm saving half my sandwich because I know I'm gonna want it later But I went and got a matcha from cafe near and I feel like when I have a matcha It's just like heavy on my stomach not heavy, but as in like It is filling and then I had the sandwich so I'm gonna save it and eat Half of it later.I need to run to say some K and get Ellie a birthday present, but I'm like what the hell do get a girl who gets gifted so much makeup and has so much makeup.But I think I'm gonna get her some hair stuff.The way hair perfume is like, unreal.So I think I might get her that.I'm a bit worried because I just made banana bread but I only had one banana left.

And I didn't want the bananas to go to waste so I was like, okay, what can I make?I normally make like these banana oat cookies but this wasn't in the vibe for that.So I made the world's saddest looking banana bread.It's literally flat.But the only dish I had was like a massive banana bread one.So I just had to make a really thin one.

It honestly looks like pita bread.Let's give it a taste test.It's actually cracking me up.Okay, wait.It feels more like a pancake.It's just not the best banana bread I've ever had.

Also, I need to show you how cute these Pilates socks are that I got in Primark.I literally just moved this camera between cupboard to cupboard.Anyway, I had to get plain white socks because The new trainers that I got, the debut ones, are just a bit too thick for them.So I got them.Then I saw these ones and I was like, oh my god, they're so cute, the blue and the yellow.However, no offence to anyone that has them.

but why has this one got a croissant on it?I don't really want a croissant on my Pilates socks.But then, it just feels a bit random.They could've put anything on there, a little bow, a love heart, croissant.But, I've got like a yellow gym set, so how cute would that be?Then, these ones I always think look so like professional.

I just bet anyone who has these looks like professional Pilates goer.But also, I feel like these are also really cute.They're my socks that I got.And then also, just in case anyone has extensions, this shampoo, the extension shampoo from Fox and Pham, is really good because when I have been having my extensions, I was using shampoo that didn't really have sulfate in it.So I was like, when I went back to my hairdresser, I was like, it's just really normal because they just don't stay soft or feel like hair.They start to go a bit chalky or dry.

And I'm like, so weird.So weird that it does that.And then I realized that my shampoo had sulfur in it, so it literally was my own fault.And then for Ellie, I just got a whey hair oil, whey hairspray, and then a leave -in conditioner as well, all from Wait, because their products smell insane.

And then I did do her little card that I need to put in the bag.

But I just found it so hard to buy for her, but I feel like that's how people feel buying for me, because I also get loads of stuff gifted.And I feel like when you get things gifted, because I nearly was like, oh, I'll just get her like a touch of cream, like a top up.And then I saw in her story the other day that she'd got a whole bunch of touch of creams.I was like, OK, that is out the window.But I feel like I don't see her get hair products gifted.And I feel like it's always nice to receive hair products, because sometimes you don't really want to buy them yourself, you know?

Right, I need to get ready for Ellie's.10's coming to mine, I think, in like 40 -ish minutes.Probably more like an hour 9 10 for my birthday.I did my eyesWell, I didn't do it.Ari did it for me, because I just can't do eye makeup.

It does make such a big difference, but I don't know if I'm just, like, do I attempt to do it?Oh, I'm sat here.Do you know what it is as well?It's the wing.I can't do a wing eyeliner.Also, my friends think it's crazy that I just get ready using this mirror, but I have a window here, so I just can't get a big mirror in front of me, but honestly, this does me fine.

Might as well try I can always take it off.

Okay, we're just gonna go for it.

We've arrived This is where we're going for dinner.I'm like so mature because it was really making me crack up that it's called Nina Guys, look how insane this bread looks.I think that's actually the best bread I've ever seen in my life.I don't know what that is though.

Bread is so good.

I think you really fucked that one up.I think you were supposed to do it aesthetically.

Happy birthday to you.

I'm so tired.It's only 1am.I'm such an old lady.It's always nice going out of the tent because she has a reason that she has to be home.She has a kid.I have no excuse.

I'm just an old lady at heart.So whenever she's like, well, I need to go back because, you know, I've got to be a mum tomorrow in the morning.So I'm like, I also just need to go home with Tan.But like, to be fair, all her stuff was at my house, so like, I would have had to go on home anyways.But I'm not complaining because I can't hack a late night.Like, I'm actually such an old lady, but I don't really like waking up with a hangover.

So if I'm going to commit and wake up to a hangover, like, it just would have to be a really special occasion, like my own birthday.Also,just the sort of person that i only get really drunk in certain settings like basically a lot of more like house parties where it's like my mum's birthday or like my birthday or like something where it's at house i don't really like getting drunk out and about anyways it says you're only 1am which is weird because like this is what my sleeping pattern has been recently like i have been going to bed at 1am but yet for some reason i think because i've been out for dinner it makes it feel so much later but i guess it's because it's like i've been out and about and then normally when i'm going to bed at this time it's like i've just been sat Lounging them out for hours.So yeah, I don't even know where I'm going with this anymore But it was actually really cute even I do really like going out for dinner Like when I go out for dinner, I do think oh I do need to do this more like just getting dressed up just to go out for a dinner like it is really cute and the restaurant as well that Ellie booked was so nice I do really need to catch up on Love Island though because they were all talking about Love Island and I bet she was sat there thinking like I'm really in the unknown right now They literally were talking about people that I don't even know even for people on love island because i'm literally that far behind i might lay in bed and just watch um i feel like i've got like half an hour left with the episode i was on so maybe i'll just finish that and then get some sleep i didn't even really drink that much i literally had one and a half what is going on i had one and a half hugo sprites So, yeah, barely even drank.Like, I'm gonna be feeling good in the morning.Also, I'm due on my period, so I'm more tired and just have no energy.

I don't know what these hiccups are doing.Okay, possibly haven't vlogged in a couple days.It's fine, we're picking it back up.I think every time I pick up the camera and me and my friends are in it, it just consists of food.So basically, the brownie stack that they got me for my birthday, I was trying to tell them how good one of the brownies was, which was the cornflake brownie.And it was so good that It's actually a Monday and we've gone and got a whole box of desserts and we've got like a box of like six and just picked loads of different desserts to try.

So we're gonna go make dinner and then we're gonna have that dessert and then also got a matcha because don't know what's wrong with me, I feel so tired today.It's actually a really good matcha as well.

This is the episode of...We're eating!

What we've got in here today is a small...

We've got a little bit of carrot cake.This was really good.

So we need to half that.We've got a bit of school cake as well.A cookie, but we got a bit hungrier.What's this?

I think it's a kinder cookie pie.

Got a second one.Smells a bit like Nutella as well.Wait.

That's the cookie dough and something brownie.

And then this is the best.This one is life changing.

Yeah, we'll come back when we're feeding the queen upstairs.

Yeah.We're going to surprise her with our...Yummy.

Oh, it doesn't even look it like pleasing it looks like that my plate looks disgusting, but I just know it tastes good What ones have you tried the carrot cake?

Yeah Yeah, you tried all the shit stuff.

Should we try the blondie with the biscoff?What was it biscoff and what?Kinder.Was it not biscoff and Kinder?

I think it was Nutella.

No the chocolate one was Nutella.This thing here with the cream on top.just Kinder and Nutella.

I swear, no, but we got this one that's Nutella.

No, because the option was either this or Biscoff and we chose this.

But I thought we got this Biscoff and that one's Nutella.

No, I think we got, I don't know if we got any Biscoff guys.I'm sure we got, I'm sure this is Biscoff.No, I'm pretty sure we didn't.I'm pretty sure we didn't.

And I'm pretty sure this one's Nutella.That's Kinder, what you've got in your mouth.Yeah, three, two, one, go.That's Kinder.

Mm -hmm.Mm -hmm.Oh, I can't breathe.The cornflake one is just the best.

Do you know what?

It really overstimulates me.

The caramel is too much.Really?

Do you know what it is?It's a bit almost like banana -y.

I feel like I'm not getting any brownie, I feel like I'm just chewing on cornflake and caramel.

I feel like all I've got is chocolate.When I had a bite of it, it was like life -changing and now it's too much.Well I can taste like chocolate ganache, like the sauce.It's all merging into one.

Why did we get six?I mean, hang on, guys.Why did we get six items?Like, I'm thinking, I know we can eat, but Jesus Christ.

Because you have to have a little taste test.Yeah.I just think I'm a texture person, so that's why I love the cornflake one.

That's why I feel like - I feel like it's just, there's a big texture to it.

Yeah, that's why I love it.I feel like these ones are all just merging into one to me now.

To me, that is chocolate ganache and caramel.

God I feel like this vlog has I've really let this one go a little bit because it's honest I just haven't even had been doing that much like I went, well to be fair I went in with my friends I just forget to vlog and I was with my friends the past two days so it's actually been lovely I don't know what's wrong with me I think I'm during my period because I am so tired I have like loads to do today I've got so I'm gonna go to the gym and then I've got like brandles to film I needto go over some stuff for like a debut shoot so I need to do like the styling for that and then I've also got a laser and appointment so like I've got a short window to like do all my like brand deals and just like catch up on all like my work group chats and go through things like that and briefs and treatments for other brands and blah blah blah so I've got all that to do today so I was like okay I'm gonna I'm gonna get up, go to the gym, and I'll be back here around, I can't remember what time I wanted to be back here.I don't know, I set my alarm at half eight, and I didn't get up till half nine, because I'm just so tired, and even getting out of bed, no, I didn't get out of bed at half nine, I got to bed a bit earlier, but anyways, getting out of bed at quarter past nine was painful.It actually was painful.I actually got a decent amount of sleep last night, so I don't have anything on this evening.and i'm gonna try and have a really early evening make dinner early have a shower early and be asleep by like 10 half 10 because i need to just catch up on sleep and i need to get back into a routine of going bed early waking up early but like the thing is is because watching euphoria fucked up my sleeping routine My sleeping pattern because I really actually did really enjoy like staying up late in my front room, but I can do that I just need to start doing it a lot earlier like go upstairs to my front room like Half a have an hour and a half of TV then go to bed, you know It is making me later because I want to go to the gym and then my mom also wants to go to the gym so I did say I'd wait for her while she drops my dad at the garage, but She shouldn't be too much longer.

And then I'm going to tell her, no talking between sets.We are cracking on, head in the game.Yeah, been taking these yogurts every day.

Oh my God, that's what I always need to have food.shop.Just remembered that.I have to do that after my laser.

Do you know why I've just waited for my mum, right, this whole time?And then I go to leave the house and she's got her headphones.I said, why have you got your headphones?She said, oh, because I've got a set workout I need to do.So if we're not working out together, then why did we need to leave together?I could have left ages ago.

I don't get it sometimes.Guys, I promised I was gonna film the gym.I literally was gonna vlog, right?But, I'm brutal June on okay, and I know I always talk about when I'm do one and I'm always very open about it So like I feel like broken at this point, but everything just pisses me off Every single thing pisses me off and it's like I find things piss me off and it just all adds up and then it's almost like Is that the day that i'm during my period it's like that's when people are like I have so many people asking me different stuff And I just want to tell everyone to fuck off and i'm like, I don't know That's just a coincidence or it's because I just don't notice it before and I just answer the question or lovey -dovey But this time i'm like, oh my god, like i'm actually Trying so hard not to be a raging bitch.I'm trying so hard when I was on the way to the gym Because my mom had made me wait for her and then we wasn't even in the same set I was like well I've pushed all my day back to wait for you because I like I felt bad to like and then we're not even working out together So that annoyed me then I had like so many people asked me different things in the car There was like loads of things I had to do like for example, I suffered the debut shoot It's really last minute and I'm like control freak.I'm like I want to put my effort into this but at the same time I don't know when I'm gonna have the time to do this So then like that was stressing me out.

Then I have like these blinders that I have to film and like there's some stuff that I'm struggling with so like that was stressing me out.overwhelming me and then you know like I literally went into the gym with like a lump in my throat and I was like oh my god I'm actually just gonna cry or scream right now and I don't know what it is so I didn't take the vlogging camera because I actually couldn't talk because I actually just would have cried my eyes out the thing is like I talk to people like all my friends and then like they say like, yeah, they feel the same, or like my mum says she feels the same, and I'm like, but like, I don't know if you do, because I can't even explain, like, I get this internal rage, like, it's actually in my stomach, and it's like every single tiny, minuscule thing pisses me off so much, when it really doesn't need to, and it's like, I don't know, maybe my mum would beg to differ, but I think I'm quite accustomed to it, or I don't know, maybe not around my family, but at the same time, I try and find my time and like not be rude and like I try and not act like I'm in a bad mood even though I am.So, yeah.So like I'm trying so hard but it's like every single...And like, and then my mum, like bless her, she's never done anything wrong.She's just asking me questions and I'm like, oh my God, I actually can't, I can't answer a question right now.

Like it was like, it wasn't even, there was nothing wrong with the question but it was just because it was a question.I just can't even be bothered to like speak.Anyways, I'm gonna make coffee and I'm gonna drink this while I do my makeup for my ad.I'm gonna film my ad, get in the shower, get in a tracksuit for laser and before I leave, just have time to just sit down and sort out all these things that seem to be stressing me out because it doesn't need to.My creativity is just amazing.stuck right now, and my brain's just not really working, and so it's more stressing me out because I'm like, I need to have, send over like, fan for the video and my brains not working oh my god I was just filming my H &M ad I've turned round in the video I've got heels on right and the other day I sprayed like conditioner spray on my hair and I made the floor so slippery and I need I kept knee stiff the other day no joke I've actually felt fallen straight over I actually can't believe it anyways did I say that I would send over this ad at one and it's half one yes but I need to quickly edit it because Everything I always just think things will take me a lot quicker than it actually does so I'm gonna quickly edit this and send it over ASAP.

That was a bit more of a painful laser session the thing is I've done a vlog about this before I go to Dolce laser and It's a different machine to like normal lasers basically it doesn't hurt But like when I say it doesn't hurt I don't mean like you completely cannot feel anything but a lot of areas you can't like thighs can't feel anything like underarms can't really feel anything and then if you can feel something it's like a prickly sensation most of the time it's like barely there like wouldn't make me flinch but i'm during my period so one underarmmore like, you're just a bit more sensitive, you feel more pain.Two, I haven't gone obviously in so long, so like the hair's a little bit thicker, it's grown back a bit more, so it was more painful.Anyways, normalizing this right now, I'm pretty sure I have PCOS like 90 % sure, I just haven't been diagnosed, but I basically have like every single symptom.I get these dark hairs on my chin, right, and So when I was younger, I used to get like one or two dark hairs.In the last, I don't know, basically my hormone balance being thrown off, my period's really irregular.

So because my hormonal balance is off, I started getting more.So like, I think I got like four or five, yeah, four or five dark hairs under my chin.So I got them lasered off today.And when I tell you, four of the hairs popped out, which means that pretty sure they're never gonna grow back, which is actually crazy.I also got my upper lip done because I do get hair there.And I'm just normalizing this right now because it's normal, okay?

It's so normal to get hair on your face, especially if you do have PCOS or any sort of thing that throws off your hormonal balance.And I used to get a bit embarrassed about it, but do you know what?I realised it's not embarrassing at all.It's so normal.Literally, Ellie was doing my makeup the other day, and I looked in the mirror and I was like, oh my God, I've actually got a moustache.I had a moustache, and I just quickly got a little face razor, shaved it off, carried on with my day.

So, yeah, I'm gonna start getting laser in sessions, just because, let's just get it gone.Get it gone.So, yeah.yeah and i need to go do a food shop oh my god it's so hot today i can never work out in england like this morning it felt a bit cold then it's so hot nowand like the other day I thought it was gonna be a hot day and it wasn't so like why It's just up and down, that's what I'm doing.I really wanna know if there's a big M &S anywhere near me because there's not one near where I live, but because I'm at this laser, I'm thinking maybe there's one round here.

Recently, I've really been struggling with dinner ideas because I just feel like I'm doing the same things over and over again, and I want other things to do, but then I just get a mental block before, not a mental block, my mind just goes blank before I go food shopping.Anyways.I've actually worked out that for like this week, I actually need two dinners and one lunch.So it's actually a really small food shop.

So I'm just going to run into M &S.

I couldn't find a big one, so I've just had to...

I've come to a small one, although I'm parked really far away from it.

I still don't know what I want, but I'm just gonna go in there and see, because M &S always have loads of little bits, so I'm just gonna see what catches my eye, basically.Oh God, my brain is draining, and I'm trying to think of one more dinner idea, but as I've said this, I've stood in the pasta section, and I thought I might do a little just spicy tomato pasta for tomorrow, and just keep it really easy.It's really hard, because everything with meat comes in twos, And I need three dinners, so it's like an odd number, but I think I'm just going to do a spicy smoked meat pasta.I'm going to get this shaped pasta because that looks really fun and it looks like it'd be nice to eat.Right, never again am I just walking into the shop with no plan of what I'm eating.Because I was walking around that shop for so long just trying to think because it's so hard when you live by yourself Salmon comes in packs of two chicken that you have to always have at least two meals out of something I was trying to figure out I do I want the same dinner twice or do I want dinner and then the lunch the same or like is there something that I can use for like lunch with the meat like I don't know my brain

just wasn't brain in but in the end I went for I'm doing like a little mix between like a Nando's and then a Mexican bowl because I'm doing like spicy rice chicken and broccoli which is like Nando's vibes but then I'm gonna add guacamole which kind of then just makes it more like Mexican vibes and anyways that for dinner and then I'll also just do the same for lunch tomorrow I meant to get three dinners and I got two what is wrong with me?No, I meant to get two dinners and one lunch.No, I think I've got it, right?No, it's fine.Anyways, and then my other dinner will just be a spicy tomato pasta something really plain and easy because I just couldn't I didn't have any more skills left up here because I don't even know if they necessarily do anything I'm not gonna know because it's been what like six days and But I'm enjoying them.I'm enjoying them seeing that every morning.

They're actually really nice So I just thought you know what?I'm gonna continue taking it because you see I wouldn't know if it's making difference until like probably a month in so just keep taking them and see if I know any difference this is actually so good because M &S small packet of broccoli because again one of the things that you just have to have for like multiple dinners if you buy a massive thing of it I bought some watermelon bites because I just need something to snack on around the house.For lunch, I had sushi from Sainsbury's, but it just didn't really hit.So I haven't actually really eaten that much today.So I'm going to have an early dinner.Rice for rice.

This is meant to be for a meal.with lunch and I thought to take it out of the basket so now I've got couscous.Brand new.Right, currently half five.So I've decided that I'm gonna go on a little walk around the block.Just to get my steps in because I'm trying to do 10 ,000 steps today.

So I'm gonna go on a little walk and then come back and that's when I'm gonna make dinner and everything.And I think I'll make dinner probably around six.Have it around half six -ish.and then get in my pyjamas and then I can just chill for the rest of the evening and go to bed early.

Let's make some dinner.

I'm just going to cook both the chickens and then just meal prep it for tomorrow so that it's just ready and I don't have to do it.I do that the same every single day.I'm just getting really bored of it now.I've just I've like way overdone it and it's just so repetitive.I need to start doing the same outfit.It's so easy just to get up and go and walk around the block, but I think I need to find a new place to walk.

It's Tuesday night and I thought, you know what, why not just have a little Hugo Spritz.I wanted a fizzy drink for my dinner and then I realized I didn't have any fizzy drinks.So, Hugo Spritz.This is frozen liver by yourself.You can make yourself a drink without even being questioned.I put so much seasoning on that chicken, it's actually in the back of my throat.

Happy Tuesday, people.I'm excited to try.All the seasonings are actually in my throat.Wow.

Dinner is made.

I honestly cannot stop coughing all the spices are just in my throat, but i'm gonna add some frank's red hot sauce Also, ari put this put me onto this tabasco jalapeño sauce is wrong with me.I've also got a peri -peri mate I've got a little visitor you can come up here chill with me You're really tired, haven't you?He never wants to come in my house ever and then he wouldn't go back in.He just wanted to chill with me He's just fallen asleep.Bless him.I literally wanted to go upstairs and watch Love Island, but I don't want to leave him because he can't go up my stairs because they're so steep.

So I'm like, I just want to sit in my room.He never comes in my room.He always leaves my house.

It's a long day.

Just had a gorgeous delivery from Google Gemini as I'm working with them.

They sent me flowers.How stunning are these?I'm going to put them in that vase.

It's half seven.I'm in my pajamas, done my skincare.put on ITV, set upstairs.This is exactly what I wanted for this evening.So I'm going to set up here to about maybe half nine, ten -ish, and then I'm going to go to bed.So this is planned out exactly how I wanted today to go.

Do you know what, I just remembered that I have in my freezer cookie dough from my birthday weekend.

That is going straight in the oven.

Although I tried to cook this the other day and it was left it in too long and burnt it all.So, um, I don't know what to hate the oven upon.Oh my God, I've got two pieces of cookie dough.So that's two more nights.I've got one chocolate chip one and then twoof a chocolate one because it just makes it even because then I've got the exact thing left for tomorrow.

The thing is like I don't even fancy a sweet treat right now but because I knew I had these in my freezer I then couldn't get it out of my head so this is what I'm having.I have been loving a sweet treat recently.I think it's because I'm due on some, like, anything sweet treat.Like, give it to me.I've got my cookie dough and ice cream.Although, I can't lie, I kind of overcooked it again.

I just keep doing it so that it's, like, turned into a cookie rather than a cookie dough.But when me and Aiden did this for the first time, he cooked it perfectly.I don't know where I keep going wrong.It just keeps being a bit too chewy and crunchy.It's still nice though.Sorry but watching Love Island sometimes is actually like watching Euro 8's date for the first time.

Like, what is some of the flirting?Honestly, if I ever got caught dead flirting like how some people flirt on Love Island, kill me, execute me.Because sometimes it's a hard watch, like it's actually... a hard watch but at the same time I can't flirt so I probably if I was on Love Island I actually would just be mute the whole time my fault because like while I'm watching I'm like oh my god my the hairs on my body are like stood up like a hard watch sometimes.Went to Pilates this morning feeling good I struggled to get out of bed again this morning but once I went to Pilates I felt better.I went and got a matcha from Cafe Nero although like low -key I don't I don't know how to explain this.When I go and get a matcha out and about, I think, yeah, it's good.

But if I picture myself making this at home, I'd be like, what the fuck have I just made?Like, I cannot make this.matcha.It's just a bit too weak That's what the problem is.Anyways, I'm going on a trip next week and they've just sent over the whole itinerary and it's like strict dress clothes like specific colors everything So now I'm gonna have to spend the next I don't know how long was meant to be filming you should be here today But luckily we're not filming it today.So I actually have the whole day free and And I'm like, it's literally 10 a .

m.And I had the whole day for like, I don't know what I'm gonna do with myself.But number one, I'm gonna plan and sort out all my outfits.So I've just ran upstairs and got my laptop because I feel like it just makes me feel more productive.I'm gonna go find outfits and I'm just gonna put Love Island on in the background so that I have something to watch.

I think I'm going insane.

I've been doing this now for nearly two hours and I cannot find one single blue outfit that I like.This is a cry for help.It's been three hours and I've only just ordered stuff.But like, I don't even love this stuff.I'm just hoping that when it comes, it just works.This is actually a petition, like, why are all the best clothing brands from Australia?

Because then they just wouldn't come in time, so I couldn't order them.I think me and Ari are gonna go on a walk, but like, now I'm like, I can't even move over to go for a walk, but I know that I need to go on a walk to like, I don't know, just sort myself out.But like, I've just gone insane.I've actually, I've lost the will to live and I don't know what to do with myself right now.I haven't even eaten today, I need to go make some lunch but I'm like not even hungry for lunch.I don't know what I need to do.

I don't know what to do with myself.That's how I feel, I don't know what to do with myself.I just heated up the dinner that I made last night.But today I need to fake tan, I've got a photoshoot tomorrow with Davey.So I'm gonna fake tan and stuff tonight.I literally feel like I've lost

brain cells.What the hell?Guys, I'm gonna end this video here.Thank you so much for watching.I will see you guys in my next video.We're on a roll here, so let's keep it going.

Bye.