where I've been...

So no matter what you say, you could explain yourself until you turn blue, but people will have their opinions and their thoughts on whatever is going on. Where'd you go? Or you know How I've been

Living on the phone Just give it I wanna go with you like I'm rising With you tonight Hands on the planet It's about time for waking up

Found you wasn't with it Waking up, I know for sure I paid the next you touch I needed to, I needed to make fried rice with the ingredients I have. I'm going to make fried rice with the ingredients I have. I'm going to make fried rice with the ingredients I have.

I'm going to make fried rice with the ingredients I have. I'm going to make fried simple and delicious fried rice. I'm going to make a simple and delicious fried rice. I'm going to make a simple and delicious fried rice. I'm going to make a simple and delicious fried rice. I'm going to make a simple and delicious fried rice. I'm going to make a simple and delicious fried rice. I'm going to make a simple and delicious fried rice. Honey, we're all falling Big hot keys and the drive-thru line We can talk, rooftop girls

But they're half of the girls when they're on some foreign Rain so poison, rainbows falling Nice skin, she first night gone falling All our friends, we just play popcorn It's my fantasy, we're soaring through the night They love it, the crew

They love it, the crew They love it, they're cruel, they love when they're cruel Oh, they love when they're cruel, oh, they love when they're cruel, they love when they're cruel They love when they're cruel, they love when they're cruel, oh, yeah

Take a nose of my keyhole, what you firing me for? So guys, I just got home from a facial. That's why I'm all glowing and red. I literally stopped at Joe and the Juice on the way home from the appointment and the cashier was like you look shiny I was like, thank you. Yeah, I got micro needling done this time. That's why I'm a little red and rosy Honestly, my skin was looking pretty good. Like this was probably the least amount of extractions I've gotten in a really long time, but my problem right now is my pore size

So they recommended I start doing micro needling sessions to try to minimize the pore size So I will keep you guys updated on that I have gotten micro needling done before But I know it's something that you need to be consistent with like do like four to six sessions So I'm gonna probably do that and see my results also guys. How cute is this little romper dress? I got this from Amazon I'll link it in my storefront for you guys.

But it is like the cutest little set. It's not a set, it's a dress, but it's like the cutest little piece for this summer. And it has built-in shorts. But yeah, it's so cute. I actually first ordered it in a medium,

which is my typical size, but it fit pretty big and baggy. So this is a small, so highly recommend you guys size down because if this is a small, I feel like girls who are actually small need like an extra, extra small. You know what I mean? I don't even realize how dirty my fridge is.

You guys tell on camera? It's bothering me, I'm just gonna clean it real quick. The twins are with Mel and Kayvon is with my dad. So I have a quiet house to cook in, which is very rare. And I got some Hello Fresh in the mail, thank goodness, because we are low on groceries. Mel actually just went to Costco,

because literally we have nothing in this house. So, HelloFresh is coming through right now. These are the three meals that we got in our last delivery. So we have the street cart style chicken bowls, except this one they sent with chicken breast. I've made this before with turkey,

but that's the cool thing about HelloFresh is that you can swap the proteins. So let's say you don't eat beef or you just want a different protein, you can actually swap it in your meal. So yeah, here is that one, the chicken bowls. Looks so good. It has some rice. We have this roasted onion and garlic meatloaf.

I love meatloaf. I will not tolerate no meatloaf slander. Meatloaf is so good. Like we talked before on the podcast, it kind of reminds me of kebab. It's like an American kebab. But yeah, we have roasted onion and garlic meatloaf with homemade mashed potatoes. And then we have these caramelized onion meatloaf sandwiches.

So I think I'm in the mood for this one. This one just sounds so good. And guys, I'm always so intimidated to make homemade mashed potatoes But then whenever I make it with hellofresh, I'm like wait that was so easy Like why am I so scared to do that? Okay guys, let's get to cooking

So again, I love how everything comes to you in these handy little meal kits and then you get instructions with photos So literally you could be the worst cook in the world and you're still gonna be able to whip up an amazing meal with HelloFresh. If you do not have one of these choppers they make your life so much easier. I'll link to mine down below on my Amazon storefront but I just chopped up some potatoes for the mashed potatoes so now we're setting the water to boil. I added some salt as well and then in the meantime I'm taking this mandolin and I'm cutting up the carrots. Again you can chop these but y'all see I love my kitchen gadgets. I'm using this to make little discs It's set to cut a diagonal, but I like when they're like thin and crispy like this

So I just sprayed some olive oil to save some calories Salt and pepper and I'm popping that into the oven What I love about hellofresh and the reason I've been using it for so many years is that it just makes it so easy to Cook delicious meals right at home It takes all the hard work out of it like planning the meal, going grocery shopping, making sure you got all the right things. You can just focus on the fun part which is just making the meal.

I love that with HelloFresh you can customize your order and create healthy modifications like for example you can use lettuce wraps or you can also have certain health preferences like calorie smart, protein smart, you can change the protein in your meals so let's say it's beef you can switch it for turkey. You can really customize it to your dietary needs. You guys can take advantage of HelloFresh's incredible offer by using my code KAVARYFM for 10 free meals plus free add-ons for life. So you get one free item

per box with an active subscription, free meals applied as discount on the first box, new subscribers only and it varies by plan so sign up today. Click the down below or use my code Kavari FM. Okay guys here is the final meal the glaze on this meatloaf so good I made it off-camera but it came it was that same packet that I used for the like to put in the meatloaf it was that roasted garlic and onion spread mixed with the ketchup and a little bit of butter pop that in the oven and oh my gosh it looks amazing we got the carrots We got the carrots, we got the mashed potatoes,

we got the Coke Zero on the side so you know it's about to hit. Bite of the meatloaf. I love, I've always loved meatloaf, even as a kid.

So good.

And the carrots I made a little bit differently than the picture. The picture shows it like cut thick and diagonal I wanted them like thin and crispy kind of like chips With the carrot with the mashed potato And the meatloaf. Wow. This is a big bite

Again make sure you guys use my code and it'll be in the description box for you guys But you definitely want to try hella fresh if you haven't already. Hi guys. We're in, Ohio I didn't vlog any of the traveling, but we are here I'm in my mom's car guys literally I'm always so scared to drive my mom's car It's almost 20 years old at this point, but it does not have Backup cameras it does not have any type of camera, so whenever I drive it like I just drove it to my hair appointment, I'm just like, how did we used to live like this? My first ever car, my first first car didn't have any cameras or anything, but pretty much like six months into me driving I had cars with you know cameras and sensors, so I'm just so reliant on it

So literally when I was like backing up the car, I was just praying to God I was like, please God don't let me hit anything. I'm about to go get a blow dry. I did not have time to get my hair done in LA, so we're gonna do it here. So yeah, let's go get this blow out.

♪♪♪ Here's how my hair turned out.

She did a great job. I just realized I didn't even record any of the blow-drying process like looking back on I'm like okay I filmed washing my hair then the actual blow-dry I didn't film but she had me face to the side for a lot of it so I think I just like subconsciously didn't think to film but regardless she did an amazing job I love how it turned out as I told Baba to say hi to my vlog because I feel like you guys haven't seen him in a while.

Yeah, hello, hi everybody.

Do you miss them Baba? We miss you. And thank you guys. Always you see me outside, you say hello.

Baba loves getting recognized. Y'all he'll call me up like, guess who just got recognized in Lowe's, take me to Hollywood. You guys see my like, well, Home Depot, Lowe's. Where else do people see you, Bobo?

All the way, many days ago.

The park?

Yeah, everywhere. Many days ago, I meet somebody in the slide, what called that, the slide?

It's like a trampoline park, kind of.

Yeah, yeah, yeah told me, I forgot the name. She told me, I come to Columbus, Ohio because Nazanin.

She's from.

Thank you so much, guys. Thank you. Thank you for your kindness. Yeah, thank you. They see me everywhere. Ah, Baba Kabari.

Ah, Baba Kabari.

Yeah.

Baba Kabari love you.

Do you guys see where I get my humbleness from like it runs in the family we're so humble yeah yeah I like this yellow you have thank you we're so colorful Baba's in blue I'm in yellow yellow my my yellow loves yellow yeah mama's favorite colors orange and Baba loves yellow. Mama's favorite color's orange and Baba likes yellow. Yes. And KK blue. KK likes blue. I thought he liked red, he used to like red.

No, blue.

One thing I love about KK is he always says, whenever he's gonna buy stuff for me or a girl, he always says a pink whatever. Like he told me he's gonna buy me a pink McLaren. He told Yasmine, I'm gonna buy you a pink Porsche. KK, why pink? Like why do you always say pink? He goes because all girls love pink. Yeah, he's smart How does he have that figured out already at five years old and most men don't?

How? He's so smart. Yeah, he's so smart. I'm staying in Yasmin's bedroom because she's not here this time She's gonna come to Ohio a little later But I always stay in her room and not my own because well the baby's cribs are in there And it's just like look at this room. It's like huge. It's so nice So yeah, I've just been taking over Yasmin's room But I really wanted to chat with you guys in this video because you know I did take a long break from YouTube It's the longest break I've ever taken on YouTube so I took about two months off of my main page

we did still post here and there on the podcast. If you guys are subscribed to the podcast, make sure you guys are. What my sis said, it's my podcast with my sister and I, which I will link down below for you guys. I did want to also acknowledge it over here on my main page. And actually got a lot of DMs like, Naz, are you ever going to come back to YouTube and I'm like guys, I would never ever ever like, I was gonna say delete YouTube or even like leave YouTube or quit YouTube. I am so grateful for my YouTube following

and I do not take it for granted at all. It's very hard to build a fan base on YouTube. Guys, YouTube is not easy. Like there's a reason why, sorry I have a hair. I just got my hair done so I feel like I'm covered in hair. There's a reason why a lot of creators

who used to be YouTubers don't really post on YouTube anymore, and they focus on other social media platforms, because YouTube is pretty difficult, especially if you're new to it as well. Like, I can see why it's hard for a lot of people to start it.

It's so much easier to make a quick 30-second reel 30 second reel or a one minute long TikTok versus a 30, 40 minute long vlog and actually getting people to sit there and watch that 30 to 40 minute vlog. And the thing with YouTube is too, like there's no hiding on YouTube. With Instagram, with TikTok, especially Instagram, like you can easily, no matter what you're going through, snap a photo real quick, smile for a photo, post it and move on with your day. YouTube is a lot more in depth, like it's a lot more, like there's no hiding on YouTube.

People can see right through you if you're upset, if you're going through something. It's a lot more vulnerable than just a post on a short format platform. And like with Instagram too, like you can just edit that real quick. Like with YouTube there's no editing yourself. Like obviously you edit, you can edit what you say, but there really isn't much editing that you can do.

So for me with YouTube, I just kind of needed like a mental break from YouTube. And YouTube is kind of like going to the gym. Whenever I think of YouTube, I think of going to the gym. When you're in your groove, you're in your groove, groove your inner groove but when you stop for a while it's almost like intimidating to start again which is so weird because I've been doing this since you know I've been doing YouTube for like literally 13 years at this point

yeah the break was very much needed and I just want to give a huge thank you to those of you who have been so supportive during this time sending me nothing but kind messages I have been experiencing an influx of opinions lately whether it's positive or negative you know some people of course take it way too far and that alone has kind of I don't want to say it deterred me from filming but like it has been a different level like I'm used to hate I've been dealing with hate for many many years

but guys I've gotten some of the worst messages some of the cruelest messages that also involve my children that's's the thing guys, this situation involves so many other people other than me. Like it's not just about me. You guys know for the most part I do share a lot of things about myself and things like for example like surgeries or whatever like that truly only affects me. Like no one else is part of that equation.

But something like this, a relationship, a marriage, it involves the other party which seeing him get hate is so hard because I feel like anytime I speak on it like there's always going to be backlash towards Mel and that's very hard because you know Mel at the end of the day didn't really sign up for that I signed up to be the influencer and sharing my life and with Mel, you know, I think any woman can relate if you've had kids with someone or you know your husband, partner like almost like I can say what I want about him, but y'all can't you know what I mean?

Like, you know, even when my friend is venting to me about her ex her baby daddy, whatever like she can say whatever She want about him, but I'm not gonna sit there and like say yeah, he was this down to third Does that make sense? Hopefully that makes sense. Yeah, it's very hard to see that happen. And then obviously when your partner is being mentally affected or down, like that pours into parenting, that pours into the home. And it's really hard to deal with that, if that makes sense.

Like guys, if there was a way for me to speak on everything I wanna speak about without it affecting the other party, my children, my in-laws, like literally this can affect so many other people other than myself again, I did touch on it on the podcast

Mel and I are best friends y'all we will always always always be best friends I almost feel like.. like we are family but we will always be family no matter what we're in Ohio together right now you know, we're still doing things together

you guys have seen us out like we still do a lot of things together and I think that's what people don't understand. The biggest backlash of this all has been that I faked my marriage, which is just, I can't even wrap my head around it and I hate speaking on it because I feel like whenever I speak on it, I just dig myself into a bigger hole

like sometimes people just don't like you. So no matter what you say, you could explain yourself until you turn blue, but people will have their opinions and their thoughts on whatever is going on Nothing has been faked. I think what people think is again It was a very poor choice of words on my post But I think what people think is that Mel and I have lived in separate houses. We've been doing our own thing

We don't even speak to each other. We hate each other but to keep face I'm like come over and we need to vlog and make videos together. Like that is not the case at all. What you guys have seen on camera is real life. Again, if you guys watch the podcast episode, Yasmin as a third party, as an outsider looking in, even says in the video like, guys, Naz and Mel are very confusing.

Which is very true. I totally agree. I think it's hard when, again, this isn't just like, oh oh we're boyfriend and girlfriend it's like there's three kids involved, three little babies involved so it's not as black and white as to be like okay let's never see each other again never speak to each other again like that's not realistic and that's not even what we want to do we still both have so much love for each other we're actually we're taking all the kids including my nieces to the movies tonight like there's we still do a lot of things together and I think that was what I wasn't understanding but I guess I have to understand that people are just

watching from the outside looking in so for them to hear me say I said in the post I've been single for a year I guess I should have said more so like I've been I've felt mentally single for a year um you know when you go through things with your partner it's kind of like you say things out of anger and again it's just so hard to have clarity when there's so many moving parts again nothing you guys have seen has been faked for the camera all of our interactions everything you guys have seen that is genuine that's literally

how we are we are together still all the time so again I think when people saw me say that they kind of envisioned like Mel and I have lived separate we've been completely broken up we don't speak to each other and it's just like Mel We need to put up an appearance on social media. So let's you know, take videos and content like that is not true at all I don't know if you guys have noticed but I feel like we haven't even been posting each other this much that this past year Like I don't think anything has been like inauthentic. Also another thing that's been circulating online

is a clip of me saying from, you know, I would say it's about like two months ago, we filmed a podcast episode with my friend Denzel. And I basically say that as influencers, people not minding their business pays our bills, right? And then there's a clip of me saying

in our recent podcast episode saying that I don't care for it anymore, don't pay my bills, I don't need people in my business. And people are saying I'm contradicting myself and that I'm flip-flopping. Now again, that first clip was filmed over two months ago. Since then, I have received such horrible messages, guys.

I literally had someone send me my full address saying that they're gonna come S-H-O-O-T me when they see me because I have lied about my relationship and my marriage. That alone, I'm like y'all have lost your mind. That was like the icing on the cake. Again, I've received really, really cruel messages but that one, like literally someone

sent me my address where my children live, where I lay my head at night telling me they're gonna off me because I quote on quote lied about my marriage sorry it's raining now I'm the first person that would preach to my friends who are influencers as well when they would get hate, I'm like y'all the positive outweighs the negative like I would take some hate comments to live this beautiful life that we live any day

now again as I'm getting older, as I'm experiencing more things, honestly, you cannot put a price on your peace. And I don't think it's for everybody. I used to tell people like, dude, screw the hate. Do the, like it's worth it for what you get out of it. You know?

But yo, like, let me tell you, your peace and your happiness is not worth a check. Like it is not worth a check. Like it is not worth a check. Again, I'm still going to create content. I'm still going to share a lot with you guys. I think that's what people aren't understanding either. They're like, oh, well now she's going to be secretive.

Not at all, you guys. Like I think people who are mothers as well, like understand where I'm coming from, but it's very, very hard to speak on a situation that so many other people will get affected by. I can't just speak to you guys like this is what happened to me personally, okay, and then we move on. No, again, it affects a whole other human being

who's also responsible for the well-being of my children. It involves three little babies. It involves so many different things, and people are like, okay, well, if it involves a bunch of people, why did you post what you posted guys i am human i'm so sorry again i've been on this i've been doing social media for 13 14 years

this is the first time i've ever done something like that and i feel like i'm getting like so much backlash for and i'm like damn like can can a girl just be upset and i think too i this is why guys i mentioned in the podcast i filmed the whole sit-down video and I filmed the podcast episode right after everything happened guys I was an emotional wreck like I said entirely way too much and I thank God every day. I did not post it But I was about to share so much that I did not need to share you guys again. All I'm asking for is grace I'm asking for empathy

Mel was my first boyfriend ever like I've never you guys gotta realize I've never experienced a breakup in my life like I've never just broken up with my little boyfriend like Mel was my first boyfriend that I started dating in high school when I was a senior in high school now I'm 26 Mel is 29 like lots of years have passed that's why I feel like Mel is literally he is family at the end of the day, and I don't want to see anybody get hurt But yeah, all I'm asking for you guys is for your grace. I'm asking for you guys to bear with me like I

Have never done this before like I think a lot of people just feel like I'm kind of lashing out on my followers or whatever The case may be but guys I feel like this is why I don't speak and you guys are like, Naz isn't posting. Just naturally in life I'm a very, I'm a firecracker. I'm a confrontational person. That is my personality at my core. So for me when I speak on things I can come off a lot more aggressive than I mean to be.

That is, that is the bane of my existence. Like, I'm very good at confronting situations, but again, sometimes I can come off a lot more aggressive and fiery than I mean to be. But again, that's just my personality. That's just how I am, and it's something I need to work on. So people kind of take it as I'm like, attacking my followers.

I'm doing this, I'm doing that. Guys, I don't know. Like I just feel like it's a lot. That's why I've just been kind of like laying off social media because I was posting right after everything happened and people were messaging me like, Naz, just stop posting, you're making yourself look worse. You're making yourself look worse.

So I took their advice. Okay, let me step back from social media. But then that turned into she's being secretive, she's not talking to us. what I'm trying to say is I'm damned if I do I'm damned if I don't and it's just a lot to kind of process right now when I'm already going through something that's so serious like separation anything like that is so such a big thing in somebody's life especially as a parent

especially as a married person like that is a big thing so to also deal with that with public opinion with the opinions of so many people It's not an easy thing and I think that's the thing to people like why does she run to social media so quick? I didn't run to social media so quick. Like I said in the post This has been something that's been going on for over a year over a year I've been trying to navigate this on my own and I felt like

As much as I kind of regret what I posted at the same time I'm like you know what this was for the best because I feel like once I brought it public there was no hiding anymore there was no trying to sweep things under the rug anymore so you know what I don't regret it also opened up my eyes to you know what Naz maybe you do share a little bit much maybe you should step back from sharing so much of your kids because that's the thing too a lot of people were involving my children in this bringing up how my kids were feeling like it was just it was just a lot so

yeah that's all i'm really going to say about it again thank you so much to those of you who are just being so kind so gracious so empathetic i know things i probably said right now in this video is going to end up on tiktok with think pieces and people trying to catch me contradicting myself. All these opinions matter. That's the thing too. Someone else said that I said that everything else is outside noise other than my kids and people have a problem with that. Guys, I'm so sorry but at the end of the day, strip everything away from me. Strip my followers away from me.

Strip my money away from me. Strip my everything away from me. Kevon, Aria, and Kai, those three babies are my life. I don't wanna cry, but I love those kids with my whole entire being and soul. That right there is unconditional love. Again, this is what sucks about this industry.

Like people take your words and twist it. Me telling someone my kids are my number one priority, everything else is outside noise I get messages like we're just outside noise. Huh us followers. We're out to wait. I'll have to wait We're outside noise. Huh? No, it's okay that we won't support you. I'm like y'all please stop looking into everything so deep Obviously my children strip everything away from me. My children are my

everything I grew those human beings those babies came out of me like they are my heart and my soul and I would take their happiness over any sponsorship over a million followers over anything as long as my babies are happy and they're good and they're healthy please don't take me saying that as me neglecting my followers like guys like I've just read so many hurtful things I think people

forget like I'm just a I'm just a girl like I'm literally just a girl like people act like I committed a crime like I feel like people are acting like I committed a crime even sometimes I read things and I'm like did I do something that I'm not aware of? like I don't know maybe it's because I have other friends who are married and stuff but like bro I have friends that are like I can't stand my husband sometimes like literally I feel like

this is like normal or like being on like so many people are like on again off again with their partner and then like for me it's like I committed a crime like I'm just I'm so confused but again me saying this I already know there's gonna be a ton of think pieces in the comments again everybody is allowed to think what they want to think everyone's allowed to believe what they want to believe but all I'm asking like I said is for you guys to just bear with me I love you

guys so much and I'm so sorry I want to take a second to apologize to my followers if during this time I made you guys feel like you guys were a burden to me or that I'm ungrateful for you guys because that is not my that was not my intention at all and I'm really really sorry I am truly so sorry but yeah guys I'm about to go over to my niece's house I'm in tears because I don't know my brother has two little girls. It's crazy because no one would have thought

that my brother and I would have kids the same age because he is 15 years, he's 14 and a half years older than me and we ended up having kids around the same age. Actually, his oldest is a little bit younger than Kayvon and then he has an eight month old baby as well.

Two cute little girls we literally call them the new Kavari sisters but yeah I'm gonna go see them and then we're gonna take all the kids to the movies tonight so we have a fun night planned but yeah guys thank you for bearing with me thank you for sitting through my tears and again I love you guys so much please don't ever think that I don't love you guys I'm literally I wake up every morning and I'm just like, thank God for my life. And I know this life would not be possible without you guys. Pretty much all I'm saying is just because

an influencer chooses to share so much of their life does not mean that they deserve backlash, does not mean that they deserve people to pry into more that they want to share. Like, that's my thing. It's kind of like,

my dad is calling because he's like where are you? Hi, Baba, I'm coming. I'm coming right now Okay, I'm coming back You heard Baba. He said yalla And I'm sitting here crying when I should be spending time with my nieces pretty much though I don't regret what I said I know people want to pull up this video of me saying well Nas says we pay our bills and now she's saying

Don't pay my bills. Don't be in my business I think again I can just come off a lot more aggressive than I mean to be but I still stand behind the fact that even though an influencer chooses to share a lot of their life they're allowed to keep something sacred you know they're allowed to not have to share what they don't want to share again everything needs to be consensual. I think we're forgetting about the word consent. Like if I'm consenting to sharing this, we don't need to dive deeper and all that stuff and like dig up things

under the rug. Like, you see what I'm saying? Like there's a fine line. Again, two things can be true at once. And again, yes, parasocial relationships have to exist for someone to have a fan base or support system. I understand that. But where do we draw the line? Do we draw the line at sending me my address telling me you're gonna off me? Like that's the thing, like there has to be a fine line

and I think it's really easy for people to judge and share their opinion when they're on the other side

of things.

Let's say I responded back to a hate comment, right? Or I put, I don't really do this anymore But let's say I posted someone left me a hate comment. I put it on my story, right? like look what this person said and then people go and Get out that person that person nine times out of ten will delete their comment Because again people feel really strong behind a keyboard without having to show their face show their life You know, they can hide behind a screen. Then when they get some people lashing back

They delete their page, they go private, they go this, that, and the third, that's what I'm saying is, again, you can't judge someone until you've been on the other side and it is not easy, you guys. It is not an easy thing to deal with. I feel like that's why I'm such an they take it the wrong way like it's very hard I think about when a friend takes something the wrong way now multiply that times like hundreds of thousands of people like it's not an

Easy thing to maneuver. It's not an easy thing to go through at the end of the day you guys we're happy. We're healthy Easy thing to maneuver. It's not an easy thing to go through at the end of the day you guys we're happy. We're healthy I love you guys so much, and I will see you guys again for my next video. Bye guys